Hey, just thought I'd put this one out since I have writers block on my other fics. This is also to those who are reading Abyss and have to wait becuase I'm re-writting it and for those waiting for the next chappie of Untamed Screaming.
If I do continue this, which I plan to, It will be rated R and Slash (HP/DM)
Disclaimers: I do not own Harry Potter or the songs.
The song used is called Breaking The Habit by: Linkin Park
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/Memories consume, like opening the wounds.
I'm picking me apart again.
You all assume, I'm safe here in my room.
Unless I try to start again./
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Sounds of flesh on flesh. Sounds of bodies hitting the wall. Shuffling of feet. Groans, sobs, and screams. He thought this was supposed to be his home. 'They' were supposed to replentish the magic his mother gave him. Well, at least that's what he was told. He didn't know what was worst, Voldemort or his 'family'.
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/I don't want to be the one, the battles always choose.
cuz inside I realize, that I'm the one confused.
I don't know whats worth fighting for.
or why I have to scream.
I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean.
I don't know how I got this way, I know it's not alright.
So I'm breaking the habit,
Breaking the habit, tonight./
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I was told I was to save the world. At a young age I was told many lives depended on me. With the weight of the world on my shoulder, I started to drown in all the pressure. Everyone failed to notice how miserable I was. They didn't see how this was slowing breaking me. The bond I shared with Voldemort gave me hope. Hope that he would kill me... Kill all the pain I have. But, he seems to be failing in his attempts. Maybe I should help him...
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/Caution my cure, I tight and lock the door.
I try to catch my breath again.
I have much more than anytime before,
I have no options left again./
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I sat in front of my wardrobe that I pushed in front of the door. My hand touched the cool metal of the razor blade that I held. Running my finger across it, I watched a trickle of blood escape the fresh wound. A shiver ran through my body as I knew that I controlled my life.
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/I don't want to be the one, the battles always choose.
Cuz inside I realize, that I'm the one confused.
I don't know whats worth fighting for, or why I have to scream.
I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean.
I don't know how I got this way, I'll never be alright.
So i'm breaking the habit,
Breaking the habit, tonight./
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I could hear screams outside my door. I felt the vibrations of someone pounding on the door. I wondered what everyone would think about their 'golden boy' now. I looked down and saw a smear of blood on my fingers. I lifted my hand and tasted some of the blood. The metallic flavor coated my tongue. My eyes were transfixed on the silver glint the blade I held in my hand had.
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/I'll paint it on the walls,
cuz I'm the one at fault.
I'll never fight again.
And this is how it ends./
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I pressed the cool metal against my wrist. Applying some pressure, I felt the blade bite through my skin. I ran it down my arm slowly, relishing in the feel of pain, the only symbol that I was alive. I quickly did my other wrist before I lost feeling in my hand. I watched the blood flow down my arm, dripping to the floor, and pooling around me.
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/I don't know whats worth fighting for, or why I have to scream.
But know I have some clarity, to show you what I mean.
I don't know how I got this way, I'll never be alright.
So i'm breaking the habit,
I'm breaking the habit,
breaking the habit,
tonight./
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My body felt heavy. I was getting drowsy. The sounds of screaming and the pounding on the door, where fading from my mind. My vision was becoming blurred. My eyes where heavy. My body slumped over to the side. My vision was black, my body limp. All sound and feeling no longer registered in my brain. Breathing was no longer a must.
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So this is where I need your help.. Should Harry live or die? Any suggestions for future chappies? Anything will help. Other than that, this was a sorry attempt first attempt at a song fic.
any kind of feedback is appreciated.