"Oi, Lux! Thank you for the advice! Kido and I are dating now!" His words echoed in my head over and over again. Kano's words. I gave him a weak smile. I gave him that advice. I wanted him to be happy. Then… why did it hurt so much?
I stared at the setting sun. I was standing at the edge of the lake. The sun made the water shimmer, like a thousand droplets of blood. I pinched myself. That's right. This is always reality. It is never a dream when you want it to be. I was satisfied when the familiar line of red seeped out out the pinch. I ripped the sleeve of my hoodie over it, not even bothering by bandaging the wound. I grit my teeth. Why does my chest hurt so terribly? Why does it feel like my heart is exploding?
I punch the air, warm tears flooding my cheeks. It hurts. Everything burned as I screamed out in anger. What is happening?
My name is Lux Izunata. I have the power, "Frozen Eyes," and belong in Mekukashi Dan. My friends are Tsubomi Kido, Kousuke Seto, Marry. Kisargai Momo and Shintaro, and… Shuuya Kano. I entered Heat Haze and received the power after I was killed a fire.
I knelt on the ground, covering my ears. The ringing won't stop. The screaming wouldn't stop. I hear a twig crunch. The ringing ceases briefly. I blink the tears away, looking behind me. Shuuya stood there silent. Unusual. His face was a mixture of nothing and shock. I looked away. "I-Izunata.." I hear his whisper.
"NO!" I scream. "I'm alright…. don't worry… Please…" I mutter, the words cracking severely. Kano refused to back away. Instead, he walked closer to me. "Izu- Lux, you've been like this for days. You've been ignoring me. My jokes don't work on you anymore. What's wrong?
Shuuya walked closer. "Izunata, what's wrong, please, what's wrong?" He managed to speak before I stood up aggressively, my hood flying off and masked black hair flew out like a ball of water. "WHY YOU?!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. "WHY IS IT YOU?! WHY ARE YOU DIFFERENT?! WHY ARE YOU DIFFERENT FROM THE REST?! WHY DO I LOVE YOU?!"
With my last press of strength, I yank the gun I brought with me here out of my jacket and throw it at Shuuya. "Just kill me! It hurts! I can't..." I hiss, my voice scratched and had no tone. Kano picked up the gun, his shivering hands made it bounce. Then, he angrily threw it away and dived over to me, wrapping his arms tightly around me.
Everytime I screamed, he hugged tighter. "Shhh, Lux, it's okay, everything's okay. It's okay…." He whispered quickly in my ear. Somehow, the ringing stopped. The cries in my head stopped. I gripped Kano's hoodie, still crying, but softly now.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I lied to you. I'm sorry. I was hiding the truth." Kano whispers. I bury my face in his chest, listening to his heartbeat. What would happen if mine stopped? Could I not hear his anymore?
"I'm sorry. I love you."
