You left me with goodbye and open arms

A cut so deep I don't deserve

Well, you were always invincible in my eyes, yeah

The only thing against us now is time

Could it be any harder to say goodbye and without you,

Could it be any harder to watch you go, to face what's true

If I only had one more day

(You fade away, fade away, fade away, oh)

I lie down and blind myself with laughter

Well, a quick fix of hope is what I'm needing, ooh

And now I wish that I could turn back the hours, ooh

But I know I just don't have the power, yeah

Could it be any harder – The Calling

5 months after the ending of Where Do I Belong

The leader of Hell's Reapers Vegas Chapter was currently kneeling, bloody and broken in the middle of a barn surrounded by members of The Sons of Anarchy. A mixture of different chapters filled the room making Bumble feel a little out of sorts.

He knew what was happening. He'd already seen it happen to all the other men of the Chapter, all dead with no evidence pointing to any killer yet he knew who it was. After all who else would only come after the Vegas chapter of the Reapers leaving all the others intact and whole?

Bumble decides on last ditch attempt to save his life, hoping and praying it will work. Though somewhere deep in his corrupt heart he knows it won't.

"She never ratted you know" He says spraying blood with every word and he knows he is probably missing a few teeth

"Who" Tig asks from his place to Bumble's right, his shoulder leaning against one of the beams, his whole posture giving off a vibe that he knows what Bumble is going to say but has decided to play along.

"Chaos"

Bumble smirks as this gets everyone's attention, mostly the guy to his left who is pointing the gun at him. Happy he thinks he heard his name was.

"What about Chaos?" Jax asks

"She never ratted on you guys" Bumble shrugs "Didn't tell us shit. Though I'm not surprised I knew where her loyalties lie well before I sent her to Charming"

"You're trying to tell us that you sent her to Charming knowing who she was" The scot asks and looking at him Bumble can tell this is Chaos' dad, the two of them share the same wise eyes and facial structure.

"Yeah, she was a lost little girl that ate up every lie I told her. I was hoping you'd kill her for me but it looks like family wins with you guys"

Happy growls before slamming the butt of his gun into Bumbles head making it snap to the side and blood to come spraying out of Bumble's mouth followed by a groan.

"Don't speak about her that way"

"Why?" Bumble asks straightening himself "You guys just left her. Where is she now as I know she isn't with you guys."

"Do you know where she is?" The scot asks coming to stand in front of Bumble "Do you know where my daughter is?"

"She joined the nomad chapter of the reapers" Bumble states bored "Right after you banished her. So she could be anywhere"

"That the truth" Jax asks

"That's the truth" Bumble nods knowing that was also Jax's way of asking if he's finished talking but there's one more thing Bumble wants to throw out there before he's put to ground. "The four Mayans who were killed last week"

"What about them?" Jax asks coming to stand just off the right of Happy, his eyes glaring at the man in front of him yet Bumble can see they are all hanging off every word that leaves his mouth

"Chaos killed them"

"Why?" Jax murmurs "Why would Chaos kill four Mayans knowing it would start a war"

"Retaliation"

"Retaliation for what" Tig asks standing a little straighter

"For killing her unborn child" Bumble sighs "Chaos was pregnant when she joined the nomads. She'd gone to the Washington Chapter to hide and look after her child. The Mayan's jumped her as she left some sort of store leaving her bloody and beaten in an alleyway. Chaos remembered their faces and once the hospital cleared her and she was well enough again she jumped on her bike and killed them"

"I heard the Mayan's were tortured to the brink of insanity before being killed" Quinn says, a member of the Sons Nomad chapter, someone Bumble had seen around a few times but never interacted with

"Chaos has quite the imagination. She was deadly before but now after having her child ripped from her before it was even born she's beyond deadly"

"Shit" Jax curses and Bumble rotates his eyes towards Happy, watching as the stoic man tightens. His anger clear but also another emotion reads clear in his eyes, Pain.

It's in that instance Bumble knows exactly who the father of Chaos' unborn child was, the man she was running from. It's a shame really as they are both so alike that they'd have made the deadliest pair in MC history.

"Why join the Nomad chapter and then hide with the Washington chapter. How can she do that if she betrayed you?" Someone else asks and Bumble sighs

"Chaos fits into the MC world and it's not just as an Old lady, as much as I didn't respect her and believe she belonged there she does. I didn't want the place where she belonged to banish her like her family did" he smirks as he digs that knife home "So the Vegas chapter kept the betrayal to themselves allowing her to carry on being a member of Hell's Reapers. Mostly because some did love her like a little sister"

The next few moments are the longest Bumble has ever had the joy of sitting through as he waits for the moment when his life ends. It comes as quick as he'd hoped, before he can even hear Happy load the gun he's dead, his dead body slumping forward, A pool of crimson blood starting to gather around him tainting the barn floor.

"Shit" Jax repeats as he looks up from Bumbles dead form to Happy, the man shaking slightly as he lowers his gun to his side "We'll find her Hap"

"She was pregnant" He whispers "We banished her whilst she was carrying my child and now some Mexicans stole that from not only me but her"

Jax sighs, he knew when Gemma had told them Nikki was pregnant too much shit was going on in Hap's head for the news to set in but he knows it had now set in but a little too late. It just made Jax feel even more of an ass. They'd turn their backs on a member of their family and now she'd gone through all this shit with none of them there for her.

"She killed them" Quinn says coming to stand next to Happy placing a hand on his shoulder "She killed them and they can't hurt anyone ever again. Come on let's focus on finding your girl"

"We've looked everywhere" Happy spits "It's been five months and we still aren't close to finding her"

"What about Disney?" Tig asks "She loves Nikki so maybe her and Nik kept in touch"

"Chibs?" Jax asks "In the midst of you two sleeping together did she leave her number"

"It was for a burner that's no longer active" He sighs before running a hand through his hair

They all curse and head out of the barn, as Chibs goes to get his gloves from the inside of his Kutte his fingers brush over paper and he pulls out the letter Nikki gave him. He turns to Happy and hands it over.

"She gave me this the day we did what we did, she told me to give it to you when the dust had settled. Seeing as it won't be settling for a while I think you should have it anyway"

"Why didn't you give me it earlier" he asks his coal black eyes boring into Chibs

"I forgot I had it"

Happy nods and they all pull away from the Barn leaving Bumble to the elements as they all head back to the clubhouse and to Clay. He was still president as even with the proof it wasn't enough to over throw him, it was enough for him to relinquish Nikki's banishment hence why they were all looking for her but now, now none of them trusted him as much as they used to and always undermined his decisions. Even Tig who had always followed Clay blindly didn't any more, well not as much, he was still one hundred percent Clay's boy but the others not so much.

Chibs sighs as he drives down the street behind the others, the news that his grandchild had been killed by Mayans playing over and over in this head. He should have been there for his daughter, he should have been there to protect her and help her deal. Hell he would have helped her kill the Mayans. Chibs was never one for hating himself but now, now he hated every single part of himself for turning his back on his daughter. All he can hope is she will find her way back to them.

If not back to him, back to Happy. Ever since Nikki had been banished he had been even quieter than normal, only talking when spoken too. He still lived in the house Nikki bought and he still left all her things there untouched as though waiting for the day she was coming home, hell he even kicked Crow eaters away and that was when Chibs knew Happy really did love his daughter.

"Come home Nikki" he whispers to the wind before concentrating on the road ahead.

END NOTE – SO first chapter of the sequel to Where Do I Belong. What do you think. Nikki will be taking over the next chapters so don't worry. Also there will be a big time skip where I'll try and bring the show into the story. So please stick with me, it gets better this is just a little look at how the guys are dealing with shit.

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