Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts, Disney and Square Enix. If Kingdom Hearts did belong to me, nobody would ever know about Roxas and Axel because I would have kept them all to myself.

EDIT! 1) I have changed my penname to SympatheticMemories 2) All italics in the story are 'clues' or someone who isn't Roxy thoughts. 3) I reuploaded all the chaps so nothing new, just fixing some things but I will update for real soon.

PROLOUGE:

Roxas was pathetic.

At least that was how he thought of himself, Roxas could use many words to describe himself; dumb, fat, stupid, a waste of space, nothing, pitiful, freak, disgraceful, a mockery of mankind, talentless, disgusting, but to sum it all up he just said Pathetic .None of those things were the problem though, Roxas had good friends, and good grades not to mention he was skinner then a stick.

The problem was Roxas was anorexic.

Axel loved himself.

Or at least that was what he said, he made a big show to everyone besides himself; being smirky, sarcastic, flirtatious, and doing wild things that everyone laughed at. But in all honesty Axel hated himself, he hated the drugs he hated the sex he hated all of it.

But he needed all of it to live.

AN:/ Hey everyone (and the random cat who thinks he's so smart)! Thanks for checking out my story, this is my first fanfiction or attempt at writing (besides the several stories I stopped writing) so I'm writing kinda close to home if you know what I mean. Anyway's I know this is terribly short but don't worry I already have the first chapter half way written. All reviews and suggestion are greatly apprecieated. Oh also do you want to put a * or other symbol next to stories that actually happened in my life? C'ya soon! BYYYYYYYYYYYYE