Forever and Almost Always

Disclaimer: I don't own Boys over Flowers and I probably never will.

Summary: After 4 years without contact to Yi Jeong, Ga Eul decides to live again, renew herself again. Starting with her attitude & life style. Good girl gone bad.

Chapter 1: Don't waste the pretty.

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

Just about two years ago I imagined my future life to end up like a fairytale. I should have known that a cold blooded Casanova would never love or even care about a girl like me. I'm not incredibly beautiful or in any way talented, I'm not rich and I'm not the brightest crayon in the box. I'm imperfect in every way. Yi Jeong...I believed that he would be my Prince Charming, my soulmate and I admit that I still believe in the possibility. It's been 4 years since he left for Sweden. I never got a call or a letter from him. I think he forgot after 2 months or something in Sweden. The girl's are really beautiful there with their blonde hair and their long legs. You get the point, right?

With time I drifted into loneliness, sadness and depression. I couldn't stand seeing his friends around me. They reminded me so much of him. Naturally. They wanted me to make me feel better, but I wouldn't let them. Turning them down, even Jandi, hurt like hell. Sometimes I couldn't stand it anymore and met with them for al couple of hours. These hours made my whole week every time. But I didn't allow myself more than 4 hours a month. After those were gone, I was back to being miserable. I kind of like the pain that I feel when I'm alone. It makes me feel alive, reminds me to fight for what I believe in. You know that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with hammer? Because it feel so good when I stop.

"Ga Eul. I won't let you get away with this, you know. You can't hide your feelings. Remember, I'm your best friend. I know exactly how you feel." Jan Di was always there to help me and I'm really grateful for that. It's just…she doesn't help me with her advices. Maybe I should seek someone else.

Ji Hoo sat down in front of me. He smiled at me politely. "What can I help you with, Ga Eul?" I forced a politely smile back. "I wanted to ask you something. Advice, you know." He nodded.

"This thing with Yi Jeong… do you think it would make sense to hold onto him? Or should I do something with my life? Something constructive? I feel like I there is something more for me in this world. What do you think?"

He thought for a moment of something to say. "How long have you been feeling this way?" I expected anything but this question. " A while I guess." I simply asnswered

" me tell you something .A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying."

Now that was advice!

This is my first Boys over Flowers fic. So please be nice. You should know that English is not my first language. Anyway I hope you liked it .