I Can't Be Your Princess Anymore

'I can't be your Princess anymore.

I'm not perfect anymore.

And I hurt too much'

Sometimes, I wish I could curl up into a ball and just rot in a corner for the rest of eternity. I'd try it, but I'm pretty sure people would notice you're missing when you're on a reality TV show. Plus, the only private place on the plane is the cargo hold and Ezekiel lives down there now.

No matter what, I have to sit in first class with my head held high and pretend that it doesn't bother me. But, of course it does. Everyone must see my finger nails digging deeper and deeper into the arm rest, but no one speaks up.

I can pretend that it isn't real. I can act as if everything around me is just some fucked up dream that I've wound up in.

No more coffee before bed, Courtney.

I can tell myself that as many times as I like, but we all know that I don't drink coffee before bed. We all know that this is real and the pain that is aching in my chest is not hallucination. As much as I wish it was.

Heart break isn't something to be taken lightly, is it? People act as if it doesn't matter, as if it is just another thing that everyone goes through. Lies. Not everyone suffers heartache. Not everyone knows what it's like to lose that one person you thought was you're everything.

And that's why I can't be your Princess anymore, Duncan. You were once my everything. I had you in my grasp, my perfect boyfriend and my perfect life. Now look at me.

I'm a wreck. Go ahead and try to prove me otherwise, but everyone knows it's true. My head isn't thinking straight and every muscle in my body just screams 'Give up on him already!' And I listen. I'm giving up on you. When I'm having sleepless nights and crazy days, nothing could take me back in time to when things were right.

And that's why I can't be your Princess anymore, Duncan. I'm not perfect anymore, Duncan. I'm not the way I used to be. When we first met, back when things were easy and life wasn't as hard as it is now, we didn't know what we were doing. You were a new experience to me and I was everything to you.

But that's all gone down the drain now and all I can do is sit here and sob. Maybe I'll drown in my own tears. Maybe everyone will leave me alone and I will be able to curl up into that ball and rot away. Because that's all I want to do, really. Rot away. If I rot away then the pain will go away with it too.

And that's why I can't be your Princess anymore, Duncan. I'm not perfect anymore, Duncan. And I hurt too much, Duncan. Because of you.

A/N: That was badly done...

Something quick I needed to write...

Not needed to write because the idea was on my mind...Oh no.

I needed to write something, ANYTHING, to get these stupid feelings out of my head.

No, it's not more ex talk from me...I'm just feeling so fed up and...Hurt. I am feeling oh so hurt inside for reasons I can't explain and things I haven't done.

And it hurts to be hurt...

I saw this quote online and I just thought of this.

Thanks for reading, please review.

Love, Chloe.