Why? why do i remember what happened in my past? am i dreaming? these were questions i asked myself as my eyes closed drifting into a dream hoping not to wake up from, my dream had something that was connecting to my childhood, i used to look at it as the treasurable precious moments of life, but my dreams are nothing like that i am 117 years old now and still having the same annoying horrible dream, i thought to myself again Why do i even bother living if i can't even talk to them anymore? Why am i so hated? someone please help me i just wanna protect what i love someone please save me...and a image popped into my head of two people hugging me like i was their little sister because i was still younger then them, i always hated dreaming, i felt like i was reliving my childhood all over again, asking for help, feeling so powerless and betrayed by everyone around me, i sat alone as they called me names and told me that i would be the first to die if we had raged in war, then the dream faded away into the bright light through the window.
Its was morning and i woke up stretching and laying there looking at the depressing white ceiling, i sat up and looked around asking "where in the blue fuck am i?" a woman i didn't reconize walked up to me and grabbed me by the hair "watch your mouth your in the chamber of lord Aizen" i looked up to see a throne and a man sitting there "who the hell brought me here to see him?" i asked snarling at him which made him smile and he held out his hand toward me saying "i want to know something" i wanted to leave, but something told me if i left something was going to happen that's when he added "you sleep talk an..." "i don't sleep talk i just have problems with saying things in my sleep" i interrupted "you cried in your sleep so i thought i would help you out please come here i'll give you power that you desire" i looked away from him, and curled up on the floor i woke up on "what did i do to get here i'd rather be protecting things i love and find out the true meaning of what i am" he looked at me smiling evilly like one of them Gin creepy smiles a woman stood in front of me with another figure saying together "we won't let you do anything to hurt Shiro like you hurt us" they looked familiar, but i couldn't tell from behind they looked like my childhood friends that i wanted to return the favor of protecting them even though i felt powerless.
They looked at me and smiled i realized that i wasn't dreaming and they were literally in front of me asking "how did you get herein this place?" i shrugged for the answer i stood up, but found myself drop down to my knees screaming "PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE I'M NOT A MONSTER I DON'T WANNA BE ALONE ANYMORE!" they looked at me with a worried look on their faces as i stood up with my head down, they noticed i wasn't myself and that i was also in my full release, i yanked my head up letting out a hollow roar and went towards him screaming "what did you do to me what did you do to my memories I'LL KILL YOU I'LL KILL YOU FOR THEM!" it didn't phase him at all the so called god ran up to me holding his hand up and i stopped narrowing my eyes adding "move out of my way old bastard i'm not here for you" he didn't move he didn't do anything asking "if we were to fight soul reapers will you die first?" i looked away from him growling the answer 'not for anyone both two people you can go screw yourself with that scythe man' he looked down on me with a skeleton pity face as i said "i don't need your charity your not what i'm here for i'm here to kill that man your gaurding for my own personal reason" Halibel and Hichigo looked at me as my past kept getting the best of me.
They all kept looking at my release form of a wolf saying "she is a monster after all" Halibel screamed at them "SHE IS NOT A MONSTER SHE IS SHIRO!" Hichigo was nodding in agreement to what Halibel had said and they continued to look at me as i continued to roar a hollow roar to make me forget about the childhood thinking to myself Maybe i am a monster after all... i cried in that form and ran out the room with Halibel and Hichigo following behind.