Oh, my beloved wolf.
The air was chilling, electrifying,
The misty breath, and smell of death
Pleasant against the terrifying.
The world sleeps under winter's troubled skies,
The fragile dreams, and silents screams
Are hidden beneath its grey disguise.
They snatched me from warmth; silent ghosts of grey
And as they tore, I looked and saw
Oh, those eyes that just blew me away.
Golden and yellow, warm like the sun
Heart's quiet cries, beautiful eyes
Held me, I couldn't flee – couldn't run
Painful beauty, like teeth at my neck
They ripped and shred, I cried and bled
The blots of warm in this shivering wreck.
My courage, my faith, my hope; they quiver
The scars they made, make me afraid
The cold whips past, can't help but shiver.
Been so long since the fear and the pain
But still I long, for his mournful song
So take me on a trip down memory lane
Return those memories, take me back
My heart ablaze, your burning gaze
Golden light lost amoungst grey and black.
Take me back to where each skeleton tree
Their fingers bare, that poke and tear
As long as those eyes look back at me.
As long as they do I know I shall live
Sun light feather, or harsh weather,
Protection and warmth those orbs will give
They swept me up in warm golden breeze
Banished my fears, melted ice tears
And carried me warm home with ease.
I'd search through the night, darkness' bold
For my wolf's eyes, shaken surprise
The voice in the black, sad song echoeing cold.
I'd find you there, and the joy you'd bring
Each icy day, until the grey
Was warmed and melted into the spring.
As the cold night ends and warm days begin
Wolf disappears, as melting tears
Trickle their way down my thawing skin
Blow me a kiss and I'll run through air
I will find you, and when I do
We'll travel to our secret gold lair.
I'm lonely - longing for things I miss
And all I've cried, must hide inside
For I'm swallowed by hunted bliss.
My wolf becomes my reversed oasis
Gold amidst the grey, night though my day
Who disappears in the whisper of a kiss.
The years go on, each season turns
The haunted prey, beneath the grey
And so my blessed wolf returns.
I look right at him and he at me
Rough tooth and claw, thick pelt and paw
But those eyes are all I can see
His fur is warm and blossoms soft
Beneath my palms, and outstretched arms
Breaths deep, engulfing me in misty waft.
He runs, strength yet terror in his tread
Wish I was near, to dispell the fear
The hunter shoots, willing my wolf to be dead.
My outrage at this I can barely control
How can they will, to hurt and kill
the wolf that is my heartbeat, flesh, my soul?
I found him crumpled in the snow
his body bruised, my heart confused
as then life twisted everything I know.
All of this suddenly felt so sureal
sound of the gun, eyes like the sun
what his paws and his fur conceal
From paws to hands, from fur to skin
Wolf turns his back, on nature, his pack
And eyes like open doors holding human within
My life, my name, just who I am
My knowledge singed, the truth unhinged
As my beloved wolf becomes my Sam.