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Author's Note: This assumes that, I Think it was, Blind Target took place. And Heero and Relena kissed then. For all of you who don't know what I'm talking about, it was a manga that took place between the first war and the Mariemaia thing. Anyway, Heero is OOC, I know but he's much more fun that way, besides he's been through a lot. Anyway, I'll stop talking now, enjoy.
Meant to Be
By: Jenn Lynne
Chapter: 1
Letters of Confessed Love
Relena sighed tiredly as she reached across her desk for her pen. She had been working for 17 hours and was more than ready to go home, she just needed to get one more thing off her mind.
My Dearest Heero,
I miss you. It has been so long since I saw you last. You disappeared so suddenly after the Mariemaia attack. Trowa tells me he got in touch with you at one point over these last three years. He also told me that you collapsed suddenly and disappeared at the hospital. We are all worried about you. I'm not sure why, after all you are the Perfect Soldier. You know what's funny, I'm writing this knowing that it will never reach your hands… In that spirit, let me tell you my secret. I dream about you. Every night while I'm asleep I have sweet dreams of you. And while I'm awake too, I find myself constantly drifting off as images of you dance in my head. I love you Heero. I have loved you since the first moment I laid my eyes on you. It feels so liberating writing this, knowing you will never read it. I still remember the very last time I saw you. It felt so right holding you in my arms when you fell unconscious. Stroking your soft chocolate locks of hair. You disappeared at the hospital then too. I remember our kiss. That one moment when our lips touched was so wonderful. My only regret, from all the years of my life, if I had the power to change anything I wanted to, even stop the war before it happened. The only thing I would make different is my ability to recover from shock fast enough to catch you after that kiss. But I wonder if I would have caught you still, even with that much power. Probably not. I always dreamed that that kiss meant something. Not just some experiment where you were trying to see if I could fall more in love with you. So, I wonder Heero, do you love me too?
Love Always,
Relena
She sighed again and sniffed as she wiped back the many tears that had fallen. With a wistful smile she sealed the letter in an envelope. "Might as well be in a bottle." She said sarcastically as she wrote on it the last address that was under Heero's name. She knew he didn't still live there, but that wasn't the point anyway. As she stood, she added the letter to a stack of outgoing mail. Then with one last look at it, left.
About a week later, she felt more than just okay one morning. By some miracle none of the guards had noticed her window being open all night, so not only was her sleep undisturbed, but she woke up to a lovely spring breeze.
She went down stair and began to drink her glass of OJ, same as she did everyday when her brother walked in.
"Good morning Relena. You have a letter." He said as he handed her the envelope. Relena thanked him quietly as she examined the letter. There was no return address, and she didn't recognize the handwriting. Actually, she thought it looked an awful lot like Heero's, only messier. She tightened her jaw as she thought of him. Determined not to break down right there in front of her brother. Slowly and carefully she broke the seal and began to read. Her eyes moving directly to the bottom so she knew who was writing her before she read it. She gasped right out loud, earning a look from her older brother as the name repeated in her head. Heero?
My Dearest Relena,
I've missed you, too. I've missed everyone. I leave it in your care to inform the others that I am just fine. Although, my sister did break my wrist this morning. In THAT spirit, this letter will probably be short. The actual story behind my disappearances at hospitals is due simply to my normal doctor changing my file from that of Heero Yuy to my real name. That's why you all had thought I had gone somewhere when in fact I was probably still asleep.
As for the last day we saw each other, I remember it well also. I was still conscious while you were whispering into my ear, I remember distinctly how much your breath tickled. If I had had more strength I would have started to wiggle in your arms.
I love you too Relena. I've loved you since the second day I knew you. I remember the exact moment. I had just ripped your birthday invitation in half, you turned away as I began to walk past you. Then I saw it, that lonely tear streaking its way down your perfect face. My hand seemed to move on its own as I wiped that tear away. Then, I told you I would kill you… because it hurt to much to try to acknowledge feelings for anything back then, I had to convince myself that my mission was still on the top of my list… So I love you. That kiss meant just that. Again my mind lost control over everything. In that moment, I was finally following my heart, finally acting on my emotions. Had I known back then that you had the same feelings I probably would still have run. But have been just as quick to return.
In the last eight years of my life, I have smiled twice. I don't mean those weird smiles I got when I blew something up, I mean PURE JOY. The first, was the moment that kiss ended and lasted till I reach my car after running away. The second was about two hours ago while reading your letter.
Thank you Relena. I really must be going my hand is starting to throb with pain. When you get this, I would love for you to call me. Just to talk. (555) 505-5675 and ask for William.
Love Eternally,
Heero
The tears were falling freely from her eyes now. Her brother had quickly taken notice and was reading the letter over her shoulder. She was too stunned to stop him, or even notice he was doing so. A big smile crept its way onto the former pilot's face. He didn't bother trying to hide it, just helped his sister stand, then sat her back down next to the telephone. She looked at him curiously as he left the room. She nervously picked up the receiver and began to dial. She stopped mid dial and laughed at her own nervousness, she had no idea what she was going to say.
"Hello?" Came a female reply after the phone rang only once.
"Hello, may I please speak to Hee… I mean, may I please speak to William?" Relena asked stuttering slightly.
"And who may I tell him is calling?" she asked, obviously amused at the nervousness of the girl who had called.
Relena moved her mouth away from the phone for a moment. Determined to be the diplomat and calm down. She cleared her throat and in a cool calm voice replied, "Relena Dorlian."
"One moment please." The girl replied. Somewhat disappointed that the girl had calmed. She was carrying the phone with her and Relena could hear her go up stairs and enter a room. Then she heard her set the phone down. "William wake up!" came the muffled yell. A muffled groan was her reply. "WILLIAM UP!" she yelled again, this time louder.
Then a very distinct, somewhat groggy voice came over the phone. "Hello?" said Heero, obviously still half-asleep.
"Heero." Relena said with a smile.
"Relena?" Heero replied his voice becoming alert and awake. "Hold on a second." Then she heard him speak to the girl who had answered the phone. "A little privacy please Liz."
"Come on Will," she replied, "It's bad enough you wouldn't let me read that letter you wrote back, you're no fun." Then Relena heard a door slam.
"Hello." Heero said, talking once again to Relena.
"Who WAS that?" she asked nervously but nearly laughing.
"My sister Elizabeth." He replied very matter-of-factly.
"Is she the one that broke your wrist?"
She heard him laugh, "That would be her."
"Okay, are you going to explain it to me, or am I going to have to use my imagination?" she said, noting how playful a mood she was in at the moment.
Heero paused for a moment. "Well…" he began, "Liz goes to my old house once a week to water the plants and stuff, and she usually checks out my mail. Usually, she throws away personal letters because she doesn't want to upset me or something. But, when she picked up your letter she could tell it was from a girl, so she wanted to know what it said."
"How old it Liz?" Relena interrupted.
"Twenty three. Anyway, she brought it, the letter, to me and sat across from me while I read it. To say my expressions while I was reading were amusing to her would be an understatement, and when I finished, she started to try to get the letter from me. Well… After a while she became frustrated and got a little violent. She did get the letter. After breaking my wrist." He laughed quietly for a moment. "I guess that violent streak runs in the family."
There was an awkward silence as Relena aimlessly played with the phone cord, wondering silently where all of this desire for small talk came from for both of them.
"Wow." Heero commented dryly, "Don't you just love small talk."
Relena laughed out loud, letting go of some of her restlessness, "I was just thinking that very same thing."
"You see," said Heero, "I knew I was physic."
Relena laughed again, "Well, Mr. Physic, if you can read minds, than how come you were so shocked when you found out I was in love with you."
She had blurted it out bluntly and not thought about it. Thinking back she wondered why she had said it in such an amused tone, wasn't this suppose to be a serious matter? But then her ears trained for his response.
"I knew all along, just pretended to be surprised so you wouldn't find out my secret." He said very carefully.
She laughed again, and as she did she heard him laugh too. "So Heero," she said deciding to lead the conversation in another direction. "Why aren't you living on your own anymore."
He took a moment to answer, as if thinking of the best way to say this, "I got sick again. And my doctor thought it best I move in with my sister so I wouldn't be left anywhere alone for too long. In case I collapsed or something, like I did when I was at Trowa's. Just in case you know?"
"You're sick Heero?" Relena asked suddenly becoming quiet as Milliardo's head peeked around the corner. "You've been listening you BRAT!" She screamed as she bolted out of the chair to chase her brother out of the house. A few moments later she picked up the receiver again. Slightly panting. On the line, she could hear Heero laughing. "Sorry, I had to get rid of him." She giggled slightly as Heero's laughter didn't cease. "Okay, you've laughed at me enough, now tell me about you being sick." She said starting off in a joking tone that quickly turned serious.
His laughed died and he sighed out of his content laughter. "Well, I've always been sick, it's a childhood thing. It only really gets bad when I stop being really active, which is why I appeared so healthy during the war. But now, there just isn't enough to do to keep it at bay, so I pass out a lot." He paused, "Is that answer to your satisfaction?" He said almost sarcastically but mostly jokingly.
"Yes." Relena said, smile once again on her face. "Okay, so I figured your first name is William, but what is your full name."
She heard him sigh, "I knew you were going to ask this."
"Well?" She pressed.
"It's William Samuel Angel."
"Your last name is ANGEL!" she nearly screamed, as her head instantly starting running though what her name would be if they ever got married. Relena Angel, Mrs. Relena Angel, Mrs. William Angel, Relena Dorlian Peacecraft Angel…
"Ha, ha, yeah I know it's bad, you better get your full out of laughing at it, it loses its humor after so long." Came Heero's voice, breaking her concentration.
"No, I love It." she said smiling. "So," she said, elongating the word 'so', "when are you going to invite me over for dinner?"
Heero started laughing again. "How about tonight. Does that sound good to you?" he said half jokingly.
"Yes! Where and when."
"What?" he replied, not expecting her to say 'yes'.
((Author's Note: Chapter 2 is halfway done. I LOVE reviews and I always get inspired to write when I get a lot of reviews, it lets me know people are enjoying my stories. So review please.))
Author's Note: This assumes that, I Think it was, Blind Target took place. And Heero and Relena kissed then. For all of you who don't know what I'm talking about, it was a manga that took place between the first war and the Mariemaia thing. Anyway, Heero is OOC, I know but he's much more fun that way, besides he's been through a lot. Anyway, I'll stop talking now, enjoy.
Meant to Be
By: Jenn Lynne
Chapter: 1
Letters of Confessed Love
Relena sighed tiredly as she reached across her desk for her pen. She had been working for 17 hours and was more than ready to go home, she just needed to get one more thing off her mind.
My Dearest Heero,
I miss you. It has been so long since I saw you last. You disappeared so suddenly after the Mariemaia attack. Trowa tells me he got in touch with you at one point over these last three years. He also told me that you collapsed suddenly and disappeared at the hospital. We are all worried about you. I'm not sure why, after all you are the Perfect Soldier. You know what's funny, I'm writing this knowing that it will never reach your hands… In that spirit, let me tell you my secret. I dream about you. Every night while I'm asleep I have sweet dreams of you. And while I'm awake too, I find myself constantly drifting off as images of you dance in my head. I love you Heero. I have loved you since the first moment I laid my eyes on you. It feels so liberating writing this, knowing you will never read it. I still remember the very last time I saw you. It felt so right holding you in my arms when you fell unconscious. Stroking your soft chocolate locks of hair. You disappeared at the hospital then too. I remember our kiss. That one moment when our lips touched was so wonderful. My only regret, from all the years of my life, if I had the power to change anything I wanted to, even stop the war before it happened. The only thing I would make different is my ability to recover from shock fast enough to catch you after that kiss. But I wonder if I would have caught you still, even with that much power. Probably not. I always dreamed that that kiss meant something. Not just some experiment where you were trying to see if I could fall more in love with you. So, I wonder Heero, do you love me too?
Love Always,
Relena
She sighed again and sniffed as she wiped back the many tears that had fallen. With a wistful smile she sealed the letter in an envelope. "Might as well be in a bottle." She said sarcastically as she wrote on it the last address that was under Heero's name. She knew he didn't still live there, but that wasn't the point anyway. As she stood, she added the letter to a stack of outgoing mail. Then with one last look at it, left.
About a week later, she felt more than just okay one morning. By some miracle none of the guards had noticed her window being open all night, so not only was her sleep undisturbed, but she woke up to a lovely spring breeze.
She went down stair and began to drink her glass of OJ, same as she did everyday when her brother walked in.
"Good morning Relena. You have a letter." He said as he handed her the envelope. Relena thanked him quietly as she examined the letter. There was no return address, and she didn't recognize the handwriting. Actually, she thought it looked an awful lot like Heero's, only messier. She tightened her jaw as she thought of him. Determined not to break down right there in front of her brother. Slowly and carefully she broke the seal and began to read. Her eyes moving directly to the bottom so she knew who was writing her before she read it. She gasped right out loud, earning a look from her older brother as the name repeated in her head. Heero?
My Dearest Relena,
I've missed you, too. I've missed everyone. I leave it in your care to inform the others that I am just fine. Although, my sister did break my wrist this morning. In THAT spirit, this letter will probably be short. The actual story behind my disappearances at hospitals is due simply to my normal doctor changing my file from that of Heero Yuy to my real name. That's why you all had thought I had gone somewhere when in fact I was probably still asleep.
As for the last day we saw each other, I remember it well also. I was still conscious while you were whispering into my ear, I remember distinctly how much your breath tickled. If I had had more strength I would have started to wiggle in your arms.
I love you too Relena. I've loved you since the second day I knew you. I remember the exact moment. I had just ripped your birthday invitation in half, you turned away as I began to walk past you. Then I saw it, that lonely tear streaking its way down your perfect face. My hand seemed to move on its own as I wiped that tear away. Then, I told you I would kill you… because it hurt to much to try to acknowledge feelings for anything back then, I had to convince myself that my mission was still on the top of my list… So I love you. That kiss meant just that. Again my mind lost control over everything. In that moment, I was finally following my heart, finally acting on my emotions. Had I known back then that you had the same feelings I probably would still have run. But have been just as quick to return.
In the last eight years of my life, I have smiled twice. I don't mean those weird smiles I got when I blew something up, I mean PURE JOY. The first, was the moment that kiss ended and lasted till I reach my car after running away. The second was about two hours ago while reading your letter.
Thank you Relena. I really must be going my hand is starting to throb with pain. When you get this, I would love for you to call me. Just to talk. (555) 505-5675 and ask for William.
Love Eternally,
Heero
The tears were falling freely from her eyes now. Her brother had quickly taken notice and was reading the letter over her shoulder. She was too stunned to stop him, or even notice he was doing so. A big smile crept its way onto the former pilot's face. He didn't bother trying to hide it, just helped his sister stand, then sat her back down next to the telephone. She looked at him curiously as he left the room. She nervously picked up the receiver and began to dial. She stopped mid dial and laughed at her own nervousness, she had no idea what she was going to say.
"Hello?" Came a female reply after the phone rang only once.
"Hello, may I please speak to Hee… I mean, may I please speak to William?" Relena asked stuttering slightly.
"And who may I tell him is calling?" she asked, obviously amused at the nervousness of the girl who had called.
Relena moved her mouth away from the phone for a moment. Determined to be the diplomat and calm down. She cleared her throat and in a cool calm voice replied, "Relena Dorlian."
"One moment please." The girl replied. Somewhat disappointed that the girl had calmed. She was carrying the phone with her and Relena could hear her go up stairs and enter a room. Then she heard her set the phone down. "William wake up!" came the muffled yell. A muffled groan was her reply. "WILLIAM UP!" she yelled again, this time louder.
Then a very distinct, somewhat groggy voice came over the phone. "Hello?" said Heero, obviously still half-asleep.
"Heero." Relena said with a smile.
"Relena?" Heero replied his voice becoming alert and awake. "Hold on a second." Then she heard him speak to the girl who had answered the phone. "A little privacy please Liz."
"Come on Will," she replied, "It's bad enough you wouldn't let me read that letter you wrote back, you're no fun." Then Relena heard a door slam.
"Hello." Heero said, talking once again to Relena.
"Who WAS that?" she asked nervously but nearly laughing.
"My sister Elizabeth." He replied very matter-of-factly.
"Is she the one that broke your wrist?"
She heard him laugh, "That would be her."
"Okay, are you going to explain it to me, or am I going to have to use my imagination?" she said, noting how playful a mood she was in at the moment.
Heero paused for a moment. "Well…" he began, "Liz goes to my old house once a week to water the plants and stuff, and she usually checks out my mail. Usually, she throws away personal letters because she doesn't want to upset me or something. But, when she picked up your letter she could tell it was from a girl, so she wanted to know what it said."
"How old it Liz?" Relena interrupted.
"Twenty three. Anyway, she brought it, the letter, to me and sat across from me while I read it. To say my expressions while I was reading were amusing to her would be an understatement, and when I finished, she started to try to get the letter from me. Well… After a while she became frustrated and got a little violent. She did get the letter. After breaking my wrist." He laughed quietly for a moment. "I guess that violent streak runs in the family."
There was an awkward silence as Relena aimlessly played with the phone cord, wondering silently where all of this desire for small talk came from for both of them.
"Wow." Heero commented dryly, "Don't you just love small talk."
Relena laughed out loud, letting go of some of her restlessness, "I was just thinking that very same thing."
"You see," said Heero, "I knew I was physic."
Relena laughed again, "Well, Mr. Physic, if you can read minds, than how come you were so shocked when you found out I was in love with you."
She had blurted it out bluntly and not thought about it. Thinking back she wondered why she had said it in such an amused tone, wasn't this suppose to be a serious matter? But then her ears trained for his response.
"I knew all along, just pretended to be surprised so you wouldn't find out my secret." He said very carefully.
She laughed again, and as she did she heard him laugh too. "So Heero," she said deciding to lead the conversation in another direction. "Why aren't you living on your own anymore."
He took a moment to answer, as if thinking of the best way to say this, "I got sick again. And my doctor thought it best I move in with my sister so I wouldn't be left anywhere alone for too long. In case I collapsed or something, like I did when I was at Trowa's. Just in case you know?"
"You're sick Heero?" Relena asked suddenly becoming quiet as Milliardo's head peeked around the corner. "You've been listening you BRAT!" She screamed as she bolted out of the chair to chase her brother out of the house. A few moments later she picked up the receiver again. Slightly panting. On the line, she could hear Heero laughing. "Sorry, I had to get rid of him." She giggled slightly as Heero's laughter didn't cease. "Okay, you've laughed at me enough, now tell me about you being sick." She said starting off in a joking tone that quickly turned serious.
His laughed died and he sighed out of his content laughter. "Well, I've always been sick, it's a childhood thing. It only really gets bad when I stop being really active, which is why I appeared so healthy during the war. But now, there just isn't enough to do to keep it at bay, so I pass out a lot." He paused, "Is that answer to your satisfaction?" He said almost sarcastically but mostly jokingly.
"Yes." Relena said, smile once again on her face. "Okay, so I figured your first name is William, but what is your full name."
She heard him sigh, "I knew you were going to ask this."
"Well?" She pressed.
"It's William Samuel Angel."
"Your last name is ANGEL!" she nearly screamed, as her head instantly starting running though what her name would be if they ever got married. Relena Angel, Mrs. Relena Angel, Mrs. William Angel, Relena Dorlian Peacecraft Angel…
"Ha, ha, yeah I know it's bad, you better get your full out of laughing at it, it loses its humor after so long." Came Heero's voice, breaking her concentration.
"No, I love It." she said smiling. "So," she said, elongating the word 'so', "when are you going to invite me over for dinner?"
Heero started laughing again. "How about tonight. Does that sound good to you?" he said half jokingly.
"Yes! Where and when."
"What?" he replied, not expecting her to say 'yes'.
((Author's Note: Chapter 2 is halfway done. I LOVE reviews and I always get inspired to write when I get a lot of reviews, it lets me know people are enjoying my stories. So review please.))