Title: Loss
Chapter:
Part 1 - Juubei
Fandom: GetBackers
Pairings:
None, particularly. Implied Juubei/Kazuki, Ban/Kazuki, Ban/Ginji,
depending on what you want to see.
Rating:
PG-13
Disclaimer: Still not mine.
Notes/Warnings:
Character-death, angst. Ban POV.
I knew it would happen someday; Ginji knew it, too. Hell, everybody did, Threadspool included. How many times had he said out loud that he'd been born just to protect Kazuki and Threadspool would just laugh and smile and tell him how old-fashioned he was? He never gave those kinds of smiles to anyone else; not to me, not to Ginji or the Kakei girl or his other watchdog. Those smiles were all for samurai-boy.
And he died, doing what he loved and lived for.
And he died with a smile on his face and an apology on his lips because he knew Threadspool was crying even if he couldn't see him. And even hours after he was gone, Threadspool didn't want to let him go; put up a damned good struggle when we tried to pull him away. He cried a lot, he yelled a lot, made absolutely no sense in anything he said. He still has us, but he knows and I know and everyone knows that it's not the same for him.
It hasn't been long – maybe a month, if that – so it's still appropriate that he be mourning. I'd be more worried if he weren't.
He just wants to be left alone. Doesn't want anyone's sympathies or kind words or comforting touches and they feel hollow to him. He told me as much a few weeks after it all happened, but it's really the most he's said to me. He's too angry to think straight right now; hates life, hates himself, hates the world and everyone in it (knows it isn't rational and therefore hides himself away).
Everytime I look at Ginji and picture him in samurai-boy's place and mine in Threadspool's, I can't say I blame him.