Arizona's POV

Standing on the porch at Meredith's house ready to ring the doorbell, I know that this is what I need to do this to make us both happy, but I seem to have gotten very nervous and scared at the moment. Sofia is standing front of me learning back, looking up at me and she says

"Mama, what are we doing here? Are we here to see Mommy? Can she come to the park with us?"

I look down at her with tears on my cheeks and smile at her.

"We're here because I need to talk to mommy about some things baby. I don't know if she can come to the park with us, we'll ask her later okay?"

I try to even my breathing by taking a deep breath in and letting it out. I manage to work up the courage to ring the bell, hoping Callie is the one that answers the door. So I stand here and wait as I hear movement coming from inside. I finally hear the door opening and when I look up I am met with the most beautiful brown eyes I have ever seen. There are puffy and red from crying but I can still tell they are beautiful. She looks at me with surprise written all over her face. Then Sofia notices her and she starts talking while wrapping her little arms around her mommy's legs.

"Hi Mommy, we came to visit you and see if you wanted to come to the park with us." She looks up with her toothy smile.

Callie looks down at her little buddle of joy wrapped around her legs and I can see more tear tracks down her cheeks. She bends down and hugs Sofia well replying

"I don't know baby, why don't you go play and let Mama and I talk, then we'll see what happens."

Sofia lets go of her mommy's legs and runs off into the house to find some toys to play with while her two mother's stand at the door staring at one another both afraid to open their mouths. Callie is the first to break the silence

"What are you doing here, not that I'm not happy to see her but I thought you'd be out enjoying the sun today, while it's out."

"I know we were out for a walk and I wanted to talk to you about something and she asked me earlier if she could come by and see you, she wants us to go to the park this afternoon if you weren't busy"

"I wasn't busy at all just lying on the couch watching mindless TV and thinking about my life. Where I am, where I was and where it all went so wrong"

Swallowing the lump in my throat I try to make it seem like what she just said didn't affect me. I have also been doing a lot of thinking along the same lines.

"Well, do you want to come in?" She looks at me waiting for an answer and I am lost in my thoughts and don't hear her question.

"Hello" She says waving a hand in front of my face.

"Huh?" I shake my head to clear my thoughts.

"I said, do you want to come in"

"Oh! Well I would like to talk to you about something, but not in front of Sofia, do you think we can sit outside while we talk?"

"Okay, do you want to sit out front, or go around back?"

"Out back would be fine, then we don't have a busy street of onlookers"

"Do you want something to drink then?"

"Water would be fine, thank-you"

As she moves from the door, I follow her into the house and close the door behind me. I watch her move into the kitchen and I look around the living room waiting to see who all is home with her. She must know what I'm looking for as she hands me my glass of water.

"There's no one home, it's just me. Everyone is at work or out somewhere"

"Oh" I take the offered glass of water from her with a thank you.

She looks at me trying to figure out if this talk is good or bad and I don't give away any hints with my facial expression. She looks over at Sofia who is quietly playing with a bunch of toys she has found and says

"Sofia baby, Mama and I are going out back to talk. Do you want to go outside and play on the swing set out there?"

Sofia gets an excited look on her face and then says "Yes mommy, just let me put these toys away first please?"

I look at Sofia and think … Wow we did an amazing job raising her to be so polite and clean up after herself. Once Sofia has put all the toys away she was playing with, the 3 of them head out back. Sofia makes a mad dash for the jungle gym in the back yard while Callie and I take a seat at the patio table, both of us seating so we can keep an eye on Sofia while she plays.

I take a big gulp from my water glass hoping to cool myself down. I know this conversation can go wrong or it can go completely right but I guess we'll see where it takes us.

Callie looks up to me from her glass sitting in front of her "so, what did you want to talk to me about?"

I let out a breath I didn't realize I was holding until she spoke. "I-I want to know if you're really happy with Penny and do you think you could really be happy in New York."

I look up at her and look right into her eyes because I know no matter what comes out of her mouth I can always tell if she's lying from the look in her eyes.

She looks at me and I can see the tears welling up in her eyes as she takes a deep breathe. "I thought I was happy with Penny, yes. I'm not sure I could be 100% happy in New York because I have a life here in Seattle. But when she won that grant and then asked me to go with her, the first thing I thought of was "no not again, I can't do this for a second time" and I admit the situations are different but to me the basics were the same. I didn't want to lose another relationship in an airport because of my pig-headedness. I really wanted to go and try to make this work. And yes I admit I wasn't thinking clearly about the situation with you and Sofia and for that, all I can do is say how VERY sorry I am."

"I'll admit it took a lot for me to not yell and scream at you when you wanted to take Sofia from me. I know it's only a year, and we could arrange visits but it's not the same as having her just across town as I have never been away from her for that long. I do think that we both need to be happy and if you think you can be happy in New York then I think you should go."

"W-What? No I won't leave Sofia, that's the reason I'm still here"

"I'm not talking about leaving Sofia"

"Then how do you suppose that's going to work? You have full custody of her here and I will be in New York, do you think I'm going to make visits?"

Taking a minute to collect myself for what I'm about to do I take a deep breathe. I lean down into my purse and pull out an envelope and slide it across the table to her.

"What is this?" She looks me in the eye not sure what I'm offering her and if she should look in the envelope.

"Just open it" I take another big gulp from my glass. I know I have tears welling up in my eyes I can feel them but I fight them back.

She gently takes the envelope in her shaking hands and slowly turns it over to open the flap. Once she looks inside and sees airline tickets, she looks back up to me and I can see the worry and tears written all over her face.

"I-I-I told you I didn't want to make visits to see her; I don't think I will be able to handle only seeing her once a month or less."

"If you take a minute and look at the tickets, they are for both of you to come back to Seattle. I want us both to be happy and I think the only way for that to happen is for you to take Sofia to New York with you but I want her next weekend, every holiday and during the summer. "

I look at Callie and can see her wheels turning in her head trying to figure out if I serious with this offer or not. "Are you serious? We went to court and you won custody of her and now you are letting me take her to New York with me"

"Yes, we went to court and fought over our daughter for custody. I'm sorry but I had to fight you for her, she's my daughter too. I did not in a million years think I would win custody as I'm a single mother, whereas you are in a relationship so there were 2 of you there for her. I was very surprised and shocked to say the least when the judge read her ruling."

"Callie, I never thought we'd ever be in the position we currently find ourselves in but we are and I'm trying to make the best of it for everyone involved. Am I happy about it? No but I know in the end we will all be happy at some point. Do I want my daughter to live 3000 miles from me and only see her once a month or so …. Hell no but it's what is best for all involved. I have thought about nothing else but this since we left the court house. I see the way the ruling has affected you, I've heard it at work from everyone. You're not sleeping; you're not eating; you hardly talk to anyone anymore and you don't leave the house. I cannot sit on the other side of town and know all this and not do anything about it. So this is my offer; you take Sofia and go to New York and be happy with Penny; I'll stay here and be happy here. Will I miss her? You're damn right I will but I still love you and I cannot sit by and do nothing but watch you turn into the shell of the woman you once were Callie. I think we've done enough damage to each other, don't you think?"

At this point we both have tears streaming down our faces we both know this is going to be hard on both of us. At that moment Sofia comes running over to us and looks at us both

"Mommy, Mama why are you both crying, is something wrong?"

Callie is the first to answer her question "no baby, nothing is wrong Mama and are just having a grown up talk and it was sad at first"

Sofia looks over to me for confirmation and I shake my head up and down at her. She walks up to me and pulls me down into a big hug and tells me our hugs always make her feel better so she thought her hug would do the same for me. Then she lets me go and turns to Callie and pulls her down into a big hug as well.

"Okay, can we go to the park now and can Mommy come with us?"

I try my best to dry my tears and look up to Callie "we can go to the park yes baby, but you better ask mommy if she would like to join us if she's not busy this afternoon"

"Mommy, would you come to the park with Mama and me if you not busy today?"

"I would love to join you at the park this afternoon baby if it's okay with Mama that I tag along" Callie looks up to me and I nod my head.

"Great then come on mommy and mama; let's go I can't wait to get on the swings. Can one of you push me?"

I dry my face with the sleeve of my shirt and look to Callie who is also in the process of drying her face. She takes the envelope off the table into the house and places it in her purse. I follow her into the kitchen to place my glass in the dishwasher.

"I will just be a minute to change, if you can hold her off for that long" Callie says with a little smile, knowing it could be tricking holding our daughter off from running out the door once her mind is set on the park.

"That's fine, take your time we'll go into the living room and color while we wait" With that she starts up the stairs to get ready.