Found Myself Staring by angelic 4 evil
Intro: This is suppose to be sad. It's about suicide.
Disclaimer: She does own all of this, but Kai Hiwatari himself.
Azura Takahashi's POV
Humiliation and heart break
Are the only things to regret
Everything I hope for gone
It's you I wish to forget
It's you I want out of my head
Cuz our supposed love is dead
I think I regret
Everything I feel
That I wish I forget
All my old emotions
But now I can't see
What I used to believe
I sat at home, all alone. My thought started to wander off to him. What did I do to deserve this humilation and regret? Why was I destined for this feeling? I don't know anymore. Not how I felt, not what I felt, and not why I felt this desperate longing. I'm not sure of anything anymore, and I was the smart one. I never did really believe that when I was told anyway. I started to drift away in my mind. To the darkest part, as black as my hair and clothes. I wanted to leave this reality so badly. If I couldn't feel his heartbeat, if I couldn't look into those haunting crimson eyes, then I didn't want to bother with reality. I know I could see him in my fantasy, where I can live in my happiest dreams. Where him and myself could be together. Where I wasn't another face in the crowd. Where I was important to him.
I find myself staring
At you
No longer bearing
My unknown feelings
What I feel is purely real
I no longer hear
That unknown song
I found out today where we belong
And where I am
Is nowhere near close to you
But for now I'll just look at you
Even if now I see the truth
I grabbed the family heirloom from it's coven. It was a brilliant silver dagger, decorated in rubies and diamonds. I felt the sharp edges and point with each of my finger tips, a crimson liquid slowly draining out. I smirked thinking it could solve this problem, and end all others. I may miss out from where I left off, nothing but an eighteen year old, but this wasn't the life I wanted. My soul left, long ago, the moment he left me behind. The moment he broke my heart, and shattered it into a million shards.
I cant help but stare at you
Cuz I'm searching for the truth
Was it love that was between us
Or was it just me
Was it reality
Or was it my sweet fantasy
Why did you hurt me
Why did you break my heart
I'm the one
Torn apart
But why do I keep
Falling for you
The dagger was inviting me as I continued to examine it. Then, I stared at the picture of Kai and me, the only memory of our first and last meeting. I smiled at that sweet thought, remembering that was the only time he noticed who I was. You see, I went on this trip to Russia and met the bluenette. We were so much like each other and I thought we had a connection. Kai even said that maybe if we're lucky, we'll meet again, one day. Ever since then, he was too busy, and all I was to him, soon enough, was another face in the crowd.
I thought you said
We were meant to be
I thought you felt that way
As I did for you everyday
But how could you
How could you just forget me
Why did you say that you loved me
Why did you lie to me
But why do I still
Have that feeling for you
Why do I keep
Staring at you
I'm going to have to wait for that promise for a lifetime. I will have to wait for one day forever. Unless..., I stared at the knife with a twisted smile. If I couldn't hold onto him in this world, I will go to my dreams, eternally. Tears silently fell from my violet eyes for I knew that I never truly had him. That what we had was nothing but a dream. My heart was urging me not to, and my conscience demanded a solution. They started to argue in my head, when I suddenly realized my heart never was a helpful part of myself. Always causing damage to my life. I couldn't bear this heartache anymore. If it couldn't be, if love wasn't meant for me, then I don't want to live with it anymore. I refuse to face it one more time.
I find myself staring
At you
No longer bearing
My unknown feelings
What I feel is purely real
I no longer hear
That unknown song
I found out today where we belong
And where I am
Is nowhere near close to you
But for now I'll just look at you
Even if now I see the truth
So I'll live with it
Til the day that I die
Knowing us together
Was nothing but a lie
I took one last look at those fond memories, and plunged the dagger into a blackened, soulless void, that used to be my heart.
Well, what do u think. Honestly, one of my favourite stories in this series.
Kai: Why did she kill herself?(He asked this innocently too. Haha, he knows what he did.)
Evil: I blame you.
Kai: What did I do?
Evil: You broke Azura's heart.
Azura: Yes you did Kai. Now tell everyone to review.
Kai: Well you heard the heart broken bitch, review or I'll send you to your funeral, like I did to Azura.
Azura: Fucking dumbass. That's a stupid threat. I killed myself, and just cuz you didn't pay attention me.
Kai: Point?
Azura: You don't fucking care about anyone anyway, and no one fucking cares about you anymore. So just shut the fuck up.
Kai: Why don't you?
Azura: Why don't you make me?
They start fighting.
Kai: Ow, no fucking weapons.
Azura: Too damn, bloody bad!
Evil: Don't mind them everyone, I kill either one in each story. Please review, cuz I'm starting to get worried. Cya, and if you wanna see either of them alive, I suggest you pray cuz they're gonna murder each other. Latz