It's been five years and still I dream of you Vette.
Where once I fought against the forces of the Galactic Republic and other factions that sought to challenge the Sith Empire, I now find myself fighting against the Eternal Empire, a powerful new force that in the five years I spent in carbonite has managed to bring both the Galactic Republic and the Sith Empire to their knees.
When I first woke up after spending five years in a block of stone I thought for sure my crew had managed to locate me, that the first face I would see was yours. But I was wrong. Instead it was Lana Beniko who managed to awaken me from my carbonite sleep. It took a while but we managed to escape from Zakuul and from the Eternal Empire if only for a little while. All the while I tried to find you, tried to see if you had managed to track me down only to see that it wasn't meant to be.
Over the past few weeks a group of others who had had enough of the Eternal Empire managed to form a resistance movement and for some reason they saw fit to appoint me as the Commander of all of our forces. For a brief moment, I forgot about the pain of losing you and I was ashamed. I pledged to love you and be true to you forever and for a moment I wasn't. For a moment the pain and shame almost overwhelmed me.
The hardest part was when they found the Fury. I thought for sure it had been destroyed in battle against the Eternal Empire. I thought maybe just for a moment you would be waiting for me as I climbed up the ramp.
I was wrong.
The pain almost overwhelmed me again as I walked around the ship. I remembered our first kiss in the cargo bay, watching the stars go by as streaks of light as the Fury tore through hyperspace. And of our room, where we would simply lay against one another and listen to each others heartbeat as we traveled through hyperspace.
The most difficult part of the whole experience was seeing the datapad you left on our bed. I remember feeling the tears streak down my face as I read the last letter you composed but never sent.
It's been almost a year since I last saw you outside of a dream. Every day, I have the same question. How did it end ? Were there a hundred bad guys swarming you, like a bunch of killiks trying to take down a krayt dragon? I want to think you went down swinging and took most of them with you.
But other times I wonder if you were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. Some external bulkhead ripped open next to you. Hard Vacuum 1, Empire's Wrath 0. Maybe it was a reactor-core breach, and you never even had time to feel the heat ?
They say powerful Sith can come back from the dead and appear to the people they had strong connections to when they were alive. Will I wake up some day and see you ? Will you finally tell me what happened? Will I know if you had time to think about me before you died ?
I promise you Vette, I won't stop until I see you again. I will tear down the Eternal Empire by myself if that's what it takes to once again see you my beloved.
Forever and Always
Toryal