I don't own the characters on SVU.

the title is just a play on words, I couldn't find a name for this fic so I jest used this one.

So I'm back with another fic. it's a WIP but I hope to update soon.

hope you enjoy.

It was still dark outside, but Amanda was wide awake.

She was lying in bed, staring at the ceiling. She's been up for a while, tried to go back to sleep more than once, but it was useless.

Too many thoughts were running through her head. It had been a crazy week, they had four open cases and there was so much to look through, so many witnesses to interview. But somehow it felt like they didn't get anywhere.

And there was the whole situation with Nick.

She could tell herself it was work that kept her up, but it wasn't exactly true. It was mostly this damn thing with Nick and his bizarre behavior.

He was finally brought back to SVU and she hoped things would be back to the way they were before he was demoted.

It was just sex.

They had been sleeping together for a while, both needing something more than just company, more than just a friend. But it wasn't supposed to be more than sex though. Just two people who wanted that physical connection, the pleasure that could make so many things disappear.

They couldn't deny it was pleasurable, maybe a bit awkward at first, but it didn't take long for things to be really good.

Even though it was only sex it wasn't cheap, not like he was gone a second after they were done. They would meet at her apartment, eat something, maybe watch some TV, talk.

It felt good, feeling him touch her, kiss her. And she liked feeling his skin under her hands and body. He would spend the night with her if it was late, and if it wasn't they would lie in bed for a while, close to each other.

But they weren't in love or anything. Sure, they had some feeling for each other, but she couldn't define them, and she didn't talk to him about it.

Those feelings became stronger when he was arrested after beating up Wilkes. The thought of him going to jail was somewhat unbearable, she found herself missing him already.

So she did everything she could to fix the situation.

But after he was released things didn't go back to normal. He was demoted and didn't answer her calls. She only called twice, she didn't want to bother him, but she really wanted him to tell her he was fine.

The first couple of days after he got back he kind of kept his distance, she didn't give him a hard time about it but it hurt her more than she was willing to admit.

Maybe these feelings were stronger than she thought.

She wasn't falling back to sleep anytime soon so she decided to get up.

Even Frannie wasn't up yet, Amanda watched her for a moment but she felt herself getting restless again.

Maybe she should run, running calmed her down often. She dressed quickly and left the apartment.

The fresh air in the park felt good. It was very early and there weren't many people outside. Maybe it would be a good idea to do this everyday, jogging so early, the sun rising. It made everything feel new, like the new day might bring good things.

She stopped by the water for a moment, it looked so beautiful and Amanda just had to stare for a while. She wasn't sure why, but all this green made her feel… happier?

She chuckled to herself, at least it was nature that made her feel better, not something else. Not so long ago the only thing that calmed her down was gambling.

But she was working hard not to go back there, she hit rock bottom and she did not want to go back.

She looked around a little, just watching the people.

There was a man walking his dog, it made her smile, she knew she had to go home soon to take Frannie for a walk too.

There were two women who were jogging together, they seemed to be in their thirties. Amanda thought that they could be mothers, taking sometime for themselves before their kids would wake up and the chaos of the morning begins.

There was also a young girl, she looked maybe 14, but she was just walking around, staring at the ground. What was she doing at the park at this hour? It didn't look like she was coming back from a party, nor did she look like a homeless kid who might have no place to go back to. No, this girl was dressed in simple but not cheap clothes.

She walked right past Amanda, didn't look up, but Amanda could see the empty expression on her face, she has seen it before more than once.

The girl stopped to look at the water for a moment and then kept on walking towards the bridge that was close by. Amanda watched her, something felt wrong so she walked after her.

The girl stopped when she was standing in the middle of the bridge, but she didn't stop for too long, as she climbed over the rail.

"Stop" Amanda shouted but the girl didn't seem to hear her, or didn't care. A second later she jumped in to the cold water.

A jogger stopped right next to Amanda at that moment "call 911" she ordered while she took off her jacket and jumped into the water after the girl.

The only thing on Amanda's mind was getting to the girl, saving her. She didn't even feel the cold water surrounding her.

Finally she could see her body not far from her and swam faster towards her. She caught her and made her way up, out of the water.

There were more people standing by the water now and once she was closer to the ground someone helper her carry the girl and lay her down. She was still breathing and Amanda could see the EMTs running towards them so she sat down and put her jacket on.

Suddenly she realized how cold she felt but once the girl was on the gurney one of the EMTs told her to get into the ambulance with them. He gave her a blanket and focused his attention on the girl.

A doctor examined her at the hospital, she felt fine and left after a short time. She still had to take care of Frannie and go to work.

"Nice work" Fin told Amanda after hearing her story "you had an exciting morning"

"Exciting indeed" she took a sip of her coffee.

"But what were you doing there so early?" he smiled at her.

"Jogging" she smiled back.

"Man, that's too early for that" Fin shook his head and turned his attention back to his computer screen.

Amanda smiled to herself, if only he had known why she was there so early. Her thoughts were interrupted by Nick walking in, he greeted them both and she smiled at him.

Fin's phone rang and he answered, it was the crime lab, they had some results for a case so Fin and Amanda had to go check it out.

They ended up spending most of the day talking to witnesses and when they got back to the precinct it was pretty late.

Amanda hoped that the grueling day would help her sleep normally, she did not want to wake up before the sunrise again.

But there was something she had to do before she got back home.

She went back to the hospital to check on the girl.

"Doctor Mayers?" she asked turned to the doctor "I'm detective Rollins" she showed him her badge.

"How can I help detective?" he looked even more tired than she did.

"I wanted to check on a patient of yours, the receptionist referred me to you"

"What's the name?" He yawned.

"She came here today early morning, pulled from the river in the park" she said.

"Oh, I remember" he checked the computer "Eve Collins"

"I was just wondering how she was doing"

"She was released few hours later" he told Amanda after looking at the computer again.

"Released?" Amanda was surprised "just like that?"

"Just like that" the doctor repeated her words, sounding a little bored.

"I'm sorry, but this was an attempted suicide" she whispered "and you just release her?"

"Says here it was an accident" he looked at her, but the notion of at attempted suicide didn't seem to surprise him.

"Well doctor" she got a little closer to him "I am the one who pulled her out of the water, and it was no accident"

"Look detective" he took a breath before continuing, he was the one whispering now "when the chief of stuff tells you it was an accident it's an accident"

"What?" he was told to classify it as an accident? "you know this girl?"

"No" he answered "but I do know we have an MRI machine donated by a Mr. Albert Collins"

She raised her eyebrows at him "you know him?"

He shook his head "I've got to go" he said as his pager started beeping.

"Thanks" she said quietly.

She didn't like this at all. How could they just release her? Amanda remembered the look on the girl's face, she wanted to jump.

She would not let this go, she had to find out who this Albert Collins is, MRI machine or not, his daughter needs help and Amanda was going to make sure she gets it.

Sleep didn't come easy that night. But this time it wasn't Nick on her mind. She hated it when powerful people used their power to hurt others. And this time someone was willing to hurt his daughter?

She still didn't know the whole story, but she had a bad feeling about it.

Amanda decided not to tell Fin about her visit to the hospital, he might suggest she was being paranoid and she wasn't hundred percent sure she wasn't.

When she had a moment alone she looked up Albert Collins. To her surprise there wasn't much to find. he had two paid parking tickets. Other than that there was nothing illicit about him. He was a business man, worked in the diamond industry. He had one daughter, Eve, and her mother had died in a car accident two years ago.

Amanda still didn't feel better about the whole thing.

Since the day was calmer she didn't have to stay late. But she didn't go home, she drove straight to the Collins household. There was no plan, she wanted to check it out, see how it looks, how she felt about it.

She parked her car close enough to the house. It wasn't a huge house, but it was beautiful. For a while she just looked at it, no one came in or walked out but there was light in some of the windows.

She wasn't sure how much time she spent there, but suddenly there was a knock.

Someone knocked on her car window.

Damn it, she thought and looked at the man who was knocking, she showed him the badge, hoping it would make him stop.

But it didn't.

He looked at her but then knocked again, this time a little harder.

"What the hell" Amanda mumbled and rolled the window down "can I help you?" she asked, holding her badge, but the other hand moved towards the gun.

"Can I help you?" he asked "You've been sitting here for a while"

"This" she showed the badge again "means I can sit here as long as I want"

He smiled at her and reached into his pocket, she was holding on to her gun now.

"I think you've been sitting here long enough" he said and showed her what he took out of the pocket, it was a badge too, an FBI badge.

He walked around her car and knocked on the other window, she looked at him for a moment before unlocking the door so he could come in.

"Listen to me" he said calmly "I don't know what you're doing here, but you have to go"

"I don't think so" she said, looking at him.

He had a little smile now "look officer, I'm not going to ask you again, if you don't want to get into trouble you would leave now and I will pretend you were never here"

"Excuse me?" she raised her eyebrows.

"Trust me" he opened the door "you don't want to get into trouble"

Amanda watched as he walked out of the car.

She drove away, but she had no intensions to let this go.

Trouble or not.