Broken smiles
Sakura…
Sakura…A familiar voice said in my head.
Sakura…Stop! Please, leave me alone!
I sobbed quietly in my bed.
Why did they leave me? I try and try to satisfy them, yet I failed. I failed them. I'm sorry….
They leave you because you are weak.
No...No! Please…No.
Kakashi-sensei, was I good enough? Was I too weak to fight? Am I that fragile? Why do you always train Naruto and Sasuke? I'm sorry that I'm not strong enough to be your student. I'm sorry…
Sasuke. Sasuke-kun. Why do you always protect me? Am I really that weak in your eyes? I thought and laughed a little with a tear drop streaming to my left cheek, Why did you left? I'm sorry that I'm not the girl you wanted for your clan. I'm sorry…
Naruto. Why are you always happy? You're amazing, Naruto. Your smiles always sincere. I'm sorry I was mean to you. I'm sorry I was a bad friend. I'm sorry…
All my life, I was watching your backs. Did you thank me for it? No, you all called me weak and annoying. Was I really that weak and annoying? Why are they so…So special?
Sasuke has his clan's blood-limit, sharigan.
Kakashi-sensei has sharingan too.
Naruto has the nine-tailed fox in him. Kyubbi.
And me, I got nothing…I have another personality, Inner.
What am I?
I'm just a pink-haired freak with a huge forehead and a split-personality.
But I feel more like a…A doll. A useless doll who just been thrown away.
Yes.
"I'm a useless doll." I said in hoarse. My heart is scarred, so many scars in my heart.
Now they're back. I saw so many smiles; did they know that my own team didn't accept me in so many missions? Including to bring Sasuke back in Konoha. Now they brought him.
I smiled. A fake smile.
I saw their backs slowly fading away. I can't see their backs anymore. My tears were ready to burst of sadness. Tears. I cried when I can't take it no more, this sadness I can't bare.
There nothing I can do here but smile. Just smile. And all the pain will fade away slowly. Yeah if I keep smiling, the pain will fade away.