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A/N: Post Embraceable You. Jordan realizes what she has done. Please review. Thanks. Love, Lawabidingchild.
Big Mistake
I never thought that my birthday could be such a turning point for me. I think I realized more than ever that I need to grow up. My biggest problem has been relationships. I never had a proper one as a child, and I think it's time I did.
But I ruined the chance the minute I pushed the diamond friendship ring back into Woody's hands. I never gave him the chance to tell me why. I was an idiot. I can't believe I rejected the one chance I got at happiness. If I'd taken it, maybe I could have explored the possibility of something more. But I made an idiotic move.
My apartment's empty...again. I just finished my two-person celebration with Garret. God knows he was supportive of me taking a chance and doing something about my birthday. But I made a mistake. And that mistake cannot be cleared up with such a simple thing as wishing myself a happy birthday.
I rejected love. I rejected Woody. I rejected probably the biggest amount of happiness that I would ever have in my life. I made a big mistake. A huge mistake. And I'm paying for it.
And the worst part is...I think I love him.
Man, I need a drink.