Title: Over My Head (Better Off Dead)

Author: 28dOOMDoom28

Summary: Sark and Sydney aren't only on the same page they're also on the same song!

A/N: is everybody around here in university? Because really for a 14 year old going into year 10 at the end of January and all I can really find are mentions of uni students…am I a little young for this?…thinks maybe is should go write fanfic for the o.c or something…thinks a little more…wait…why would I do that Alias totally rocks!

Disclaimer: I don't own alias…the song used in the title and just plain used is…drum roll Over My Head (Better Off Dead) by Sum 41…I don't own the rights to it! And now that that is all said on with the story! .

Chapter One:.Reflections Of My Soul.:

What happened to you?

You've played the victim for so long now in this game

What I thought was true

Is made of fiction and I'm following the same

But if I try to make sense of this mess I'm in

I'm not sure where I should begin

I'm falling, I'm falling

Now I'm in

Over my head, with something I said

Completely misread I'm better off dead

And now I can see how fake you can be

This hypocracy's beginning to get to me

Sydney Bristow finally had some time to reflect on her life. Of course that wasn't what she wanted to do and definitely not while at work but with nothing to do yet she couldn't help the thoughts. They just kept coming and coming.

The thoughts started off with Danny…her fiancé or who was until he met his unfortunate end. 'All because of me' she reminded herself. 'If only I was a stronger person, then I could have easily avoided telling him the truth about what I do' but she knew that that wasn't the truth.

Then she moved on to the aftermath and what it revealed about her and what she thought she knew. 'When dad told me the truth about SD-6 I was in denial and now I'm doing good by slowly shutting them down with the help of the CIA' She turned around in her wheelie chair (a/n: aren't those chairs just the coolest?) 'If I could have been stronger…' She found herself going around in circles in her mind. One step forwards and another 4 back…whatever that meant. 'If Danny hadn't of…'She stopped that thought right there. 'If I had never found out the truth about SD-6 then I would never have met Vaughn' That thought seemed somehow sadder. She had grown close to him. Closer then what protocol allowed.

"Sydney, we have a briefing in 15 minutes" Dixon said to her. She was just staring off and so he waved his hands in front of her face. She came back into the real world.

"Huh? What?" she asked.

"Syd, this isn't like you. Is there something wrong?" he asked concerned. She knew he wasn't faking it as his eyes truly showed the concern and friendliness towards her.

"Sorry. I didn't mean to scare you, I was just thinking."

"Deep thoughts?"

"Kinda," she looked away for a second and then looked back at her partner. "So what were you saying?"

"We have a briefing in," he looked at his watch. "In 10 minutes. Are you sure you're alright?" Sydney nodded. "Ok" he walked off towards another of his friends office to check up on them..

'Dixon is such a great guy. I wish I could tell him the truth but Vaughn is right I can't volunteer him for double agent work.' Sydney drifted back to her thoughts even though she knew she should have been working on the next mission she was to be sent on. 'Will he talk to me again when he knows the truth about me? Will he want to look at me when he finds out that I have lied to him for so long?' thinking about that only made her feel bad and so she slowly stopped thinking and reflecting about the troubles in her life and started to think about the work she was supposed to be doing.

She twirled around in her seat for another moment before standing up and heading towards where Dixon, Sloane, Marshall and Jack stood talking before they entered the to meeting room.

"Hello" she greeted the group.

"Sydney! Now we can start our meeting" Sloane said ushering the group into the room. They all took their usual seats and Sloane stood at the head of the table readying himself for the briefing and the lies. "Ok it is a known fact that Dictionaries hold much truth and power. But a group of unknowns have been said to have been tampering with them. I know this sounds comical but with these alterations many suicides and violence have occurred in the last year." The screen behind him lit up and showed a picture of the Oxford dictionary (a/n: I don't own that either…I mean I own one but I don't own the rights to it…I guess oxford does) and after a moment the picture changed into a group of men standing around with guns while on the job. "Our intel shows the group is an organized group"

Sydney started to drift off again but this time not to the sorts of thoughts she usually has. No this time she was envisioning herself attacking Sloane. Beating him senseless. Ripping off all of his fingers and eventually killing him. She had thought about the option of killing him but not properly until Sark came into the picture and put her up to it. It was now she realised that she had changed. 'Am I a better person? What have I become? When did I become willing to kill the man I hate the most. I even feel as if I would kill Sloane over Sark…what have I become?'

Sydney drifted back into the meeting and found they were receiving their instructions. "You will be both going to Japan to find out the agendas of this group and to if at any chance try to get their leader…Jeremy McDonald." That was all she needed to really know. If she did miss anything she could always ask her father.

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