Take Me All The Way, a final fantasy vii fanfic

I could feel it in the way you fought me. I kept up the defenses. You were such a pretty sight. I didn't want to harm you too much. We moved in a frenzied blur. I could feel the passion behind your anger. Each insult, each tease, each smirk. It only ever fueled you. That was what I wanted. I wanted to witness that passion which I knew you possessed. The fire that makes you who you are.

We shared quite a bit of moments, did we not? Unbeknownst to the rest of the world, but you were mine. Each night spent with you lying in my arms. You said you hated me but I saw a different truth in your eyes. I could read it in the manner in which you would wait on your bed, knowing that I would come. I could feel it in the way your lips touched my soul. I knew it in the way you held me even when it didn't seem necessary. Enemies circumstances had labeled us. Lovers, our affection cemented. There was affection behind the skin meeting skin. You know there was.

In such a short time you had become all that I ever wanted. The one light in my dark existence and for a few foolish moments, I believed that you could save me. Forgive me. I never meant to place such a burden upon your shoulders. I just wanted you. That was all. Selfish, I know.

Now it seems I'm fading

All my dreams are not worth saving

I've done my share of waiting

And I've still got nowhere else to go

I had to leave. Perhaps I was never meant to be yours. But my purpose was quite different from yours. I had a choice before me and though I may have made the wrong one, you were the one thought on my mind even as I went into the abyss. My only thought. My only dream.

Seems you're wanting me to stay

But my dreams would surely waste away

And I still have no where else to go

The fury that my abrupt declaration caused was all too apparent as you bothered not to hide your anger. I could never blame you. I abandoned you outright for the life I so desperately wanted to leave behind me. I know you understood but being who you are you never questioned it. You just gave me the comfort I could find solace in. You gave me so many things in our short time. Much deeper than a mere affair. You held the very key to a new life for me. But I didn't take it. The world can believe what it wants to, but I know that you will always be stronger than I am. Much stronger. I'm sorry. I couldn't stay.

So I wait for you to

Take me all the way

She never did. It was not me whom she wanted. Deep down, I've always known this. I knew I yearned for the touch of a mother who would never care for me as I did for her. I was a lesser son of greater science. But still, my mother she was and so I went to her. My sacrifice may not have been in vain. You're safe and though I carry many regrets, I can fade into nothingness with some peace of mind knowing that my beloved can go on. But without me by his side. I do long for your touch but you're so far away.

Push me under

Pull me further

Take me all the way

My parting was violent. The more I reach, the further I'll drift but in my memories you remain, dearest. I could never have hated you. I'm gone but a part of me still lingers. Forgive me if that small presence haunts you but I cannot completely let go. We may have an eternal distance but my love for you was always real and that in itself keeps us bound. I am yours and you are mine. Life may bring you down in the worst of ways but if ever you feel alone just remember, at one point in your life there was an imperfect clone who wished to steal your pain away and hold onto you forever. We were one. We are together yet forever apart.

And I've been waiting so long

So I wait for you to

Take me all the way

I love you, Reno. Goodbye.