My life is a life of caution, discretion, and fear. Somedays, I wonder if things would be better if I was more like my dear cousin, Sirius. But even he cannot help me. I saw the way he looked at me: with disgust, like I'm just another blood obsessed Black.
I am the "dutiful" daughter in the family. "Middle children charm", my father would call it. In the Black house, Bellatrix is a fierce, passionate warrior serving the Dark Lord, but it is not lady-like. Andromeda is the other side of the spectrum - a Muggle-loving "freak", ran off with a man named Ted Tonks and has a half-blood Metamorphagus "scum", Nymphadora Tonks.
Who am I? Narcissa, the respectful, obedient, classy second Black daughter, married to Lucius Malfoy and bearer of the Malfoy heir. I've done a good job. Little does anyone know... I never believed what I was told, at age 5, and even now at age 36. I knew blood purity was stupid. Human blood is human blood, nothing more and nothing less. So naturally, as a naive child, I wanted to fight back. I wanted to be a rebel. I thought if I defied my mother, defied my father, defied the Dark Lord they so worshipped, perhaps I could ultimately be a part of his defeat.
But I saw my dear cousin Sirius. He was ostracized from the family tree. He was looked down at and he didn't have the power to do anything, to change anything. How can you change anything when you're an outcast?
It's difficult to. But it's more effective if you live a double life. I'm not a Slytherin for no reason. My cousin acts on his heart impulsively, on his emotions. I do not, instead I calculate. I strategize. I plan behind the innocent mask of little Cissy.
I plan to destroy Voldemort, and plan to make a better place for my loved ones: my beloved little sister Andromeda, Sirius, and Draco. I do not wish for him to continue living in a toxic environment I grew up in.
I'm worse than a blood traitor, and I couldn't be more proud of it. My mother would say Andromeda was just a mistake that perfection runs in Black pure blood, but I differ. For it is the differences in life that make it so dynamic and worth living.