Can we last through the winter?
The water's starting to freeze.
The only one who remembers,
taking the wrong step,
falling in front of me.

I remember when I first met Tori Vega. I was jealous, sure, but who wouldn't be? She was talented, beautiful, and I thought she had her sights set on Beck, the most important thing to me at the time. The most attractive boy in school who could have any girl he wanted, and the most attractive girl in school who could have any boy she wanted. How could that possibly end well for me? Well, against all of the odds, and with many obstacles, it did. Little did I know, at that moment when I poured my cup of coffee on Tori, did she have her sights set on me.

Wow, that chick really did not know what she getting herself into.

This body's already aging,
these nights are already long,
and if I last through the winter,
I swear to you now,
I won't call.

How could she possibly do this to me? To me, Jade West? What in the hell does Beck have that I don't? Why would she do this? That heartless bitch.

Why was I so stupid, so foolish. I should've thought ahead, I let her in way too much. And now I hate myself. Now, I hate her. Why did she make me hate her, and I loved her?

*Ring ring* Oh, no, not now Vega. I'm not going to let you apologize, I'm not going to let you explain, I 'm not going to let you in. Never again, I've been through way too fucking much. You weren't supposed to be like him, you were different. You were mine, and you failed me. Fuck you. *Ignore*

...

"Jade, Jade! Please listen to me! I'm sorry, please let me explain!"

"Fine, Vega, while you have me cornered in my own home, please explain to me why the fuck I caught you kissing my ex-boyfriend."

"That's what I've been trying to explain to you, Jade, he kissed me! I love you, why would I willingly do something like that to you, to us?"

"Are you quite done, Vega?"

"I guess I am."

"Then I guess we are."

Congratulations, go home now.

...

"Jade, come on, you can't ignore me forever."

"I can do whatever the hell I feel like, Vega."

Will we last through the winter,
will we make it to see?

"Okay, listen, let me put this in terms that even you can understand,"

I never wanted a partner, and I never loved you,
now you are free to leave.

I'm still astonished that I didn't say anything, let alone try to stop her as she ran away crying. I just stood there like a robot, an emotionless bitch of a robot. What have I become? Why can't I let myself forgive her? I guess I just have a stubborn heart.

But that's a good thing, right?

This heart is already frozen,
I can't remember the fall,
and if I last through the winter,
I swear to you now,
I won't call.

Congratulations, go home now.

...

Oh. My. God. Is this girl persistent. She keeps constantly blowing up my phone, coming to my house, bothering me in the halls. Trying to get me to forgive her. And I constantly feel my walls coming back down. I even had a conversation during lunch with her. As if the infidelity never happened. Well, it did happen. I can't let myself forget that. She was supposed to be different, and she failed me. I'm Jade West, I can't let that go. It's not in my nature. It wasn't supposed to be us.

It's too late, it's too late,
they won't let go.
Follow five footsteps through that open door.

Please, do it. Just leave me alone. I can't let myself love you.

...

It must be buried under the heart,
that makes this pace persistent.
You'll find it torn, that gate's been opened
and I've been wondering if you've been real with us.

"So, you're finally giving us a chance again? Why?"

"Why do you want to question it?"

"I don't know. You just seemed so intent on never trying to forgive me, I thought that we would never happen again. I just want you to know, that I'm sorry Jade. So sorry, you can't even comprehend it."

"Oh, I think I can comprehend it, but I want to know something before we take this any farther."

"Anything, sweetheart."

I reached forward and took her hands in mine. Soft and warm, just like I remember. As I looked into her beautiful, chocolate brown eyes, I already knew the true answer to my question, but I asked anyway.

"Have you been telling me the truth this entire time?"

...

It's too late.

It's too late, it's too late, they won't let go.
Follow five footsteps through that open door.

It's that start, stop and go you've been dying for.

I should've just let it go.

So, yeah there it is. Tori's a dirty little cheater ain't she? Haha, just kidding, she won't be like that for every story. Sorry if the story is a little hard to follow, I was just trying to get it on paper (or computer) before the idea left my head.

Sorry to those following my old story, it's dead. I thought I could finish it before break was up but things came up and yada yada. Now I can't even remember where I was going with it and I just don't want to update it anymore.

So, anyway, this is one of many songfics in this series. I'm just writing this until I come up with another story. Hopefully Jori, Tori Goes Platinum got some creative juices flowing, but I don't wanna make too much of a commitment yet.

Enough with my rambling. Credit goes to the creator of Victorious for the awesome show, credit to Circa Survive for their awesome song, In Fear and Faith.