Otis laid on his back and tried not to let the frightened whimper escape his lips as he stared up at Alice stradding him.

"I...I can't mama" Otis panicked feeling instantly trapped, pinned and vulnerable.

"Shhh Otis it's just me I'm not going to hurt you" Alice soothed stroking his long white hair, she could feel him shaking beneath her.

"Hnnn I.. I don't know mama" He said voice shaking. His big red eyes looked panic stricken like a deer in car headlights. He instantly began to regret giving into Alices pestering about letting her go on top during sex.

"I just want to make you feel good Otis" She said seductivly as she bent her head down and nibbled the pale flesh of his neck. Otis moaned in appreciation despite his anxiety and pounding heart.

"I want you to learn I'm not going to hurt you" Alice found Otis a funniosity she couldn't believe that someone as strong and powerful as Otis, someone who was capable of so much evil towards people was so scared of physical contact.

Alice understood his nervous tendencies he flinched at every move if someone moved too quick or tried to touch him for fear of them hurting him. His childhood with his abusive parents had driven it home deep just how much harm people could cause and now he was forever weiry of it. It had taken Alice a long time to develop their relationship to what it was now, to gain his trust that she wouldn't hurt him and to stop him flinching at her so knew brief details of the physical and sexual abuse Otis had suffered at the hands of his father but she didn't know the full extent of it all. She understood that due to the physical punishment his mother put him through he would be cautious around female hands, he knew the pain they could cause. And she knew because of the added sexual assault his father made him suffer it was understandable that he would have to maintain control all the time throughout intercause. But seeing him petrified almost whimpering under her naked body baffled her. Was there another reason for him to be acting this way besides what she already knew?

Otis tried to calm down his pounding heart and tried to enjoy it as Alice began. She looked down at her naked pale white albino his white hair fanning out behind his head, his eyes closed. Alice nipped at the pale flesh making him gasp and squirm, she loved the noises he made and loved being able to make him make them as she knew she was the only person that could.

"Mmmm mama" He groaned.

"See I just want to make you feel good" She whispered in his ear. What could have made him that terrified of having sex like this?

"Just my baby girl, just my baby girl" He whispered under his breath trying to reassure himself.

When they were done Alice curled up to Otis with her head on his chest. She could hear his heart pounding she wondered if it was from the good sex he'd had or the fear of it.

"Did you enjoy that?" She purred tracing her finger over the outlines of his chest tattoo. The black tattoo a shocking contrast to his snow white skin, he grunted in reply and nodded his head. "I'm sorry if I scared you"

"Ain't nothin' but nothin'" He mumbled in reply shrugging the incident off. Alice normally knew better to push him he had done so well so far gradually confiding in her about his past.

"I know when you're scared baby tell me what's wrong"

"Nothing!" He growled loosing patients.

"Otis what happened to you?" She asked worried.

"AIN'T NOTHING I SAID" He yelled back loosing his temper.

Otis hated it when Alice tried to force information out if him, didn't she understand that if he hadn't told her already he wasn't ready to? Alice quickly dropped the subject she was never afraid that Otis would hurt her but she knew how unpredictable he could be when he was mad.

"Alright Otis I'm here if you want to talk about it I'll stop pushing" Alice soothed stroking his long straight white hair.

"Sorry mama...just..just not right now ok" Alice nodded in pulled on some trousers over his boxers and walked out he needed a breather had to go for a walk. He felt so embarrased at how scared he must have looked in front of Alice, he hated how much his past still haunted him. Alice sighed she knew she had hit a nerve, she shouldn't have pushed him so much. But it wasn't unusual for Otis to disappear for a while to deal with his demons. Otis didnt return until after Alice had fallen asleep.

Otis lay awake a long while after Alice had fell asleep. He lay on his back staring at the ceiling wrapped in his orange sheets. What would Alice think if he told her the reason he was terrified of being dominated, terrifed of having a lack of control and scared of having a woman on top? Would she laugh, would she think he was vile and disgusting? most of his childhood made him disgusted with himself he wouldn't be suprised if she became disgusted with him too. His whole childhood was humiliating everything he told Alice embarrased him to the core. So could he confide in his girl? his sweet kind girl who saw past the monster that he was, loved him despite the things that made him despise himself. Could he really tell her the most humilliating and degrading thing that had ever happened to that barely teenage albino little boy with hair like snow and eyes like roses? And more importantly would she continue to love him once she knew?

Alice was awoken by Otis fidgeting in bed, tossing and turning and mumbling under his breath. The little whimpering sound he made as he dreamt broke her heart, it wasn't unusual for Otis to have nightmares about his past but she just wished that he would talk to her about them she knew it would help.
"Hnnnn momma no!" He whimpered under his breath, his mom wasn't an unusual demon in his nightmares she had caused him a lot of suffering.
"Shhh baby it's alright" Alice soothed stroking his long white hair.
"P..pl...please" He begged, next the noise Otis made frightened her it sounded as though he was choking or something was choking him, he began to struggle to breathe.
"OTIS! OTIS WAKE UP" She shouted panicking seeing him struggling to breathe, she began to shake him. "Come on baby wake up it's just a dream "She said. "Hnnnn no stop" He managed to croak.
"OTIS" She shouted hitting his cheek, Otis's eyes flew open. "Mama" He said then rubbing his stinging cheek "Mama what the fuck?" He growled.
"You were having a nightmare, hell you were having trouble breathing" Alice panicked, Otis frowned as he remembered the nightmare.
"S'nothin'" He shrugged sitting up and pulling on some trousers.
"Fuck sake Otis don't walk away, talk to me, let me in that head of yours" Alice said irritated.
"Not now mama" He said about to walk away when Alice grabbed hold of his wrist.
"Otis!" She pleaded.
"I SAID NO!" Otis shouted pulling his wrist away and storming out the bedroom slamming the door behind him. Alice sighed and flopped her head back onto her pillow. What was with this man? Was her stubborn albino ever going to let her completely inside that head of his?