this Is my first Fanfic so try to be easy with me okay?(if you don't want to it's okay too) and English isn't my native language so forgive me if I butchered some things. So my story, I love LaraXSam pairing, when I bought the game I just fall in love with the two and I have read a lot of fanfic about them and this story is an idea that came out of all of my reading. I already have the story from start to finish in my head but I don't know how many chapter I will write. The story will take place about the end of the game and it will go beyond, the course of events will be different than in the game(some major things).So there is Femslash here, don't like it don't read it.
Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I do not own Tomb Raider or any of the character or otherwise in the game Lara and Sam would have been together and kiss in the end.
I Couldn't Stand Alone
As I walk on the beach with Reyes toolbox and with the wreck of the Endurance sinking in the sea in my back with the last rays of the sun barely visible, I'm completely lost in my thought.
Yamatai, I can't believe we found it, but hell if I would have tough that all this would happen to us. I can't believe that they are dead, Grim ,Alex and... Roth I have failed them all Damn have I been so blind, Alex had a crush on me and I realize it when he was dying, all the time back on the ship he try unsuccessfully to flirt with me and I didn't notice, God if I had known, I would have let him know that my heart was already taken by someone else and he wouldn't have try to impress me and get kill by that way and with that, one of my last friend has died, but what do I have now, what's left in my life that is worth living.
I stop walking as my tough become too heavy and I put out of my pocket the photo of me and Sam when we graduate.
My heart finds immediate light as I look at her face, her beautiful face that seems so perfect to me.
She is my light in the darkness, I couldn't continue into this hell without her, she is all I have left. It's been a while since I had strong feelings for her but now that I saw all the people that matters for me die I understands now that I must confess my love for her before it's too late, it's seems not the place and surely not the moments at all to tell her but, what if she dies ,. No I'll save her and I have to tell her, even if she don't like me the same way as I, at least she will let me stay her best friend.
I put the picture of us back in my pocket and resume my way back to camp. Eager to see Sam again and rest a bit before going out to find a way out of this cursed island. The beach is covered with wrecks and some are many centuries old and I can't stop wandering about all the secrets I could find but, I need to keep going or all I will have left of my life will be regrets and dreams that will never happen.
As the light of our camp is on sight I could see Jonah waiting for me on his over watch, our camp on the beach offer little protection but we have a big wreck that cover a side, a lot of rocky cliffs that protect the way inland and a couple ruin building around to hide our presence.
''Little bird, I'm glad you made your way back safe and sound but, where is Alex?''
I look at him, my face full of grief.
''He didn't make it''My voice choke and my eyes are getting wet but I block the tears by closing my eyes firmly.
He seems silent for one moment cursing in his native language. ''May his soul rest in peace, we will remember him''
I open my tired eyes and look up at him.
''Anything have happen? is Sam okay?''
He smile at me, i think he knows that I have feelings for her, back on the endurance Sam and I were near always together and it's been hard to try to hide my feelings from her, God I must have look like a fool.
''Yes everything is fine and Sam is okay, last time I check she was worrying a lot about you Lara.''
''Thanks Jonah.''
As I enter our modest camp between two ruined building I drop the tool box to my feet and scan the place near the camp fire and I saw Sam running in my direction only at the last second , she jump in my arms and threw her arms around my neck.
''Sam...'' I muttered as all the pain from all my injuries ease off a bit, even all my dark feelings goes away, there's just Sam that can do this to me, she have such power over me it's hard to believe...
''Lara... I've been so scare that you wouldn't return.'' For you I'll escape hell to come back to you.
The feeling of her body is so comforting I feel so safe in her arms that I could almost forget where we are,she puts her arms away and I miss her heat already but I'm grateful that she doesn't have to feel my heartbeat going at a thousand mile per hour.
'' I'm so happy to see you safe I was so scared that something had happen to you but, where's Alex? '' I drop my face and look on the ground.
''I...'' failed him and left him behind, but all I can think about is what if it had been Sam instead, Badly wounded, dying and surrounded, what I would have done if she had ask me to leave. I know already the answer, I couldn't have, I would have prefer to die with her than leaving her and even if I would have left her, I wouldn't have survive the grief.
Sam must have seen all my sadness because she grabs my hands and lift my chin up, my eyes found her and as always all my force to speaks died on my lips when we are that close, She leaned down and kiss me on the cheek and then pull away, my cheeks goes instantly red.
''I'm sorry Lara I know he was a good friend to you...''Not good as you. She tighten her hold on my hands,
''I had to left him behind...'' Sam waits for my words as always, she is so patient with me I can't believe.
''Don't worry Sam, I promise you that I will never left you behind no matter what and I'll always come back...for you'' I try to reassured her but I think it is more me I try to reassure.
''He sacrificed himself to let me flee the ship with the tools'' So I could be back to you Sam...
''How sad, but at a least he gave you the tools.''Dr Whitman say out-loud from the campfire not even looking at us, I throw him my darkest look as he turn his head in our direction.
''At least, Doctor, he did something to help us and he did not betray us like you.''I turn to his direction and drop my hands from Sam.
''I did it to survive Lara just like you did but I didn't murder all these people beside, our little cameramen have sat all day waiting for your return.''
I place myself between him and Sam as I always act that way when she is attack or bugger by someone just like when we were at boarding school and university.
'' I dare you!''Sam now stands by my sides.
My blood boils with anger and I resist to urge to hit him,we barely made it out alive from the fortress because he led the Solari straight to us, if Sam hadn't made it out because of him I would have personally kill him in a painful way. Sam took my hands and when I turn my face to see the way she smiles at me just the way that make my heart melt and I calm down instantly.
She turn her gaze to the doctor'' You don't need to be that rude Whitman she just lost a friend''
''He was your friend too Sam'' My eyes are still on her beautiful face.
'' I will miss that guy...''Sam face now sadden .
Damn if I could have been faster he would be here. Alex I'm sorry.
''But he didn't die in vain he gave us the mean to leave.''I free one of my hands from Sam and grab the toolbox on the ground.
''Whatever...'' the doctor say while turning his gaze back to the fire.
''Let's give Reyes the box.''We start our slow walk in direction of the boat and I try to avoid to look in her direction or otherwise I feared that she could read my eyes and find everything I feel for her.
''Sweetie you are so sexy when you try to protect me.''She tighten her hold on my hand.
I turn my eyes to her, did she said that she finds me sexy, oh good lord, I can feel my cheeks and neck grow red at the compliment.
We arrive to the PT boat and we spot Reyes work on the engine, she lift her head as we approach and throw me a hard look, she still blame me for Roth's death and her gaze go straight to the tools.
''With theses tools the boat will be ready tomorrow at best.''But her eyes finds mine and I can see the concern in them''Wheres Alex?''It's my turn to my face to sadden
''He sacrificed himself in to allow me to escape.''I can see in her eyes that she would have prefer that it was me that didn't escape the wreck.
I put down the box on the edge of the boat and lead Sam away from her to a little ruined shack, we just stare at each other enjoying a moment just between us and with a little smile on my lips I can't stop to think how perfect she looks and my eyes wander on her perfect body,her curves her breasts, she smiles back.
I feel my cheek go red as I realized what I was looking at and she just look at me with her eyes that I could just be lost just to look into them. I feel an urge to run far away from her, I'm a monster she deserve better.
''Sam I need to go, the answers to leave this place is somewhere not far from here I will be quick.''My smile disappear at as her face seems now full of fear and concern, damn I'm not good with words.
''Lara please, you look exhausted just stay and rest with me for a few hours I don't want to be alone for the night and you deserved to rest a little.''
She looks at me the way she did at university when we didn't agree and as always it works in making me think twice. If I go and don't tell her my feelings for her I may never have a chance and beside she's right, I'm exhausted.
I sight ''You right, I'm really tired, a few hours of rest will helps.''
Her face light up at my words and she grab both of my hands and lead me into the abandoned shack. Inside there's really nothing, only a single bunk, thanks, at least I won't need to ask her to sleep beside me, I don't think I will be able to rest without her in my arms. I put down all my weapons near the entrance except for Roth pistol and we sit on the small bunk and she put me in a hug and hold me tight. And as always my heart starts to beat faster at the feel of her body so close to mine. Before all this I would surely ramble and look like a fool but now my mind is set, she needs to know.
Lara come on, you should just tell her about you feelings,she will not be mad at you and she even found you sexy you must have a chance. Sam pull away from me and sight.
''I'm glad you are with me, I couldn't stand being alone with Whitman any longer, I can't believe the fact that he helped Mathias to find us back in the temple .''
''If he tries to harm you I will make him pay dearly for it.''I can feel all my anger surface again. My rage went away as I feel one of her hands on my shoulder.
''You will find a way to help us all escape this Lara, I just know it.''She always have the words to ease my pain it's unbelievable.
''Can I ask you... if did Alex told you... his...felling for you before he died?'''I couldn't never hide something from her she always knows.
''How did you know?''.She smiles at me like when I ramble or being foolish, something that happen regularly when I try to express my feelings to her or anyone that is. '' Lara...'' she sigh'' Half the ship knew he had a crush on you he even ask me for help''.'' What?! I couldn't believe my ears, she try to tell me that everyone knew and Just I didn't, my eyes were wide open. Sam give a little laugh,God I like her laugh.
''But, I try to tell him that hum... men weren't your cup of tea but I think he didn't believe me.''Damn if he had knew that I sees him like a friend and nothing more he would be here. All my grief return and my gaze meets Sam's.
''I need to know something if you don't mind?'' I nod, I would tell her everything.
''Lara how did you survive all that, what is keeping you going through all this mess? I couldn't have done those things that's for sure.''My face harden.
''I have a purpose, the only one I have left, the one that's always been my most precious one.''
Sam give me her interrogative looks and I could feel my heart burst out of my chest but I can't stop the machine that I set in motion, I have to tell her.
'' Sam... when you were captured the first time I couldn't stop blaming myself and when you contacted me on the radio the first time I was ready to give up but your voice was a reminder that I had a purpose and that kept me going. When I found you in the cave and they were going to burn you I... had given up hope and when they haul me next to you, I asked that if they were any God or any thing decent in this world, please don't let her died...''
I could feel that I was close to tear but then I turn my eyes to her and I blink them away as I could see her comforting face.''You survive and that was enough to keep me going.''I stop to catch my breath, I feel my heart beats faster.
''After...Roth's death you were the only reason that I had and... I... it's been a while since I wanted to tell you but now that I know that life is too short... I can't hold back any longer.''
I took a deep breath and we lock eyes, I was close to have a heart attack but this time I wouldn't stop.
'' Sam... I...you've always mean a lot to me, the only one I could get along in boarding school and the only friend that really mattered for me and... I...''
I drop my eyes to the ground,
Fuck it.
''I'm in love with you Sam .''I look up to her eyes ''I love you with all my heart and even more.''
Sam eyes were wide open and she look in shock and I didn't know how to react.
My heartbeat accelerates even more.
'' Sam... I ...I... just tell me I have a chance or...or...just forget about it, it was stupid of me to think that you ...you...''
I was cut off by Sam lips on mine it took a few seconds to realize what's going on, but I soon understood. I close my eyes returning the kiss and moan unto the passion of our first kiss, all my pain and worries fade away and I couldn't stop the flow of joy, kissing Sam was a dream coming true and I could only just concentrate on Sam's lips on mine it was my first real kiss and nothing I ever know or ever heard could have prepare me to this, it was like kissing an angle I'm sure of it, she pull her arms around my neck and I fell on the bunk with Sam atop of me. I move my hands on her waist, the kiss broke too soon for the need of air that was starting to get urgent.
'' Lara... I've always... loved you more than a friend but, I just understood my real feelings for you a few months ago,You were always telling me I was like a sister to you so I thought that you weren't interested in me.''
'' But, you never seems to-''
She leaned down to kiss me again to silence me, I kiss her back eagerly and it became instantly passionate. All my doubt,my grief and my fear just fade away once again, the only thing's that exist in this instant was my Sam kissing me. Roth would have been proud of me , he was right, I shouldn't have kept these feeling away from her, I should have listen to him and went straight to Sam and tell her, oh God I was foolish.
She pull back to allow us to allow us to catch our breaths. ''I love you'' I muttered
''I love you too'' she respond back and lean down again.
We continued like this, kissing each other,I could only feel that it was right, I love her and she loves me, that was perfect. At this moment I am the most happiest women in the world.
''Hmmm...Little bird ...Sammy ...Sorry to interrupt.''Sam and I jump, we stop instantly and pull away of each others, my face and neck went red and as I turn my gaze from her already red face to turn it to Jonah, God it was amazing, I already wants to pin her down and kiss her again., Jonah was there he had enter our small building without our notice but again, We were very distracted...
'''We... were just...'' Sam try to explain ''Argh who am I kidding it was plain obvious what we were doing.''Jonah laugh, I laugh nervously with him, he was carrying two bowl.
''Don't worry, seeing that love still exist even in this place warms my heart but anyway I won't disturb you for very long here are you meal I am very proud of myself for it I cook with some fish a caught earlier.''He gave us both our meal and give us a wink before he leave.
''Well that...was awkward.'' I tell Sam''Yeah but at least next time he will think twice before sneaking back on us ...in case next time we... argh never mind '' I couldn't stop a smile on my face at what Sam just have suggest. We start to eat our meal but I quickly devour it because it's been a full day since I ate something and Sam couldn't stop to laugh and it was really good even with nothing Jonah could prepare some good that taste amazing.
After we are done with our food Sam kiss me lightly on my lips
'' We should get some rest''She yawn at me face and I can't resist and yawn too.
'' Care to sleep with me?''
''You wouldn't had a choice.''she said pushing me down on the small bunk and she lay down next to me moving her arms around my chest and resting her head on my shoulder. I put my arm on her back and pull her closer.
''You made me the most happy women in the world,I will find a way out of this cursed place and we are going to survive this... together, I promise you.''
''I trust you Lara, you'll find a way, I love you Lara.'' she said closing her eyes
I smile, it will take a moment before I will get used to hear those words but coming from Sam it mean the world to me.
I close my eyes'' I love you Sam, more than anything.'' we both fell asleep fast in the security of each others arms.
A few hours later...
I wake up with a strange feeling, the feeling that all was a dream, that we never wreck on this islands and all our friends are still alive and I could go and tell my nightmare to Sam and she will comfort me and I swear to God, I'll tell her about my feelings. But as soon I open my eyes i realize that it is not, we are still on Yamatai, many of our friends...Roth died and I glance down at my hands the same that are caressing Sam,the hands that I use to kill so many men, I feel so unclean with so much blood on my hands. But my heart is remove of all grief as I feel Sam tighten her hold against me''Sam...'' I sight silently, the memories of me confess my feelings to her came rushing back in my head, she told me that it was a shared feeling and It has been one of my greatest moment ever. I now realize, one must really lose something to realize its true meaning.
It was still dark outside but less than when we had falling asleep,I was put out of my though as I hear someone enter. By instinct I quickly draw my pistol and aim at the intruder with my only right hands.
''Wow, Lara put that down'' I lower my gun and put it back to my holster and saw Whitman look at Sam and I tangled together on the bunk, a smile that I didn't like one bit formed on his face.
'' I didn't mean to ... disturb you two but Reyes wants to speak to us'' He drop his smile and go out as quickly as he came.
Sam didn't wake up and I found it quite hard to wake her up, I could stay on this bed forever with her but I know that it is not the place, I shake her lightly by the shoulder.'' Sam... honey it's time to wake up look down to see her beautiful face, I can't stop thinking that she is the most amazing woman I've ever seen even with all the dirt.
''Lara...''she open her eyes, and tighten her grip around me, I smile at her.
''Is it a dream?, to awake in you arms I mean move my hand on her forehead to remove strand hair and put them behind her ear. ''No Sam it's not''
I lean down and our lips instantly met and I cup her cheeks to allow the kiss to deepen, the kiss end too soon for my taste but we need to breathe
''I love you'' I muttered, she answered with an another kiss that last for long seconds and once again she succeed, I forget all the pain of the world just to fix my attention on her, my Sam.
When the kiss broke the incident with Whitman comes back to me.
''Reyes want so speak to us we should go see what it is before they come check on us again.''
''Again?.''
''Whitman came some minutes ago to tell us'' She start to laugh. But stop to smile at me
''Then come on before he comes back.''
We both get out of bed and I already miss the warmth of it, I grab all of my weapons and sight, I fear that they will be used today. I pull one of my arm around Sam shoulder and she instinctively move her arm around my waist and we both head out of the little ruin we were sleeping in and we join the rest of the crew.
Reyes looks like she's waiting for us but Whitman seems not to care and Jonah smile at us both and give me a wink. I blush a little as the thought of what happen last night come back to me.
''Took your sweet time'' Reyes seems angry but I am too happy to argue with her so I just nod and kiss Sam forehead.
Reyes frown''All right, the boat will be ready in a few hours so prepare yourself to leave''Damn I forgot to tell them, I was too distracted that I completely let it leave my mind.
''We can't leave, this island won't let us'' I said firmly.
''Don't get with that bullshit we are leaving as soon as the boat is ready''She looks pissed now but I drop my arm from Sam and approach her.
''I don't know how to explain but something is causing these storms to appear we all saw it , it ain't natural and it will kill anyone who attempt to leave.''
''You can't seriously believe that''Before I could respond Jonah step in
'' This island is not normal, that is true.''
''There is a lab from world war II on the coast they studied the subject I strongly believe that they found something''Keeping eye contact with Reyes.
''If you are nor here when the boat is ready, we will leave without you Lara.'' she said with a cold tone and turning her back on me.
'' I will not leaving without you'' I turn to face Sam and I gave her a grin, it's good to see that someone is believing me. Reyes goes back to the boat without a another word and Jonah return to his post, I turn to Sam and She give me a bright smile and it warms me more than the sun itself and our eyes lock.
''I will be back soon'' I cup her cheeks with my hands.
''Return safe Lara , promise me... I can't lose you.''She move her arms around my waist.
''I promise you Sam you are my shinning light in these dark times.''
With that being said I lean and kiss her passionately. Only Whitman was there to witness us but I don't care.
'' Well well, my little archeologist has grown up, I wouldn't have believe it if I didn't saw it with my own eyes, Lara gay...'' He start to laugh but I didn't really listen to him but Sam raised one of her arm to give him the middle finger.
We pull away after long seconds to breath'' I love you.'' I forced to not let my tears falls, the thought to leave her is hurting me.
'' I love you too Sam, I will come back...for you.'' I pull away and start walking,I know that I must not look back or I'll break, but I can't stop thinking what will happen if she's not here when I come back,, It will be the death of me if something happen to her.
''Lara...'' I turn my face to look at Jonah '' come back for her... us''
''Keep an eye on her, I will be fast.'' I start to run, with my heart ease from a huge burden I can think clearly again. Sam loves and for that I will do everything to survive for my... our future out of this god forsaken place.
A few hours later...
''I hope Reyes will accept to go inland, we are so close to leave.''I say to myself, I know that the body of the sun queen must be destroy in order for her soul to rest in peace. Only I had known that back in the mountains I could have end it.
''Lara ! Do you copy!'' I'm force out of my thought as I hear Reyes shouts in my little radio. My heart skip a beat as I heard distant voice of Russians and gunshots in the radio.
''We need help! Lara do you roger!?'' I didn't care to respond ''Sam...'' I mutter breathlessly and a second later I start to run like the devil himself is chasing me.
On my way to the camp my mind doesn't stop to race, what happen if she is dead when I arrive, I wouldn't survive it that for sure,My gaze drop to the ground when a pain arise from my side , no I don't have time to catch my breath, Sam needs me, I turn my gaze up and take cover immediately as I saw two armed men talking, I draw my bow an arrow silently.
''Как вы думаете, они будут ловить девочку?''( Do you think they will catch the girl?)
''Я надеюсь, но если ее подруга не вокруг победа обеспечена.''(I hope, but if her girlfriend is not around victory is assured)
''Почему вы думаете, она ее подруга?'' (why do you think she is her girlfriend?)
''жертва, как признаться отцу Матиаса, что она влюблена в молодого воина.''(The sacrifice has confess to father Mathias that she is in love with the young warrior.)
Damn If only I could understand Russian. I don't wait an another moments.
I lean out of my cover and shot an arrow on the one that is closer the other didn't have time to turn his face than an another arrow fly, the two men lies dead, Three more saw this and starts to move in my direction I quickly draw and shoot an another arrow that nearly hit the head of one of the men. the and
''укрываться!'(take cover!)'
I draw an another one and aim, two of the men roll behind a rock and the I shoot before the last one can take cover. It hit him in the heart , he falls on the sands, the last two goes out of cover and start to shoots with old Soviets assault rifles in my direction. I take cover and roll to an another cover waiting five second for they clips to empty and jump out of cover to draw an another arrow that hit one of the Solari, the last, shoots his last round that nearly hit my head but only gaze it, I draw an another arrow and hit him before he could reload.
I resume my run for it in the direction of the camp, Sam please be there, I'm coming as fast as I can, what if I'm too late and there all dead, NO she will survive. I push the thought to concentrate on my breathing, I'm so exhausted, but I can't stop, I need to run faster.
As I start to see the camp,I hear gunshot but when I start to get close silence returns.
I enter the camp winded with all my run to see Jonah one knee on the ground with Reyes with her back lean on the boat, she' got it in the arm , but my mind start to race, where's Sam. I start to panic where is she.
''Sam!'' I cried
Jonah stand up and walk next to me and put one of one of his big hand on my shoulder '' Sorry Lara...'' No no no no.
My mind start to race even more faster, no she can't be...
''Whitman took her during the fight.''
My heart broke in pieces ''No...Sam'' I couldn't stop the flow of tears and I drop to my knee my mind is full of anger ''He will pay for it, dearly.'' my hands goes in a tight fist. '' Reyes, is the boat ready?'' she nod ''We need to take it inland.''I turn my eyes to her.
''Why, just to save Sam, we could go now'' Reyes said with anger
''I'm not leaving her behind while I'm still breathing and the only way to escape is by destroy the body of the sun queen in the temple and my guts tells me that it is where Mathias will be holding her'' I say with conviction, I will save her or die trying.
I stand up and Reyes give me a look and sight in defeat '' You right, sorry Lara we can't just leave her'' I stand up and help Reyes to her feet ''Don't worry we'll save her'' I smile, it's greatly help my broken heart ''we'll save her'' I said with the same conviction as Reyes to try to convince myself .
''Get on the Boat when you are ready''Reyes and Jonah embark on the boat to prepare our departure, I would have the time to check if Sam has left something. I watch near the campfire, the fire is now just a little flame and I scan the place for anything, My eyes stop on a camera, Sam's camera, she wouldn't have left it behind willingly. I grab it and check it, It's dead but I won't left it behind this thing literally saved me the first night we arrive on this cursed place, I was so afraid the first night but seeing the face of Roth and my best friend ,or girlfriend I should say, has save me back then.
I put it in one of my pockets and walk back to the boat. Jonah and Reyes seems to wait for me and I embark on the ship and go to one of the side of Jonah to show him were we need to go, it is really simple, fallow the river until we arrive to a big mountain. Jonah nod and I sit down to ease the pain of my bodies but I can't relax one bit, I need to save Sam before they do something terrible to her.
My bodies hurt but it does not compare to the pain I feel in my chest, she must be alive, I look up to the mountains and give a small prey and my eyes starts to get wet from tears once again, ''Hang on my love, I'll save you, I swear to God...''I block my tears by closing my eyes hard but a silent one pass and goes down on my cheek.
I don't have any Knowledge of Russian, I just use translation tools
Hope you liked it I will upload the next chapter soon and I gladly accept feedback.