I grasp the thin barrier between my world and his, but it's become so thin that it's practically translucent. I sigh, running my hands through what once I held so dear, forcing the repressed memories to play over again. I reflect myself upon the smiles, the whispers, the jokes, the, everything. How could I have been so dense? Can I really not see things that are as bright as day? I run my fingertips across the fictional feelings and think back even further. No, maybe it was the fact I wasn't ready, that I am too young to experience anything like this. But I miss the affection, the warmth in my chest. I drift between consciousness, back and forth- am I backing into another reality? Is this what my fate has in store? Nothing but a torn past and untrustworthy figures- is that how I want to remember myself? I sit alone in a movie reel, watching the frightening moments strangle me until I can't breathe- usual for me. Suddenly, I let go- and watch all the bad memories recess, and I'm somewhere new- somewhere I am not a familiar, but I am welcomed. What lays in store for me here is unknown, but I think I'll be okay. I've got my trusty heart, and my mind will never betray me. I can't be worried, because I can never forget myself, or break my own trust. I'll never back down, even though they hold me back. I have my idol, and my output into this world, I truly believe I'll be fine. I'm back, better than old, and not quite new, for writing is what puts my memory onto this world, and I am not fully grown. Still, in the end, you two will never be the ones I'll come back too- your sins are too deep, and the sliding hill went too steep. With my unopened future still remaining, you won't be needed.
Hey friends- for those of you wondering where I have been for the past month, I apologize! This is just a warm up, and a little expression that I needed to put out there to you guys, hope you don't mind it's not my usual. But, this now means that I have returned, and I will be finishing my old stories and Soul Eater romances! Also, editing- because to be honest, I never review over my stories before posting. A shout out to my friend Kimmi, and Becca, also PeaceReaper and Mama OWLZ! I love you all, and with the next week free and uneventful, I shall continue where I left off!
Forever and Always,
Melody