"You broke up with her?" Gray asked.
"Well, yeah, I guess" I shrugged.
"But…" he trailed off. "How?" he continued.
"It started 5 days ago" I paused,
I already know there's something wrong with Lucy, there's just something wrong about her that I can't quite put it. I take her out to dinner that night, I even brought her flower, but at the end of the night, she dumped me. Kinda. "Are you fine Lucy?" I asked standing in her driveway. "I'm not fine," she sighed. Now I'm confused, a lot of girls when we asked 'are you alright?' they will answer that they'll fine, and we all know it's a lie and so we, as boys, can prove to the girls that we actually care and can see through their lies, but Lucy here is telling the truth right of the bat, now what should I say? I can't be telling her that 'you're fine' because clearly, she's not. My brain is working hard right now like seriously I'm trying to figure out what should I say, I feel doubt, I feel scared even, I can't even understand this foreign situation, I never been in this kind of situation before, yes Lucy cry and act weird before, but she never act this weird, and I'm quite scared about what's going to happen. "I'm in pain," she added. "Are you sick?" am I really that stupid? Geez brain! Work! Work! "No," she shook her head lightly, "It's just… getting harder everyday" she continued. "What's getting harder everyday?" I asked back. "Us," she said simply looking at me, I can't read her eyes, but I can tell that she's not fine and unfortunately she's sad. "Maybe it's better that we break" now I know why I'm feeling scared and doubtful before, this, she finally said it, she's breaking up with me. Her soft words and slightly dry tone it's killing me, I don't even know what to feel right now. "Why?" was the only words I can say. "Did I do something stupid?" I asked again because she's not answering anything for a minute there, her eyes is blank looking into my sorrowful eyes, "We're not functioning right anymore, I'm sad, with every words misspoke we only get more far away, maybe this is for the better" she said slowly and looking down, what is her problem? "How come it's better when we're not even together?" I sighed in aggravation, I told you before, I don't know what to feel, so I can be annoyed and sad at the same time. "What I'm trying to say is," she looked up at me again, "I tried to let you know that I love you Natsu, but I'm letting go" now I can see the confusion and sadness and loneliness in her eyes, "maybe it's not going to last, maybe I'll come back to you again, but I don't know" she trailed off showing a slight smile, "I just don't know" she pursed her lips together firmly now. "I'm sorry" now I'm dumbfounded, what should I say? I can't comprehend anything she's been saying. Everything she's been saying for the past minutes is killing me and I can't process that much information, moreover she's breaking up with me, what is going with this situation? The atmosphere is not tense, nor sad, nor awkward, it's just normal quiet between two people, gah I'm so frustrated. "Okay," that's the only word I can say now… "I'm going inside, so…bye" She smiled a little and walks inside, without even kissing me, even in the cheek gosh! And yet I can only nod.
"Just like that?" Gray asked again, his face is weird… well he always is. I nodded. "You should've bought her flower more often" he suggested, even though it's too late now. "I did bought her flower Gray," I sighed, annoyed. "Even I bought her flower that night, but she just leaves it on my car" I added. "She leaved it on your car?" Gray asked surprised, I nodded, "how cruel" he commented.
"You should've spend more time with her" he suggested again.
"Gray," I looked at him, seriously, "It doesn't matter now" I sighed in defeat, "just don't tell Erza," I shot my eyes at him. "She'll kill you Natsu," Gray said in horror. "It's not a surprise, she's been trying to kill us since we're 10 years old" I scoffed. "Talk about demon," he smirked, "no she's more like a monster, demon would probably suit Lisanna sister" I looked at Gray with such horror in my face, "Mira?" and I nodded, "I can't believe your brother can date Mira, she's an absolute demon isn't she?" Gray laughed amusingly, and yes my brother Laxus is dating Mira, I don't know how those two can get together or what, but it still give me chill just to think about that demon Mira, she always hit me because always asking Lisanna to play when we were kids. Geez. "Talk about Mira, how about Lisanna, she's nice and you're two is so close" Gray light up. "Don't you think that if I want her as a girlfriend I would've asked her already?" it's sarcasm, Gray. "I don't like Lisanna that way, and beside Mira will definitely kill me" I added and he nodded agreeing to me. "You can have Juvia if you want" Gray offered, "I'M NOT THAT DESPERATE!" I yelled, hell no I'd take Juvia, just no, no way. That girl is obsessed with Gray since the first grade, and even though I can see that Gray is slightly annoyed by her appearance but he still quite amused by it, just admit it that you enjoy watching her Gray.
"Talk about the bright side, it's freaking holiday!" Gray sat up and punched his paw up in the air. "Yeah! It is isn't it! TIME TO HIT THE BEACHHHHH!" I screamed alongside Gray. He's right, even thought lately it's impossible to sleep because everything is fucking remind me of her, I mean even my pillow remind me of her, that fluffy soft pillow remind me of her cheeks goddamnit! It is holiday, and I should've have fun instead of thinking about Lucy, finally I can relax enjoy in the sun without my girlfriend bothering me. So good to be single and spend the time with my friends.
AAHHHH my body is been hurting really bad because I've been spending too much time on the beach, thanks to Gray, now I don't feel like going to school, oh wait, I never want to go to school. "Geez Gray thanks to you I've been hurting all over" I complained. "Now, now don't be such a wimp, I can even take it, I don't feel any pain at all" he brag. "You're saying you better than me?" I raised my tone. "Aren't I always better than you?" he raised his eyebrow with that grin. It's so irritating. I was about to punch him but… "No… I don't feel like I'm in the mood of fighting… I'm in pain… everything is hurting really bad is, LOOK I'M SO TAN!" I yelled in desperation pointing at my skin. "You'll get back to normal later" he sighed in annoyance. It is our first day of being a third grader, our senior year, our last time at this school, sigh, with this many memories, how can I continue to college?
The first day just got worse… even though I'm in the same class as Gray I'm in the same class as Lucy too… all out of the people why is it always her that has to be in the same place as me? GOD! And my body is hurting too. I'm so frustrated.
"You sit next to Lucy? Way to go Natsu" Gray teased. "WHAAA" I yelled in shock. "Yeah, that's her bag isn't it? You forgot about it already?" he point to the next desk beside me. "It is her bag!" I realized… now I'm just being stupid… why do I have to choose to sit right here next to Lucy when there's so much empty sit around me… thank god Gray sit in front of me. "Why you didn't tell me?!" I grab Gray shirt. "I just discovered it geez Natsu, just stay calm, it's not like she's going to bite you" Gray laughed sarcastically. Okay Natsu, get a hold of yourself, it was just Lucy sitting next to you, even though she's your ex, it doesn't mean anything, you both still can be friends, right? It's not like she hates you Natsu.
History makes it worse. It's so boring and I can't help to look at Lucy. "Um," she turns to me, "can you not look at me like that?" and I snapped to reality. "Look at you like what?" I scratch the back of my neck, talk about awkwaaaard. Now that I think about it, this is the first time Lucy talks to me since that night, I miss her voice truth be told, but there's nothing I can do, or maybe I just don't know what do. But I'm always don't know what to do aren't it? "Hey, Lucy" I called her. "What?" she mumbled. I was about to make sure that we're friends and it doesn't matter if we're ex or not, we're still friends right but then I say… "Are you gaining weight?" STUPID NATSU! CURSE MY LIPS GAH! Lucy look at me with annoyance in her eyes, she always angry when I mention about her size in front of her, aren't every girls like that? "Yes, I'm aware of that, thanks for pointing it out" she sighed, holding back her anger and averted her eyes from me to the teacher, geez, I want to talk to her more but why I can't say the right words that I want to say, it's like it's only stuck in my mind. Lucy, you're killing me.
This is only the first chapter! should i continue? i already writing on the next chapter anyway hehe review xx!