AN: Hello all, the third installment of Kelly Madock, I am happy to have this chapter up. I will try and keep updated as best to my ability, so feel free to alert and review.

Chapter One
New Day

Juice stood beside Kelly, his hand holding hers as he watched her pushing. Kelly's hand was squeezing Juice's hand tight; he could hear the midwife telling Kelly to push as he felt nervous. The whole event a blur, the feeling of anticipation as the doctor smiled. "It's a boy…" He held a small baby up, and Juice felt his throat tighten seeing the black baby staring at him.

Snapping awake Juice ran his hand across the bed trying to feel for Kelly, he sat up listening to the sound of mixing as he pushed the sheet off himself getting out the bed. Heading into the kitchen he could see Kelly standing in her night shirt, she was mixing up something, Juice couldn't see stepping closer to her, his hands wrapping over her stomach as he looked to the bowl of what look like pancake batter. "You feeling okay?" He whispered softly resting his chin on her shoulder.

"I'm good baby," Kelly turned her face to feel Juice's lips brush on her cheek, "You had another dream?" She asked feeling his hands brushing over her stomach even more.

Juice exhaled, "Same one," Taking a step back Juice walked over to the stove seeing Kelly had placed a frying pan, but he played his hand over the handle. "It's like I can't let it go. And everything…"

"Baby," Kelly placed the bowl down walking over to Juice, her fingers brushing his face, "These dreams are just that, dreams." Her eyes searching his, "The baby isn't going to be born black, and it's just your fear of the club finding out, but they won't."

"I'm just scared for him…" Juice placed his hands on her stomach; it didn't look that different since she was just going into her second trimester.

Kelly touched her hands over Juice's, her eyes meeting his with a serious expression. "And what makes you think it's going to be a boy?" Her eyebrow rose showing her seriousness.

Juice broke into a grin, "I just know." He pulled her close kissing her; he felt her body relaxing again him giving into the kiss.

Pulling away Kelly let a small smile slip, "Well it's just a matter of weeks before we can find out…" Her voice drifted as she glanced to the bowl on the table, and the clock showing it was three in the morning.

Juice nodded, "I am telling you," He gave Kelly a knowing smile, "It's going to be a boy." He ducked as Kelly made a swipe for his face playfully. "Too slow."

Kelly rolled her eyes, picking up the bowl she walked over to the stove looking over to Juice, "You might as well go back to sleep, I'm not gonna be sleeping." Placing the bowl down she started to turn the gas ring on starting to heat up the frying pan.

"You need to sleep baby. You've been like this for weeks." He exhaled, "It's because I'm helping Clay." He finally said seeing Kelly's reaction to the mention of Clay's name. "I don't know what's going on with that head of yours." He watched as Kelly started to make a pancake, he knew whenever he talked about Clay she'd put a wall up that he couldn't break through, so he gave up trying.

Kelly listened to the sound of Juice moving from one room to the other, it wasn't that she didn't want to tell him, but with everything that had happened with the change of leadership, to the attacks on people associated with SAMCRO. Everything had Kelly on high alert.

While it seemed to be getting back to some kind of normality, Kelly had a feeling with everything that Tig did to avenge Clay, was going to have a backlash. Maybe these break ins were to do with Niners retaliation, all Kelly knew is it was hard for her to sleep without the fear of their apartment being next.

Watching the pancake cooking in the pan Kelly glanced over to her cell phone on the table, another reason she couldn't sleep, it was knowing her aunt Gemma was out, she would do that a lot. Go out and come home with booze and weed on her breath. It worried Kelly to the point she was waiting for a phone call for her to go to the hospital.

Flipping the pancake over the smell of food making her stomach knot, even if she found it hard to have an appetite, she knew she needed to eat for her unborn baby, her hand resting on her stomach taking the cooked pancake from the pan onto a place, she started to make the next one glancing over her cell phone again, it wasn't ringing, but part of Kelly was hoping for Gemma to go back to being herself, but it wasn't happening any day soon.

It felt weird, he kept his distance from the club, but now he had to see everyone. He had to keep glancing to the final resting place of his father feeling everything inside him being pulled in different directions. Opie knew his father wouldn't have wanted a fuss made of him. The club needed to pay its last respect to a founding member.

Glancing over the cemetery his eyes found her.

Kelly had turned up early, her hands wrapped around herself looking to the hole in which Piney's remains would be put to rest. The weather was cooling down, the summer making way for autumn, the trees turning colours.

Opie glanced over Kelly; he inhaled seeing how she dressed up. A dress being worn by Kelly was a rarity, but the dress she wore wasn't black, but of a light cream falling to her knees. "You didn't have to…"

"But I wanted to," Kelly placed a hand on the small box of ashes, "I couldn't pay my last respect without the dress. Piney would be laughing at me if he could see me now." Her hand reached up pushing stay pieces of hair behind her ear.

Opie shrugged, "He would think you're beautiful. You are beautiful." He reached a hand out touching her cheek, his fingers brushing her hair before glancing behind her to see if anyone else had arrived yet.

For a second Kelly's eyes connected with Opie's, her hand reaching up to take hold of his feeling her finger so small to the size of his hand. "Thank you, but I think we both know I look like shit right now." Kelly took Opie's hand away from her face. The makeup could only hide so much of the dark circles under her eyes, and morning sickness had made her skin paler.

"Well you're having a kid," Opie looked to the box again, "You shouldn't have all this on you." He took a step back seeing the approach of the other.

Kelly bit her lip, she could feel the tension from Opie turning to be faced with Jax, and since he became president she couldn't help but see the small changed in him. "Kelly…" Jax said glancing over his cousin. "You mind if I talk to Opie alone?"

"Yeah," Kelly getting on her tip toes lightly kissed Opie before walking to join the others, she paused taking a look back knowing the topic of conversation that she wasn't welcome in.

Chibs pulled Kelly towards him, even if he could feel her pulling away from prospecting; he knew that she needed the club close. Kelly was feeling more like a daughter to him as he felt her relaxing into his arms avoiding Juice.

Since that morning of them disagreeing about Juice helping Clay, Kelly couldn't tell him the reasons. The whole club was still thinking that Niners were behind the attacks, they still thought Mexicans killed Piney. So Kelly closed her eyes trying to calm herself, but looking over to see Opie's mother with Kenny and Ellie. "I need to…" Kelly pointed over to see the look on the small groups face.

Chibs nodded letting Kelly walk away, his attention on Juice feeling he had to speak. "You okay?" He asked trying to keep calm to his voice that was showing his concern for the couple.

"She's having problems." Juice exhaled seeing Kelly console Ellie, he brushed a hand against head feeling the breeze. "I've tried to get through, but she's just been keeping me at arm's length."

Chibs shook his head, "She needs time."

"It's been over a month, she's getting colder every day." Juice could see that everyone was watching him now; he placed his hands in his pockets. "This morning I thought I was getting through, but…"

The silence floated in the air, Chibs couldn't think what to say, but since everything from last night he didn't want to tell Juice anything to make matters worse. "Well she's expecting son, she's going to be all over with her emotions."

Walking slowly over Kelly tried to keep calm, "I've spoken to Mary, and she's looking after Ellie and Kenny." Kelly kept her attention on Juice, "So I'm going to head to Gemma's, see if she's okay."

"You want me to come with you?" Juice asked looking over Kelly's face; he tried to keep safe distance. The feeling that Kelly wasn't herself.

With a shake of her head, Kelly lifted a finger to her mouth chewing on her thumb nail, she was still feeling the edge of not smoking, and everything she could do to be good. "I know you're gonna be helping Clay, so I'll call you tonight." Kelly's voice drifted off, she started to search the cemetery for Gemma, or even sight of Clay. Did Clay even have the nerve to show his face?

The awkwardness hung in the air, Kelly starting to walk towards the exit, but stopped feeling Chibs holding her shoulder, "You want to talk. You know I am always here."

Kelly let a small smile slip, "I'm just not used to feeling like this." Her hand lifted, "I never saw myself being the mummy." Taking a step back Kelly now walked away.

Gemma could still feel his presence, even after he was long gone. Her hand brushing against the sheets of the bed remembering everything, but her eyes went over her hand remembering all the things that made everything harder to forgive.

Closing her eyes Gemma brushed her hand over her eyes; she opened them seeing Kelly standing in the doorway. "What brings you here darling?"

"You weren't at Piney's send off," Kelly said walking into the room; she stood in front of Gemma looking down on her aunt. "I'm worried about you."

Letting a small laugh escape her lips Gemma glanced up to Kelly, "Sweetheart, you've got nothing to worry about." Her voice was telling a different story, but she felt Kelly sitting on the end of the bed beside her. The feeling of Kelly's hand slipping into hers made her heart feel tighter in her chest.

"You say that Gemma," Kelly whispered softly, "But I don't believe it." Her eyes meeting her aunt's, the worst of it all is that Kelly felt like a cork in a bottle around Gemma. "I'm going to the club house, so I was just checking in on you."

"I'm fine Darling, you should worry more about yourself," Gemma squeezed Kelly's hand. "You're gonna be a mother soon." Her free hand touched Kelly's stomach.

Kelly bit her lip, her eyes going over the faint marks of where Clay beat her, they were hardly noticeable, but she knew they were there. "How do you do it Gemma?"

"Do what?" Gemma felt confused looking to Kelly, the look in her niece's eyes scared her.

"Keep so many secrets," Kelly let Gemma's hand go. "You keep so many, but it doesn't seem to eat at you." Getting to her feet Kelly brushed a hand over her stomach.

For a minute Gemma really looked at Kelly, her face looked worn out, her skin sickly, but most of all her eyes were faded. "Darling, you just find a way to justify why you hide things from people. I do it for family."

"Family…" Kelly laughed, "I guess it's the only good thing worth lying for." Her hand brushed some of her hair behind her ear, Kelly didn't really like keeping secrets, but at the moment it wasn't right to share. "I just hope you get your shit together Gemma." Walking out the door Kelly didn't even look back closing the bedroom door behind her.

Gemma bit her lip, her hands covering her face for a few seconds, she didn't like how her life was going, but for this moment, she was just going to have to keep taking it a day at a time.

Kelly pulled into the lot behind Jax and Bobby, she smiled parking up her car looking to everyone excited to see Bobby out of lock up. She walked over giving Bobby a hug and smile; he glanced over her with a laugh.

"You've gotten big!" Bobby joked; he couldn't help himself rubbing a hand over her hair with his eyes going to Juice as he came over to greet him. "Our Juicy boy's gonna be a dad!" he laughed even more seeing Kelly's face flush over.

"How you been?" Kelly kept in sync with Bobby walking towards the club house, her eyes going over to Roosevelt, then back to Juice wondering what they could have been talking about.

Bobby smiled, "Well finally getting out, but you'll hear more later." He kissed the top of Kelly's head; he glanced around the club house feeling at home. "But I need a beer," His eyes studying Kelly.

"I'll get you that." She felt at ease going to the bar.

Juice watched Kelly, but it wasn't long until he felt Chibs's hand on his shoulder. "You going to talk to her?" He asked watching Kelly getting a beer for Bobby.

"I will, it's just she's been on edge," Juice didn't know why Kelly was, it was only since Piney died that she had been so wound up in herself. "But I guess I'll have to talk about it."

"I hope so too lad, just a very important for her to be calm, don't want her getting upset." Chibs laughed, "She's going to be very difficult with the baby in tow."

Bobby stuck his head in, "Very important you don't piss her off, a pregnant woman is a scary one when angry." He lightly slapped Juice's arm, "How far is she?"

Juice thought for a second, he felt he wasn't that good on keeping track. It wasn't long before Kelly was over handing Bobby the beer, "I'm about twenty weeks, so me and Juan are going to find out if it's a boy or girl soon." She smiled rubbing a hand against her stomach.

"Well can just hope for a little boy." Bobby joked rubbing Kelly's belly, he glanced up to her. "You're gonna make a great mom." He looked to Jax standing behind them. "Guess we've got church."

Jax nodded, "Kelly can tell you all about being knocked up after." He reached over brushing his hand into Kelly's hair, "You don't have to worry about Abel and Thomas today, Tara's signed them into day care."

"I know, she text me yesterday." Kelly waved her phone with a smile, "I have an appointment today anyway." She got to her feet heading to the bar.

Watching everyone going into the chapel, Kelly felt weird looking over to Georgie behind the bar, she was happy for Phil to be patched in, but part of her didn't know if she envied him or not. Being pregnant wasn't helping her prospecting, but even more she didn't really feel like she was a prospect anymore.

"You feeling okay?" Georgie asked looking over Kelly's face.

"I'm fine," Kelly exhaled, "Just it's been a long few weeks, I mean it really feels like." She stopped turning to face Georgie, "I'm rambling."

Georgie handed her a glass of water, he laughed. "You do that a lot lately." He didn't want to sound rude, but he knew that Kelly had a lot on her plate. "But after the baby's born, you gonna carry on, or just be full time old lady?"

Kelly did a double take, "Full time old lady?" Rolling her eyes she took a sip of the water, "I don't like the sound of that." She felt her gaze going to the door seeing Clay. Her face dropped watching him walking towards the chapel. He didn't even have the nerve to look her in the face, but she knew he knew. The fact since Opie shot Clay, Kelly couldn't really look at him, she knew he was the reason John Teller was dead, that Gemma was hiding so much about it. Plus keeping this secret on top of Juice's was giving her a headache most of the time.

Georgie felt the cold chill of Kelly's stare at the chapel, he didn't know what was wrong, but everyone knew that Kelly had suddenly been put off of Clay. Mostly they thought it was due to the beating he gave Gemma, others just putting it down to her being pregnant.

"So, you're finding out if it's a boy or girl?" Georgie asked trying to calm the mood; he watched her turning slowly to face him, her eyes still looking flat. "I mean, do you want to know?"

Kelly inhaled, "I want to know, I'm not one for surprises, plus it's easier to pick a name." Placing the glass of water back on the bar, she brushed her hands over her stomach listening to the noise from the chapel; it seemed that everyone was cheering something on.

"When Juice comes out, just let him know I'm heading to Saint Thomas, so I'll just see him later." Kelly moved off the bar stool, her attention back to the chapel before walking out the club house.

The walk to the day care was relaxing, for the most of today Tara didn't like training her replacement. It was the fact that right now all she wanted to do was pick her boys up and take them home. Her hands resting in her lab coat made the walk seem more her pace, stopping to see Kelly walking towards the day care from the opposite angle.

Kelly smiled seeing Tara, "Hey…" She held her arms out.

Tara relaxed, even with everything buzzing in her head, she felt Kelly's embrace and relaxed, "I wasn't expecting to see you here?" Pulling away Tara glanced over Kelly, even if she only saw her the other day; she kept forgetting she really was pregnant. "How is everything?"

"Good, baby's heart is good, I have been told to calm down." Kelly brushed some hair behind her ear, "High blood pressure." She added while tapping her heart.

Tara nodded, "Yeah, I guess they worry about that, but you really should take it easy." Her eyes were now looking down the hallway behind Kelly. "No Juice with you?"

"No, I rather do this solo, I mean he comes to the sonograms, and he'll get excited about seeing the baby, but I don't want him knowing…" Kelly bit her lip, "It's just shit that's been happening, and if he knew this on top, it would push him too far."

Tara brushed a hand into Kelly's hair, "I know what you mean." Her eyes were searching Kelly's. "I should let you know I've put you on the list with the day care, so if you're here for an appointment, and want to see them you can." Her smile was a little more convincing as she looked to the door.

"Yeah," Kelly glanced into the day care, she now pushed the door seeing Abel sitting at a table colouring, "Hey little man." Kelly waved to Abel, who had now spotted her with a giggle.

Tara looked to one of the carers, "This is Kelly Madock, she's on the approved visitors," Her voice was low, "This means she's aloud to see the boys?"

"Yes, as long as we know who she is, she can sign in," The carer smiled, "Taking them home?"

Tara broke into a smile, "Yes, it has been a long day…" She reached over for the sign out sheet, her eyes going to Kelly now playing with Abel. Tara couldn't help but wonder what life was going to be like after Kelly's baby is born, if Gemma would get her fingers into Kelly's child.

"Okay," Kelly held her arms out, Abel wrapping his arms around Kelly's neck he felt her lifting him up. "You are going to tell me all about your fun first day."

Tara smiled after being handed Thomas; she couldn't help but admire Kelly with Abel, listening to Abel telling Kelly all the things he did that day. It was a big step for Tara, but she was happy she made the decision to putting the boys into day car.

"How did you get here Kelly?" Tara asked walking to the exit with Thomas now in his stroller, Kelly still holding Abel, he was hugging her with his eyes closing.

Kelly lifted Abel up more, her hands supporting him carefully. "I drove; Juan isn't all that comfortable with me riding now I'm showing." Her eyes were going to her stomach. "Why you ask?"

"Well if you want, you can come home with me in my car, get one of the prospects to pick your car up." Her voice was confident. In all Tara's life, she never thought she'd hear herself talk this way, but looking over Kelly, it was just something they were used to.

Kelly laughed, "That sounds perfect. We can fix dinner up for Jax." Her voice was odd to Tara.

"Well you can phone Juice, see if he wants to come." Tara watched Kelly opening the door to the parking lot, her arm still holding Abel strong.

Kelly shrugged, "Na, he is going to be busy with Clay…" Kelly's tone was bitter, and Tara knew that bitterness from her own feelings. "He's helping him move, and he's a ride and I honestly…" Kelly bit her lip, she glanced to Tara feeling like she was giving too much away. "I just can't."

"It's okay." Tara brushed a hand down Kelly's back, "It's going to be okay."

Kelly felt a small relief getting to Tara's car, helping putting Thomas and Abel in the car seats, her hands went to her purse to make sure everything was inside. Getting in the front passenger seat, Kelly could tell that Tara had been busy also, but mostly just getting over the fact of Jax's new position at the table was affecting everything in her life.

Pulling into the driveway, Kelly got out first getting Abel from the car; she glanced to see Tara taking Thomas out while the both held a sleeping boy. Kelly carried Abel to his bedroom getting him ready for bed, but she knew Gemma was in Thomas room helping Tara, Kelly placing Abel into bed turning his night light on before turning the main light off, she glanced to Tara watching Gemma saying goodnight to Thomas.

"He's congested; he needs a humidifier in there." Gemma spoke, her walk towards the lounge with Tara behind. Kelly followed in silence.

Tara felt her jaw tighten, "It's not a dry cough. A humidifier won't work." Her voice was factual, and it made Kelly nervous as she tried to move away from the two women.

Watching Gemma putting things back into her purse, "And they don't need to be in day care, we take care of our own."

"They need to socialise with other children." Tara pointed out, her eyes going over to Kelly thinking how she never really socialised much growing up, and she didn't want that to affect her boys. "And let's be honest, I don't think you're up for the task."

Gemma felt insulted, her eyes watching Tara, "Excuse me?"

"You have every right to be distracted; you've been through a lot." Tara carried on, but even she could see Kelly behind Gemma looking really nervous.

"Just say what you mean." Gemma butted in, she got closer to Tara.

Tara knew this wasn't going to be easy, "I smell weed and alcohol on your breath every morning." Her eyes shifted to Kelly, but knew that she wouldn't speak up against Gemma.

"I don't smoke or drink in the morning!" Gemma pointed out, her eyes going back to see Kelly standing there looking awkward, "And don't get her into this!"

"I am not getting Kelly into this, and I am a doctor Gemma, I know how long alcohol and drugs stay in your system," Her voice steadying itself, "And until you pull it together, I don't want you alone with my boys."

"Really? Does Jax feel the same way?" Gemma watched Tara, she couldn't believe this.

Tara straightened up, "I haven't told him, but he knows you're not yourself."

Kelly felt a wave of relief as the front door opened. Tara greeting Jax, Bobby hugging Gemma. Leaving Chibs to give Kelly a hug, he kissed her forehead. "Everything okay with the baby?" He asked brushing his palm against her stomach.

Kelly nodded, "Little kicker is doing great, Docs just want to keep close eye on its heart." Her eyes going to Bobby was heading towards the boys rooms. "But I'm hoping for the best." Her voice trailed off hearing Gemma's phone go off.

Kelly kept close to Chibs, she watched and listened to the exchange of conversation, but deep down with the expression on Jax's face, she knew it wasn't good.

"Now what?" Tara snapped out, but even in that moment, the same thought was going through everyone's mind that wasn't part of the phone conversation.

Jax hung the phone up; he looked to Chibs, finally Bobby walking back into the room. "There is a warrant out for me, Chibs and Tig."

"Shit!" Kelly felt the words slip out, "This…" Her hands going to her pockets feeling like she was having a weird dream.

Chibs brushed an arm around Kelly, he pulled her close giving her a side hug, his attention going to Jax. "So what's the plan Jackie boy?"

Jax exhaled, heading towards the kitchen, everyone followed in suit, sitting down at the table Kelly glanced to Tara, plus Gemma. This wasn't how she imagined her evening going, but she knew this was serious business.

Everything felt like underwater to Kelly, her eyes watching the conversation, but everything seems like muffled blur of words.

It wasn't until Jax's voice rose that Kelly knew the seriousness of it all, her eyes turning when Gemma spoke. "I know where you can do, you'll be safe."

"Okay." Jax said after a long moment of silence, getting to his feet he felt Tara holding onto him. She didn't like this, he could hear it in her voice, "If we go in now we're dead, we just need to buy some time." He gave her a kiss, "You stay here and take care of our boys. I'll call you with more news." He brushed his hands into her hair walking away.

Kelly bit her lip looking towards Tara; she didn't like this, but inhaled. "I think I am gonna go to the club house." She felt her stomach drop, but knew the prospect brought her car back, that was sitting in the driveway.

Tara nodded, "I think that's best." Her voice was cold hearing the bikes driving away.

Kelly took one look back before picking up her purse; she headed out of the house feeling a sinking sensation in her stomach. While the day was over, the trouble was just starting.