THESE ARE ORIGINAL CHARACTERS, AND ORIGINAL STORY, NAMES AND PLACES ARE FICTITIOUS, NOT RELATED TO CHARACTERS AND REAL PERSONS.
Who would ever want to get close to another person if they knew how hard the letting go part was? In your heart they only die a little at a time, don't they? There are a lot of you who still don't know about relationships, one of the hardest ones was how long it took the ones you loved most to die in your heart.
Kyo and Ryu…they have been together all their lives. They have always been together like forever. Grew up together, played together and practically lived in each other's houses like they are twins, they are always together and nothing can separate them. It seems natural for them to fall for each other, since they hardly go and be with anyone else. So what went wrong? What broke them up? Kyo had been trying to figure that out for the last couple of weeks. Ryu said they should start sleeping in separate beds, start doing different things and with other people. When Ryu put a password on his laptop and started locking "his" bedroom, Kyo knew that something was definitely wrong. What did I do? What changed you? Kyo wanted to ask his lover but he never got the chance. They just woke up one morning, and Ryu decided he got tired playing house with Kyo and also decided to get a life of his own, without Kyo in it. Every time Kyo tried to ask him or talk to him. Ryu tried to dodge it and makes excuses for it.
"I just want something different. I'm just sick of doing the same stuff we do." Those were Ryu's words. Each word cutting through Kyo like a knife with the intensity of the way Ryu said them. That life he was talking about was the life they had together, living together.
Ten years. Ryu threw away ten years of their lives for something different, for stuff that didn't include Kyo.
Kyo finally got his answer one night when he got home. He was at the kitchen, grabbing himself a beer when he heard the keys to the front door. He smiled, his heart skip a beat. Finally, Ryu is home early, maybe this time they will talk, maybe this time this whole nightmare will be over.
He put his can of beer and was ready to greet his lover who had been having mood swings for the last two weeks. He stopped at the counter when he heard voices, Ryu had someone with him. Kyo could almost his hear his heart pounding, something's wrong. Suddenly he is finding it hard to breathe. It dawned on him now. He realized now what happened. This is not temporary like what Ryu was insisting about their relationship. You don't go telling your lover, like hey, let's have a time out; and let's not see each other for awhile. You don't put the one you love on hold. You don't take a break from a relationship you've been in your entire life.
Kyo tried to hold back the tears, Ryu's voice sounded excited and happy. He quickly went to the mini bar and grabs a bottle of Whiskey and a shot glass. Got one shot down to steady his nerves, he grabbed the beer just in time the door opened.
Ryu walked in with a stranger, a tall, good-looking guy. So this is his replacement Kyo assumed, taking everything in, the animated tone in Ryu's voice, the way he kept touching the guy, and yes, the bags the guy has with him.
"Oh, Kyo. Good that you're home." Ryu said, surprised to see him standing there.
"Hey." Kyo greeted with a nod. The stranger smiled at him. He just stood there.
"Jin, this is my housemate and best friend, Kyo." Ryu said, blushing.
Truth visible on Ryu's face, and Kyo understood, they've been together for ten years, no one knows them like they do each other, habits, flaws and moods. Kyo tried not to laugh and smirk at his former lover, now am reduced to a housemate and best friend huh? We've been Uke and Seme to each other for ten years. This is so like you, Ryu. Just like with his games and collections, he grew tired of them, neglects them and discards them later on. Just like what he did with me. Kyo looked at Jin, he will get tired of you after a month, yep, I will give you a month, tops.
Jin reached out and offer his hand, Kyo just gave him a nod. Ryu grabbed Jin by the arm, "Come on you can leave your stuff in our room." Ryu said, excitedly, leading the new toy to "his" room.
"Nice meeting you." Jin said, looking back at Kyo.
"Yeah." Kyo called back. Watching the new lovers go in what used to be their room, now he was banished to the guest room.
After awhile, he couldn't stand hearing the giggles and moans from the bedroom. He got up from the couch and grabbed his jacket. He was on his way out when a barely clad and flushed Ryu stepped out of the bedroom. Kyo wanted to die. But he closed his eyes for a second and remained stoic.
"Oh." Ryu said, startled. Kyo pretended he was dense, put on his jacket and was tying his boots.
"Ummm….we-we're …I…ahh…I mean, Jin and I are going out to dinner would you like to come?" Ryu asked.
Kyo looked at him flabbergasted, what am I, nine? Give me a lollipop and it's alright? Kyo shook his head. Unbelievable. "Sorry, tell your boyfriend next time, I got a date." Kyo replied.
Ryu ran to him with a big relieved smile on his face, "You do? Oh, I'm so—" Ryu exclaimed about to hug Kyo.
Kyo moved away suddenly, as if repulsed by his presence alone. "Don't. Touch. Me." Kyo said, with venom and eyes fierce.
"Don't you ever. Ever. Touch me again." Kyo said, looking at Ryu's face, Ryu looked pale all of a sudden, and was ready to cry. Good. I hurt you. About time. Kyo thought. Opened the door and slammed it on Ryu's face.
What went wrong? When did you stop….loving me? Questions filled Kyo's mind as he sat at their favorite rock. He kept thinking of those last weeks they've been together, trying to figure out if he did something to make Ryu stopped loving him. As he looked at the beach, he might need to find a new hang out soon, Ryu might bring his lover here one day, and he didn't want to be there, he didn't want to be hurt that bad, he couldn't take it. He might die. Fresh tears welling up his eyes.
Ryu sat at the couch, looking around the house, everything here, they bought together, the furnishing, Kyo painted the whole house, while him, being the "wife" decorated the place. Kyo was the most wonderful person he had ever known in his entire life, always forgiving, always caring, always gentle, he never raised his voice on Ryu, it's always about him, maybe that's why he grew tired, he was so spoiled, there's no more thrill anymore, no more action, no more surprises. He got up and walked to Kyo's room, the guest room whenever they have family and friends over. All the pictures and stuff that he threw out of their room, Kyo salvaged them. Touching them made him ached and hurt; tears started pouring down his face. What have I done? Just for a new guy, a new lay I threw away the one person who stood by me, loved me and took care of me for the last twenty years of my life. Even when they were kids, Kyo had always been the one taking care of the shy Ryu.
He went to the bed and lifted a picture frame to look at the picture, it was their picture last year, when he got mad, he tore it up into pieces and scattered it out in the balcony at three in the morning, Ryu fell on his knees, Kyo must have spent the whole morning looking for each small pieces of that photograph, because not even the smallest piece is missing, he painstakingly glued them all together. It was over something lame, he got mad, being a sore loser that he is, he reached out for the nearest thing he can grabbed, he slapped Kyo first and grabbed the picture and tore it up and ran to the balcony and threw it away. He got mad because Kyo was teasing him about the shirt he was wearing, he remembered that Kyo didn't come to bed until it was mid morning, he just thought that he stayed out because he was afraid that Ryu would kick him out of the bed. "Oh, Kyo." He cried his heart breaking. "I'm sorry."