Promises, Promises
Hi! Thanks to everyone who reviewed Love is Blind.
This fic is from Anakin's POV, and it takes place when he is about 13 years old. I'm still new at this but I'm trying! Actually, the Dark side gave me writer's block, but I used the Force to get an idea. (I'm not kidding, this came to me in my sleep!) Anyway, R/R: I want to know what you think, because I might write a sequel.
Disclaimer: I still don't own anything.
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A few days ago, Master Obi-wan smiled at me and said I was like the son he never had. This got me thinking about my own family, or lack of it. I still miss my mom, even though I haven't seen her for four years and I'm a little too old to be missing her. She was the only family I ever had. I never had a father, and I still haven't accepted it. Qui-Gon was like a father to me for a short time. I remember how he fought for me against the Council, how he took me everywhere even though I was a little annoying, how he had faith in me, and how he protected me until the very end. But then he died, and I miss him the way I miss my mom, but worse. She is still alive and he is not. At times I feel guilty, but it isn't all that bad. I think he has contact with me. Sometimes I see him in my dreams, leading me.
But back to my point. I can't say my master is like the father I never had, though it would have been a nice thing to say there. It would be lying, and I just don't think of him, or anyone that way. After Qui-Gon's death, I learned that I can't rely on a father figure to take the position of a father, because anything can happen, especially in the dangerous world we live in. I don't want to go through that pain again. Although I haven't accepted that I don't have a father, I can't simply get one; it has already been decided for me. But it hasn't been decided yet for everyone else.
When I have a son, I will be the father I never had for him. I will care for him, protect him from the world, and love him. My son will have a real father to trust, look up to, learn from, and do everything I can't do because I don't have one. He won't have to be afraid all the time, because I will be there to help him every step of the way. And I won't die on him. I can't, it wouldn't be fair. No child should have to go through that, but it happens. I don't want it to happen to my son. He will always be more important than being a jedi or "killing the bad guys." Even though I want to be a powerful jedi and I want to be feared by the Dark side, I don't want my son to fear me. He should respect, but never fear me, because nothing good comes out of that. I should know.
It seems like this dream will never come true, but I want it to more than anything else. Because if it happens, when it happens, two things will change. I will have the father I never had in myself, and just one more kid will be able to call someone "Dad" and mean it.
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Well there's nothing left to do except scroll down and review! I hope you enjoyed it.
Hi! Thanks to everyone who reviewed Love is Blind.
This fic is from Anakin's POV, and it takes place when he is about 13 years old. I'm still new at this but I'm trying! Actually, the Dark side gave me writer's block, but I used the Force to get an idea. (I'm not kidding, this came to me in my sleep!) Anyway, R/R: I want to know what you think, because I might write a sequel.
Disclaimer: I still don't own anything.
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A few days ago, Master Obi-wan smiled at me and said I was like the son he never had. This got me thinking about my own family, or lack of it. I still miss my mom, even though I haven't seen her for four years and I'm a little too old to be missing her. She was the only family I ever had. I never had a father, and I still haven't accepted it. Qui-Gon was like a father to me for a short time. I remember how he fought for me against the Council, how he took me everywhere even though I was a little annoying, how he had faith in me, and how he protected me until the very end. But then he died, and I miss him the way I miss my mom, but worse. She is still alive and he is not. At times I feel guilty, but it isn't all that bad. I think he has contact with me. Sometimes I see him in my dreams, leading me.
But back to my point. I can't say my master is like the father I never had, though it would have been a nice thing to say there. It would be lying, and I just don't think of him, or anyone that way. After Qui-Gon's death, I learned that I can't rely on a father figure to take the position of a father, because anything can happen, especially in the dangerous world we live in. I don't want to go through that pain again. Although I haven't accepted that I don't have a father, I can't simply get one; it has already been decided for me. But it hasn't been decided yet for everyone else.
When I have a son, I will be the father I never had for him. I will care for him, protect him from the world, and love him. My son will have a real father to trust, look up to, learn from, and do everything I can't do because I don't have one. He won't have to be afraid all the time, because I will be there to help him every step of the way. And I won't die on him. I can't, it wouldn't be fair. No child should have to go through that, but it happens. I don't want it to happen to my son. He will always be more important than being a jedi or "killing the bad guys." Even though I want to be a powerful jedi and I want to be feared by the Dark side, I don't want my son to fear me. He should respect, but never fear me, because nothing good comes out of that. I should know.
It seems like this dream will never come true, but I want it to more than anything else. Because if it happens, when it happens, two things will change. I will have the father I never had in myself, and just one more kid will be able to call someone "Dad" and mean it.
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Well there's nothing left to do except scroll down and review! I hope you enjoyed it.