blackness which surrounds
my heart is breaking me
as the waves opon the sands
are pounding all they see

the one who saved my life
was all that I could see
the image of him was
slowly becoming me

kindness I was not
I brought agony and pain
to a world that was free
untill I went insane

to the one who tried
to stop my destruction
I brought him only pain
yet he brought salvation

he forgives me,
but never can forget
I cannot forgive
will never forget

will I ever escape
from all the pain
I am at rock bottom
I can only gain