Devils spawn, that's what I have been called. From the moment I became a true vampire, I knew i had changed greatly. No just physically, but with the way I think, my personality, and above all – my hunger for blood.

Ah yes blood, the one thing I used to detest most of all. The slimy texture; the coppery taste; used to make me gag. I would always feel extreme guilt for killing humans for blood; people with families and lives to live. I used to weep for them; weep for the people I killed; I would cry, my master would laugh with pride…I would pray for the humans I killed and would never keep their souls like I had done with pip. But…now. Now I just take in my stride. I feel no guilt when I kill. And I do not pray. I keep they're souls, to make myself powerful. Since master left us, I have thought of nothing else but to become as powerful as him. That thought always drowns out my guilt or regret. And…I am ashamed of it…but …its just who I am now.

I once challenged alucard for the position of 'top vampire'. Of course I lost, the battle – but won his heart. We are now mates. And I am – well I like to think I am just as powerful as he is. We've become so close. Slaughtering our enimies without mercy. We feed together, and sometimes even hold hands while feasting on a human. I think that I have calmed down his lust for a powerful oppontont. As for the first time in so many decades - he struggles in a fight against me, he says that is why he fell in love with me…

Now 200 years later we along with vlad, our son are still servants of hellsing. In that time; we have served several different masters. Including integra's youngest granddaughter Emily. She was such a sweetheart. while she was my favourite master out of the lot, integra….was like a big sister to me.

Now; we serve rick; a spoilt brat. He is not a true hellsing. Over the years we have seen the hellsing family's generations whorsen when it comes to pride and kindness. I wish integra was still with us; she would've beaten him sensless if she knew what kind of 'leader' he claimed to be.

But alas, this is how we live. Killing, and raising vlad. Rick has turned me and master into monsters – bigger monsters than hat we were anyway. He would send us on missions to kill vampires that were of no ham to us, he would order us to kill anypne who dared oppose him. And we have no choice but to obey him; he would threaten us with our own son And for that I hate him! But….that is just how it is now.

And you know what that's ok; cause even though at the moment our lives are a living hell with this boy; we'll make sure he is the last of the lot; oh yes, we'll make sure that never has a girlfriend or has kids. That is for sure

And as harsh as that sounds…that's just the way we are now. Maybe me becoming such a monster wasn't so bad after all…