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My life is simple. Just plain and simple. Nothing happens. Not since he left. I don't want to say his name, it will just open up the hole in my chest that had tortured me for so long. It's still not fully closed, and I don't think it ever will be, but I know that he won't be coming back, ever.

"You...don't...want...me??"

A very simple question that had the most painful and tragic answer.

"No."

Just one word. One word that caused me to go totally mad and be cut off from reality. For months, since he said that word, I was like a zombie. Just me in my own world, no one really knew how I was feeling, I kept myself to myself. That word destroyed months of my life. Months that would, or could have been so much worse, if it wasn't for Jake. He was my rock through it all, my shining sun. He held me together through my months of total depression. If it wasn't for him, I don't know what would of happened, just that I would be far worse than I am today.

It's been about a year now since he left. A year since I haven't been whole. A year since my life got torn apart and it felt like half of me was missing. A year since he broke my heart and now it will never be fixed. I won't ever be the same now.

Jake and I have grown a friendship that can never be destroyed now, but he has a girlfriend who lives at La Push. She knows all about the fact that Jake is different. That he is something you would see in a comic book. That he's a werewolf. Since about 6 months ago he started acting differently, and I noticed something was wrong with him because of the fact he had grown about a foot in the space of just a couple of weeks, and the way he acted, his personality was totally off, he seemed more grown up. In the end, after some very confusing 'hinting', I finally worked it out. I wasn't that surprised by the whole thing, to be quite fair, since I found out about vampires, nothing would ever surprise me again.

Since then, Jake has been staying in La Push more, to protect the area, so I don't really get to see him much. So now, I am officially stuck on my own with nothing. No real friends to talk to, nothing interesting, completely alone. So, I just carry everyday like the same as yesterday. The same old routine every morning, to the same routine every night.

I go to Forks High School. I've been there for about 2 years now and not once, well apart from meeting the love of my life, has anything ever happened that was just out of the ordinary. Everyone is just as plain as me. When I first moved here, I was 'like the shiny new toy' as Jessica had said to me because everyone was absolutely jazzed about some new girl who had moved from Arizona. I hated that first week. A week of complete strangers just staring at me like I was the new freak show that had just come to town. But now, everyone who used to stare tries to avoid me now. Ever since they left, everyone thinks I'm ready to commit suicide at any moment so they tread really carefully with me, like I've just come out of a mental hospital. I still sit with Angela and Mike Newton at lunch, but that's only because they feel sorry for me. Mike has never really stopped crushing on me since I moved to the school, and Angela is just the nicest girl. She'll do anything for anyone, even the most depressed girl on earth.

I was stopped by my little recap of my depressing year by Mike, "So, Bella, did you hear that we have a substitute today for Science?"

"No, I didn't. I might just skip that lesson now then. I don't feel too good anyways." I always said I felt ill now, it was the only way I could get out of a lesson.

I could see Mike roll his eyes from the corner of my eye and he replied, "Oh, alright, hope you 'feel better'" He said it in a really sarcastic tone, but to be honest, I didn't care.

When the bell rang for the end of lunch, I got up and made my normal stop at the front office to see Mrs Cope, the school receptionist. She knew me by name now, and like practically everyone else, she knew about me and Edward. So, she just told me to drive carefully like normal and to get some rest.

So, I went straight to my old truck and went to make my normal drive out to Seattle to get my usual coffee and kill time before going home to see my dad, Charlie. But, what I didn't know was that today would be the total opposite of my normal daily routine.