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Full Summary: Post New Moon. Cullen's/ Vamps. The Matthews/Human. Rated M, cause I don't know what'll happen later, Romance/Angst/Mystery/Humor…its got everything!
Bella spirals into a deep depression causing her to do the only rational thing in her eyes - by committing suicide. But, to 'Them' its not her time. Bella is sent back to earth as a different person: Ava Matthews, living with her new family, in Alaska. Ava has no clue she's 'Bella' until she runs into some familiar people, bringing her back to her past life. How will she cope with keeping the secret that she is Bella, when her saviors forbid her to revealing herself.
Chapter 1 : The Ending Of A New Beginning
~Bella~
Its been a couple months now since my second family left. I don't know where they went…all I know is they didn't love me. If they did, they wouldn't have left - he wouldn't have left. He told me to move on, and that I would just forget over time; he was wrong. Charlie keeps trying to get me to move back with mom. He says it would be good for me - in other words, it will stop me from moping around. But he was erroneous. I wouldn't. At least here, I feel he's still with me…secretly watching over me. I know he's not here, I haven't gone crazy - yet. So I nicely declined, much to his dismay. I can tell my family is upset with me. And my friends…well they no longer speak to me - I don't go out anymore for them to get a chance to. I'm a new Bella, I've changed - and unfortunately not for the better. A light knock on the door brought me back to my harsh reality. I propped myself up on one elbow, and managed up a faint, 'come in'. Charlie poked his head through the cracked door.
"I'm off to work Bells. Uhh, please be safe." He said, his face serious, causing the wrinkles on his forehead to be more pronounced. I huffed. This was his normal morning thing.
"Dad I'm fine." Lie "Just like every other morning so don-"
"You always say that. Bella I can tell, your not 'fine'." he said mimicking my tone. "I'm worried Bella. I want you to get up, get dressed, then eat. Do something!" he pushed. I shook my head in denial.
"I do, do things." he huffed, the look of pain written on his features.
"Sure Bella." he said forlornly and then walked out. It was clear I was hurting him, I seemed to hurt everyone lately…including me. And with all the hurt that is being caused, makes my idea sound much more favorably. Besides, I would be helping everyone. Me, mom, dad, my friends, and them.
I stood shakily off my bed, all energy I had was gone. It could be because I don't - or shall I say can't - sleep anymore or because I haven't eaten since Tuesday night - today is Saturday. I sighed deeply and pulled my fallen hair out of my eyes. Today was the day I make the pain go away.
~Alice~
We weren't the same. None of us were. I don't shop as much as I used too, it doesn't seem as fun as it used to be, Emmett isn't the jokester he once was, Esme quite her designing job…forever sitting in her room until Carlisle returned home from work - where he's at more then ever. Jasper is almost always gone, everyone's emotions seem to be driving him crazy - I'm usually with him. Rose is, well Rose's the same, other than her being upset about Emmett's sorrow. As for Edward…we haven't seen him in a few weeks, and he only calls every few days to let Esme know he's okay. Leaving Bella destroyed us; our Family. Leaving my sister was one of the worst things I've ever done; and I will never forgive myself for not protesting against going. Some sister I am. I walked into the living room, oddly everyone was home...and then I was hit with a vision.
A broken looking Bella climbed out of her bed, and slowly descended the stairs. Her eye's lifeless, her skin paler then usual, with purple circles under her eyes. She walked into the kitchen, reached into the top cabinet, and felt around. Obviously not finding what she was looking for, she turned around and looked around the kitchen - as if contemplating something. Then a big smile crept on her face. She ran over to laundry room, pulled out what looked to be a bag of some sort. Reaching her hand into it, she pulled a medication bottle - it read oxycodone. She seemed happy about finding this object. Grabbing a pen and piece of paper she quickly ran up the stairs.
I flashed out of the vision, just to be pulled back into another one.
It was Bella sitting on her bed, her legs tucked underneath her.
"You wanted me to be human Edward, and live a normal life…but with out you…t-that's just not possible." she whispered out quietly and then reached over grabbed something from her night stand - the bottle of medicine. A tear slipped from her eyes, "I love you Edward. Always have… always will." she cried out as she took a hand full of the pills and popped them in her mouth.
I gasped. "NO!" I shouted then hit the floor. "Bella, don't do it!" I screamed to no one. Jasper was by my side in a flash.
"Alice darlin' what is it? What did you see?" he questioned calmly. I shook violently in his grip.
"Call Edward, NOW! We won't make it!" I demanded in a scream. No one questioned me, just set on to call Edward. Esme walked in with the phone in hand, worry written on her face.
"He's not answering. It goes straight to voice mail. What did you see Alice?" She said, her motherly tone kicking in.
"I saw Bella, and she…" I let out a sob. "She's killing herself." I explained in sorrow sobbing harder into Jazz's chest. Esme gasped and ran to Carlisle, clinging to him, dry sobbing into his shirt. Emmett looked down, a growl erupting from his throat as he picked up the TV and chucked it out the window, glass went flying everywhere, Rose wrapped him into a hug… Jazz apologized to me and ran off.
"We won't make it in time. Edward's closer! We need to get a hold of Edward…" I said, my energy seemed to be drained.
~Edward~
I sighed, annoyed as my phone rang for the third time. I had no time to check, I had just caught of her scent in Ontario and I traced her through central Canada to Alberta. Its been a few months since I left the only reason for my existents, and started tracking Victoria - the red headed nomad. I wasn't good at it, I can go so far and then loose her scent if I wasn't concentrated enough. Which was why I wasn't answering my damn phone, who was probably Alice asking when I would be home.
(Hour n' a half later)
After loosing her scent, my phone rang again. I was pissed as hell as I pressed the talk button.
"What, Alice!" I spat. I heard her sniff. I let out a groan.
"I'm sorry Alice , I didn't mean. I just had a lead on that damn red head, and you calling me made me loose her scent. Please forgive me?" I said sincerely.
"No Edward, its not for yelling at me." She said, sorrow prominent in her tone. I stopped my full stride, and listened.
"What is it then?" I heard her sob, and Esme join in, in the background.
"Alice, what is it!" I yelled, very worried now.
"I-its Bella." And Just like that, my undead heart restarted itself and then stopped again.
"Alice, I told you not to look into her future…"
"Edward, now is not the time. You need to get to Bella, and fast!" she shouted, I could hear Jasper in the back comforting her.
"What happened?" I said taking off running.
"She's k-killing herself, Edward." she stuttered. I felt like a bulldozer just ran my human form over, crushing my fragile bones, and heart.
"When?" I asked a little more harshly then necessary.
"You need to get to her now Edwa-" she then stopped and there was no noise.
"Alice!"
Nothing.
"Alice!"
Still nothing.
"Alic-"
"Your too late." she said, but it didn't sound like her, not my normal bubbly sister. The one on the other side of the phone sounded, broken, dead (An: No pun intended). And just like that, I turned frantic.
"What do you mean, I'm fucking late!" I shouted.
"Edward, you need to get…"
"Damn you Edward. Why didn't you answer your fucking phone!" Emmett shouted crossly into the phone, cutting off Alice.
'I-I…"
"Fuck Edward, 'I-I' is not an answer. Now my fuckin baby sister is dead cause your stupid ass didn't answer the phone. This is your fault!" He blamed. I sobbed, falling to the ground.
This was my fault.
I let out a strangled scream.
"No! I can not be late!" I screamed into the phone and then hung up. I was not late. I could not be late.
Bella love, why would you do this?
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