Supernatural does no belong to me, but I wished it did
It's all my fault. I started the end of the world, the apocalypse. All I can hear is Alisters words in my head mocking me. It was me, I broke the first seal, I'm the one that doomed the world to hell on earth.
I should of held out longer like my Dad. But I'm not him. He was strong whilst I'm weak. I wonder what he thinks of me? Would he still be proud of me or disappointed that I couldn't be as strong as him, that I'm not the man he wanted me to be, that I'm not the man God wanted me to be.
I'm not as strong as I used to be, I can't do this, it's to big. Alister was right, I did leave apart of myself back in the pit and what came back was a broken man.