sherlock
my fingers cramp when they try to write of you
my imagination
falters
when i try to picture you
because reality is always
somehow
better than anything a misbehaving mind can see.
i see you everywhere
sprawled on the floor with your violin held
in your curling, possessive fingers
and i realize that if words were weapons
and you were a war
i would lose
(i want to learn the world's languages, all of them
from russian to inuit to the secret language of bees
and the squat grammar of elegant furniture
so that i can love you in them
whisper te quiero in the velvet dark we'll never have
tell you about toska and l'appel du vide
write you poetry in any tongue you desire
saudade, yuputka, mamihlapinatapei, ya'aburnee
tell you the stories spiders weave with their webs
translate the warnings of the oceans before the great wave
and when you lay down your violin at last
i will soothe you, cafuné,
i will sing you the songs of all the world and its lovers.)
te quiero - Spanish. 'I love you.' Stronger than 'te amo'.
toska - Russian, n. great spiritual anguish; longing with nothing to long for.
l'appel du vide - French, n. the instinctive urge to jump from high places.
saudade - Portuguese, n. the feeling of longing for something or someone that one loves which is lost.
yuputka - Ulwa, n. the phantom sensation of something crawling on one's skin.
mamihlapinatapei - Yagan, n. the wordless, yet meaningful look between two people who wish to initiate something but are both reluctant to start.
ya'aburnee - Arabic, declaration of the wish to die before another person because of how difficult it would be to live without them.
cafuné - Brazilian, Portuguese, n. the act of tenderly running one's fingers through someone's hair.
In the face of all the fandom has been going through this past week, this is all I could respond with. (Also possibly a fic with some Skype shenanigans which is in the works? I don't even know. I have homework over the holidays. Who has homework over the holidays? Really?)
All definitions for foreign words (save te quiero) come from the awesome awesome Twenty Words John Watson Needed Without Knowing Them by StarsHideYourFires over at archiveofourown. Please, please, tell me what you think.