She was nervous when she entered the precinct bathroom. Never had something as ordinary as going to the toilet been of so much meaning, of so much influence on her life, and she was well aware of that.
The three minute wait for the result to appear on that small white stick in her hands, were the longest she had ever spent in her life.
Her shaking fingers were absentmindedly fidgeting with her wedding ring through it all, not sure what she expected, not sure what results she actually wanted to get.
It wasn't like Castle and she hadn't discussed the topic before. They had had a long conversation about it, almost 4 months ago, where they had decided not to use protection anymore and wait to see what happens. They didn't exactly try harder or anything. They had just decided to be open for the option of kids from now on.
Still she wasn't sure whether she was ready, now that she was actually facing the possibility.
Two days ago she had noticed her period was late by almost 2 weeks. She didn't want to alert Castle and give him false hopes or anything and that was why she had purchased the test on her own and was now seated in the precinct rest room, waiting for the test results, alone.
When the three minutes were finally over, she took one deep breath to gather herself, and slowly turned around the pregnancy test in her hands, only to drop it almost immediately after looking at it.
There was a red plus sign on it. She was pregnant.
When she came home that night she still hadn't figured out how to break the news to her husband.
It wouldn't be a complete surprise but she was still nervous. What if he wasn't so thrilled after all, hell she still hadn't figured out how to feel about it.
This was huge, this would change everything and as she was looking forward to being a mother, she was scared about it just as much.
She decided to ignore those thoughts for now, and just focus on the task of telling Castle.
He was in his study, still writing his new chapter.
There was an open bag of crisps next to him and 3 empty cups that were once filled with coffee.
She smiled at the sight. She would never get over the view of him writing. He was so adorable, so completely absorbed in his words and characters and stories, like he wasn't part of the real world anymore.
She loved watching him like that, excited and at peace with the thoughts in his head, content to finally get them out.
She still decided to break the spell. She couldn't delay telling him any longer. She was bursting with all those feelings she couldn't quite comprehend and just needed him for this. She needed to know how he felt about it and his words telling her that they would be great, in order to finally get rid of her insecurities and fears.
She slowly moved towards him, not wanting to startle him out of his writing state and carefully placed her hand on his arm. He noticed her instantly and looked up at her with a sappy smile on his face.
When he saw the expression on her face he saved the document on his computer and moved her so she was seated across his lap, his arm moving around her, pulling her close.
He didn't speak, for he knew that there was something on her mind and that she would tell him eventually.
She didn't know what to say.
How did all those other women do this? Were there any perfect words?
She certainly didn't have them. Words weren't her territory, so she just went for the simple solution.
"I'm pregnant'" she whispered into the crook of his neck.
She felt him go rigid and fear shot through her. All those insecurities rushing back at her.
Just when she was about to panic she felt him tilt her head up gently from where she rested it on his shoulder and looked into his unbelievably blue eyes.
Only then did she see the tears in his eyes, and the dopey incredulous grin on his face.
She had to smile then too, an open, happy and relieved smile.
She felt Castle grabbing her and before she knew what was happening, he had scooped her up into his arms and carried her towards the bed bridal style, only to throw her on the bed and jump onto it after her. She shrieked and had to laugh when his lips crushed down on hers.
The kiss was full of passion and expressed everything they felt in that moment of pure joy and happiness. They lay on the bed for a long time, their lips touching and caressing each other and only broke the kiss when air became a necessity.
"This is so amazing Kate, this will be perfect, oh my god I can't believe it. We're going to be parents…" Castle started rambling, still a little out of breath. And Kate smiled at him. Joy had filled every part of her body and she wondered how she could've ever questioned that everything would be perfect, that he wouldn't be thrilled and that this wasn't indeed the best thing that could've ever happened to them.
They would be parents. They would have a perfect little child.
And she never had to worry, because she had this perfect and loving man, right beside her, always.
To be continued….
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