You don't know how much you mean to me. If only you knew at all.I would tell you if I could, but it'd take up all of my courage.
I can't help staring at you when you pass me, who couldn't, your hair so perfect, eyes as blue as sapphires. I've run out of excuses to be able to touch your hair, "It's sticking up" is old. As for "So cute!" Octavia just took the mick, there's no surprise there?
When you walk out of those school doors, inside I'm begging, stay here, please don't leave me. You say "Hello" and inside I'm screaming 'I Love You' but all I can reply is a curious "Hiya!" I can sing songs for days, and then out comes my guitar. I made two or three songs for you.
It's hard to explain how my heart works, I don't know much about love, but I do know I feel it for you. If I told anyone, then well, the next day, just so much as the country would know. If I had anyone I could trust, they'd probably back-stab me, like before.
Our conversations would always be about him, they'd always nag "who is he Katniss?" but I'd make the fun stretch a little further, by keep saying "I'll tell you tomorrow" when I really don't. I don't care much for clothes, I'd rather meet up with someone in trainers, then high heels, and look like Octavia, flopping around like someone who's drunk (although she probably was then).
Still I cannot say how much you make me smile, even on a bad day, you manage to turn my frown upside down. I'm not trying to impress Octavia or Messalla, for 'aiming high' on the boyfriend issue, but I did realize something, I'm good enough being me. When I'm with you, my heart beats a little faster, my mind gets a little more used to day dreaming, my stomach grows more butterflies.
No-one other than me and you will ever understand us, but what matters is that we understand each other. I love you, no matter how fit you are, no matter how popular you are, no matter how good you are at kis- maybe I've said too much. You warm me when you wrap your arms around me, emotionally too.
Now come, that's go on an adventure, just me and you. Hold the same gaze, and lean in for a kiss, I want to be there, bouncing on those fluffy clouds, and I bet you do too. That's hover above the skies, to the highest point, where nothing matters.
Enjoy life while we're young.
Octavia is so skinny, I wish I had her body, but then I look back and think, he chose me, it makes me smile more and more each day. I showed him those songs I made and he smiled and gazed, and before I knew it, Hello! fluffy clouds! If this love isn't genuine, then I don't know what is.
You are such a star, you're my toy soldier, please, bring the rest of army, I'd like to meet them too. It's my time to shine on what I've missed out those so many years ago. I can't figure you out, you make me feel so high, I'm going insane.
You make me feel like I'm from a different world, you make me feel although nothing is wrong with the way I look. I've loved, & I've lost, but above all I Have Learnt. I've been ill; sick and tired of everyone being better than me, well… thinking they are!
But now I have you, I can hover so high above them, nothing is ever going to slow me down. I'm not playing Octavia's little game, because now, I'm the one saying it's game over. How do you make me feel like a women and a little girl at the same time?
How do you do it? I feel like a new born baby, in its mother's arms, but at the same time, and independent women, who really makes me stand out. I've changed from weak to strong, its been a long journey to get here, but I better take advantage of that, because I know when you leave, I'll be the same unwanted schoolgirl…