"Kyle, I can't do this anymore… I'm sorry", Kyle just stared as that statement came from Stan's mouth. Kyle just didn't understand.

"What do you mean?" Kyle could barely breathe. "We are over Kyle" Stan said, it seemed like he didn't even care. "Why? I-I thought we were happy" Kyle was so upset he couldn't move or cry.

"My mom gives me these weird looks, people at school stare; I just want to be normal. Like Clyde and Bebe" Stan said, again showing no emotion. Kyle felt his heart breaking and his world falling apart. Kyle didn't reply and continued to stare blankly. "I'm sorry Kyle…" Stan looked at the ground, sighed, and then walked away.

Once Stan was out of Kyle's sight he quickly ran to his house, he couldn't believe this was happening. Kyle ran into his room and slowly sat on his bed. He stared at the wall in shock for over an hour. The realization finally came to him and Kyle slowly rolled up his left sleeve and looked at the cuts and scars he made. Kyle was planning on finally telling Stan about his problem and hopefully getting help, but not now.

Kenny knows but he found out on accident and hasn't spoken a word about it since. Kyle grabbed his razor and made long deep cuts very slowly. The blood gushed out and Kyle grabbed the blood crusted towel that he keeps under his bed, and let the blood drip onto it. After the cuts stopped bleeding Kyle covered himself in his blankets and lied down, shortly after he fell asleep.

Kyle began cutting two years ago when he was a freshman. He started when his mom began to stop caring about him; Ike became more intelligent over the years and became a total super genius. Kyle was smart but not that smart, because Kyle was no longer the golden boy of the family his mom didn't care about him.

Kyle's dad started using cat spray again and the Gerald started craving something stronger. Everyone in South Park knew Kenny's parents had a meth lab, so Gerald went there. Gerald and Stuart became good friends again that did drugs together, Gerald helped fund Stuart's meth lab.

Kids at school didn't really talk to Kyle anymore, he became the loner. Before this happened and Kyle wasn't depressed, he mainly hung out with Craig, Tweek, Kenny, Stan (duh), Cartman, Butters and Wendy.

~The next day (Monday)~

When Kyle woke up he felt dead and his left arm was all swollen, it hurt to the touch. Kyle didn't even bother to take a shower or change his clothes; he just woke up, grabbed his backpack and slowly walked out the door to the bus stop.

No Kyle does not have a car; he has a job and is still saving up to buy one. But Kyle would always ride to school with Stan in his car. Cartman, Craig and Wendy have cars too, Tweek doesn't have one because he can't stop twitching and butters drove too slowly so his parents wouldn't let him. Kenny obviously doesn't have one because his is poor, Kenny just walks to work.

Once Kyle arrived at the bus stop Kenny was there all alone, no one ever offered him a ride so he had to ride the bus. Kenny was shocked to see Kyle at the bus stop but even more shocked that Kyle wasn't all clean like usual. Kyle's curly hair stuck out from under his usual hat and he had bags under his eyes.

Kenny deeply cares for Kyle and all of his other friends (Cartman is the exception) but he just doesn't show it. He doesn't want to seem weak. When Kenny accidently found out about Kyle's cutting problem Kenny decided to again try to show Kyle that he can't die. Kenny explained it to Kyle and tried to help him remember. Kyle of course remembered how they searched for a new friend and finally remembered that Kenny does die. When Kyle remembered Kenny was overfilled with joy and almost cried in front of Kyle but he refused to show any weakness. But once Kenny got home he cried for hours, just happy that someone knows what he went through and Kenny was especially happy it was Kyle.

"Kyle? Dude what happened" Kenny said worriedly, his words were no longer muffled since he keeps his parka loosened most of the time. Kyle looked at Kenny sadly, "Stan… ended… it…" Kenny mumbled something to himself and his eyes widened "Kyle, did you do anything that you shouldn't have?" Kenny said hesitantly. Kyle just stared at the ground not wanting to look at Kenny; he had no idea what Kenny would do. Without warning Kenny quickly grabbed Kyle's arm and pushed up the sleeve, he was shocked at the sight, there were so many cuts and they were so deep.

"You could have killed yourself" Kenny said exasperated. Kyle took his arm out of Kenny's grasp and pulled the sleeve back down. "Kyle please…" Kenny begged "never again".

Kyle looked up at Kenny and saw the worry and sadness in his blue eyes, "I'm not stopping you didn't care before so leave me alone. No one is the boss of me, no one care and If I want to hurt or kill myself I will" Kyle quietly said but got louder at the end. Kenny could stop the tears, Kyle's eyes widened in shock; he has never seen Kenny cry before.

Kyle knew then just how much Kenny really cared and Kyle quietly grabbed Kenny in a hug, just as they embraced the bus pulled up and Kenny quickly pulled some blond strands of hair out of his parka and tried to cover up his eyes, he then tightened his parka covering almost his whole face. Kyle still hadn't cried, he felt too dead and empty to cry, he felt like he couldn't.

The boys sat in the back of the bus next to each other. Kenny had stopped crying and was staring at his gloved hands. Kyle was blankly staring at the brown bus seat in front of him, thinking how Stan left him; it was like he didn't care. They arrived at school and right when the two opened the doors Kyle saw Stan happily laughing with Clyde, Bebe and Red. Wendy and Bebe were still friends but for some reason Wendy liked hanging with Cartman, Kyle couldn't figure it out.

As Kyle stared at the scene in front of him he was in disbelief that this wasn't affecting Stan in the slightest bit. Kyle turned away and walked to his locker, Kenny followed behind. Kyle felt numb all of his movements were automatic, Kyle couldn't think. Butters walked up to Kyle and looked at him sadly, Kyle just stared back.

"I-I'm sorry about you and Stan" butters stammered and grinded his knuckles together. Butter quickly hugged Kyle and Kyle automatically hugged back. Butters then walked away no longer knowing what to say.

The rest of the day was a blur to Kyle, but he remembers having Kenny by his side the whole time and Craig, Tweek and Wendy also comforting him. Kyle remembers Wendy saying how Stan is trying to get with red and how she isn't talking to Stan until he stops being a jerk. Kyle also remembers Cartman making snide remarks like usual.

When the bus dropped Kyle and Kenny off, Kenny was reluctant letting Kyle go home by himself but Kenny knew he couldn't always watch Kyle. Kyle skipped dinner and spent the rest of the night staring at the celling while lying in bed. Just thinking about how his life sucks and he loves Stan. His only break from people was to cut more.