Beginnings and Goodbyes
Ob1MegOb1
Author's Note: I am going to say this for the record now I never, and I mean never in my wildest dreams thought I would be writing a story like this for Ouran. Quite frankly this story played itself out in a dream and it was so emotional it was one of those that I woke up still feeling the emotions so clearly. And they wouldn't go away so I thought the best way to make the story to get out of my head was to write it for fanfiction. And this is going to be a much darker story than what can be used to for this happy anime so yeah. I'm not sure how its going to end as of yet because you know how dreams are, but it will be interesting see where this goes. As always reviews, comments and criticisms are welcome .
Chapter 1
Beautiful Dreams and Painful Realizations
His eyes grew wide and she was kind of surprised by the expression on his face. It was very much like the first time he had realized she was a girl. It was also the first time she had seen him so confused. Well maybe he had a right to that. Afterall she had asked, "Is there ever a time you will think of more than just your…daughter?"
She cringed just thinking of that statement. Maybe that hadn't been the way to tell him that she had feelings for him. And of course she couldn't imagine she would ever be here telling him, at a Host Club masquerade above all us. He was absolutely stunning as always in his white suit and elaborately decorated white mask. His violet eyes piercing beneath the pale white mask.
While she….she sighed in her dark boys suit and mask. The one time that Tamaki didn't put her in girl clothes for cosplay was the time that she decided to tell him. Her head held low as she began to become nervous in his silence.
Then her heart raced as she felt his long thin hands under chin. He slowly tilted her head up and she was taken aback by the pure joy in his eyes. Joy she had not seen in his eyes since they had vaulted off that bridge together what felt like an eternity ago.
He held her close as he gently put his mouth to her ear and whispered, "Good-bye Haruhi."
Haruhi jolted awake in her bed her breath labored for some reason. She shook her head confused. Why on Earth did the dream go that direction? She smiled to herself knowing the real outcome of that night though.
"Haruhi!" Ranka's voice suddenly said as he creeped open the door, "I know that you had the best weekend of your life but you're going to be late to class.
"What?" Haruhi exclaimed basically leaping out of bed and tackling her alarm clock
from the dresser. She was more than just late she was extremely late! In what looked like a blur to Ranka, Haruhi was dressed and trying to get something together to eat before she left.
A breaking news report caught his attention though in the background. A huge accident that he recognized was on the way to Ouran. It was a multiple car wreck, and they said there were already multiple injuries and some casualties. All the confirmed dead were multiple ages, some as young as teenagers others as old or older as Ranka. Ranka couldn't help but hope nobody from Haruhi's school had been hurt.
"Bye Dad!" Haruhi said rushing out the door.
"Be careful Haruhi!" Ranka called after her, "There was a huge wreck outside your school."
"Okay dad," Haruhi said almost relieved, "Maybe that will make more people late then."
Ranka rolled her eyes. Sometimes his daughter's zeal for academics still got in the way of common sense. But still…he thought about the look on his daughter's face when Tamaki brought her home from the masquerade. The look on both of their faces had been good to see. He shook his head as he realized he was worrying about Tamaki for some reason. He was on his way to school just like Haruhi, and maybe for once he would actually beat her to school. Now that would be surprising.
"What?" Haruhi said as she made her way down the hall with Hikaru and Kaoru to their next class, "School activities are suspended?"
"Yeah apparently school is running on a simple study schedule," Kaoru said simply, "There are rumors going around that multiple students may have been hurt in that accident this morning."
"Wow my dad saw that report this morning," Haruhi said quietly, "Do they have any idea if it is true?"
"Judging on how the school seems to be running out of whack I'm beginning to wonder if something has happened," Hikaru said thoughtfully.
"They want everybody to report to homeroom classes so they can take attendance," the class representative said next to them. "They told all the class heads that apparently there are unidentified bodies at the accident, especially ones that fit our age. Then they are going to post the missing students and ask if anyone can account for them today. It seems stupid but apparently the headmaster isn't here to run things so it's the best they can do."
Haruhi stopped at that, "Wait the chairman isn't here?"
"This is starting to get scary," Kaoru said, "How many people could have been involved in this accident?"
When they got to their homeroom classroom though two people were missing. And they weren't students who normally missed class. Haruhi had this horrible feeling in the pit of her stomach the entire time her and the twins kept studying. She was starting to get worried because they hadn't seen any of the other Host Club members since arriving at school. They said that they would post the missing students list in the classrooms as soon as they got them organized.
"Haruhi?" Hikaru asked next to her, "Are you okay?" She put on a smile like she always did and nodded her head. None of the Host Club knew yet what her and Tamaki had talked about at the masquerade ball. Actually they had been hoping to address it to the club later on today. Although she rolled her eyes figuring Kyoya probably already knew already that manipulative bastard. Then again he was Tamaki's best friend…maybe he would just find out from his best friend as well. That wouldn't be so bad now would it?
But the whole class jolted as the lists were posted in the classrooms at lunch. Hikaru and Kaoru jolted to the front while Haruhi waited for them. It was hard to tell their reactions at first but she froze as suddenly their bodies went rigid.
"Haruhi!" they said together turning back to her concerned.
Haruhi's eyes widened, "What is it?"
"Kyoya senpai and Tamaki senpai are both on this list!"
Everything was coming to Kyoya in a blur. He couldn't see clearly and his head was throbbing. He reached for his eyes wondering why he couldn't see, figuring his glasses had slipped down…and then as he felt the bridge of his nose he realized they weren't there. What he did feel was bandage on the bridge of his nose as well as his forehead.
"Kyoya?" a familiar voice said next to him and he turned barely making out the shape of his sister Fuyumi.
"Fuyumi?" he said softly his voice hoarse, "Glasses?" He saw her reach over to a bedside table and hand him a pair.
"Sorry they are not your normal glasses. They got smashed in the crash."
And then it all hit Kyoya like a thunderbolt. On the way to school…an idiot on the road…his security telling him to prepare for an impact. He had smacked his head in the seat in front of him. He wasn't sure how his nose wasn't completely broken. But he had a concussion, he could tell and his body was sore all over.
"I guess your seat belt came undone and you were scrunched down on the floor wedged between you seat and the one in front of you," Fuyumi said her voice breaking, "your lucky you weren't seriously injured Kyoya. Because so many people are, they are calling this a horrible accident."
Kyoya slowly pulled himself up thinking more of how inconvenient this all was. But as he looked up at the television screen he finally saw what his sister was talking about. "You were on the outer layer of the crash," Fuyumi said, "Which means you guys luckily didn't get piled on."
Kyoya sighed looking at all the devastation. "I should try to get in contact with everyone though and let them know I am alright."
"Hopefully they are alright too," she said her voice really starting to shake, "They say a lot of students were injured in this crash since it was a main route to the school." Kyoya was relieved to see his cellphone was still in one piece at least. He scrolled through the names on his cellphone.
"I will call Tamaki first since he is probably the one freaking out the most right now," he muttered. But suddenly Fuyumi's hands were on his stopping him from dialing. Her head was down so he couldn't see her face but her entire body was shaking now.
"He won't answer Kyoya," Fuyumi said softly.
"What do you mean? Stop being ridiculous he's probably standing guard by his phone right now waiting for me to call. Freaking out to the rest of our idiot group wondering where I am." But at this Fuyumi fully began to cry as he dialed Tamaki's number.
It took him a few moments but he suddenly realized somebody else's phone was ringing out in the hallway. He turned his head and could see that ringing was coming from a pile of personal belongings bags in the hallway. That ring…his own hands were beginning to shake now. Without even fully realizing it he was up and walking while Fuyumi now buried her head in his bed covers. He made his way across the hall to the bag the phone was ringing in. He pulled it out and his heart froze and he recognized his picture on the phone's caller id.
He dropped both the phones now and he felt like he could barely stand up. Images of Tamaki were now rushing through his head. "Fuyumi," Kyoya muttered staggering back into his room, "Where is he?"
Fuyumi's eyes were sad as she slowly stood up. "Where is he?" he said again a little more forcefully.
"I don't know what you mean…" she muttered. But he slammed his fist down on his the nearby table making her jump.
"Stop treating me like an idiot!" Kyoya screamed, "That's Tamaki's phone in that bag now where is he?"
"Kyoya," a voice said behind him. He didn't fully recognize the voice but he turned around anyway hoping beyond all hope it was Tamaki standing there. But his heart fell as he realized it was his father.
"Father," Kyoya said suddenly trying to be formal but his father waved off his statement.
"Kyoya, we need to talk about Tamaki Suou."
"Dammit," Hikaru muttered as he pressed the redial button on his phone. He was trying to call Tamaki while Kaoru was trying to get a hold of Kyoya. Haruhi was sitting there staring off into space. Hikaru did not know what was wrong with her, but she had been off ever since this morning.
They all turned as the door to the music room opened and Hunny and Mori made their way in out of breath. "Any luck you guys?" Hikaru asked as he got Tamaki's voice mail again, "because seriously if I have to listen to the boss' stupid voice message again I am going to throw something."
"There's been no word still," Hunny said with big round eyes, "Many of the people on the list have been accounted for except for Kyo-chan and Tama-chan and a few others."
Hikaru sighed hitting the redial button once again, "This is so unlike both of them. They should have answered by now."
"Unless something has happened to them," Haruhi said softly.
"Its okay Haru-chan," Hunny said sitting down next to her, "I'm sure they are both okay." But Haruhi barely heard what he was saying. All she could think about was this weekend…how it had worked out so perfectly. How could this be happening now?
They were all silent and so serious that Kaoru almost did not notice that somebody had picked up on the line. "Kaoru?" a voice asked on the other line.
"Ah Kyoya-senpai!" Kaoru nearly yelled. Everybody jolted up at that as Kaoru quickly turned the call to speaker. "Kyoya-senpai we were so worried!" Kaoru said putting the phone on the table.
"Yes I'm sorry about that, apparently I've been unconscious for a while now." Haruhi as relieved as she was to hear his voice thought he sounded weird. Then again…
"So you were in the accident Kyo-chan!" Hunny said his voice concerned.
"Don't worry I'm fine," Kyoya said simply, "A few cuts and bruises and a good concussion. I just have to stay here for observation but otherwise I'm fine."
"Mori," Hikaru said simply, "You can go tell the school officials that we know where Kyoya is and he is fine."
"Are the school officials asking a lot of questions?" Kyoya asked on the other line.
"Yeah they are generating lists of all the students that didn't show up to class today and asking if people know where they are. You and Tamaki were on the list," Hikaru said simply.
But there was a long silence on the other line and Haruhi thought he was pausing way too long. "Kyoya senpai are you okay?" Haruhi asked softly.
"Yes, just tired. Listen, Tamaki apparently woke up late this morning. He can't get to school because the main road is backed up completely from the accident. Besides once he heard I was in the hospital he completely freaked out and headed here. The idiot forgot to call ahead to the school and let them know that he wouldn't be there I guess."
The twins and Hunny sighed with relief, but Haruhi thought something was weird about Kyoya's statement. More in the way he said than anything. "Is he there?" Haruhi asked simply, "Can we talk to him?"
There was another long pause on the other line. "Actually he just went to get me something to drink, and my father is getting ready to come in so I can't talk for long. Listen there will be a lot of distraught customers coming in today, so it will be up to you guys to run things today. Don't worry if its very informal just let them know that we are okay and should be back at school in a couple of days."
We? Haruhi suddenly thought. But only Kyoya was in the hospital, why would Tamaki not be back before tomorrow?
"I have to go," Kyoya said curtly, "I just thought I would let you guys know everything's okay."
"Thanks Kyoya senpai and tell Tamaki hi for us," Kaoru said hanging up the phone.
"Well that's a relief," Hikaru and Kaoru said together.
But Haruhi still wasn't sure. Kyoya had sounded rushed and dare she say, almost hesitant on the phone. Maybe it was the concussion talking more than anything. It was hard to imagine Kyoya sitting in a hospital bed. Maybe they should visit him after school.
Kyoya hung up the phone looking up at his father with a determined look. "Alright I did what you asked. Now let me see him."
"You need to prepare yourself Kyoya," his father said seriously, "He's not in a good state. And if it weren't for your good friendship with him, you wouldn't be seeing him at all."
"I don't care," Kyoya said sitting up slowly. He had changed into different clothes before calling Kaoru so that they could go to Tamaki as soon as he hung up the phone. But his body was already protesting as he tried to move.
"Maybe we should wait until tomorrow Kyoya," his father said simply, "You really should be resting."
"I just need to take it slow," Kyoya said breathlessly, "What if something happens between today and tomorrow?" is what he couldn't help but think. His father said that Tamaki's car had gotten caught in the central part of the crash. According to his father he had already gone into surgery once to stop some internal bleeding but he still wasn't out of the woods. He may still have to go into surgery for a shattered leg, and maybe even more internal bleeding. As if the injuries weren't enough, the surgeries were a risk also.
"Please father," Kyoya said looking up a his father sadly, "Just let me see him."
"So Kyoya senpai was caught in the car crash?" That question kept filtering throughout the music room. And the four boys handled it beautifully as always but Haruhi still wasn't sure what to think.
"Ah Tamaki senpai is such a good friend going to take care of Kyoya senpai!" One of the customers commented as well. Haruhi was glad to take on Kyoya's part of the host club and arranging all the meetings and sorting through the logistical parts of the club.
She still felt worried, even though there was no need to be.
Kyoya was so taken a back when he first saw Tamaki in his room that he felt on the verge of collapse again. Several dark bruises were littered all over his body. Some gashes as well were prominent on his face. And his one leg was elevated as well, probably to take some stress off his broken hip.
"Has he woken up since?" Kyoya was barely able to ask.
"Once but not for very long because he was in a lot of pain."
"And if he were to wake up again?" Kyoya asked his voice pained. He was losing his typical cool now.
"Wow you almost sound scared," a new voice said causing Kyoya's head to jerk up, "I didn't think that would ever happen with you." Tamaki's eyes were barely open and his voice was incredibly weak. But Kyoya just couldn't believe the relief that coursed through him to hear him talk. "Don't worry," he said smiling, "They have me so drugged up I can hardly feel a thing."
"I need to go," Kyoya's father said behind them, "I promised to help his father with the media storm once they eventually find out."
Kyoya only nodded as his father left the room actually relieved to have that pressure away from the two of them now. But he also couldn't believe how hard it was for him to look in Tamaki's direction again. Now he was beginning to wish he had waited until he was better again to come see him. What if he….he sighed thinking this wasn't a way he wanted to remember him.
"So," Tamaki said softly with a smile, "you got a new pair of glasses."
Kyoya sighed a little disgruntled, "You idiot…"
"Sorry," he muttered, "Couldn't help it. They don't suit you at all."
Kyoya shook his head again. Still the same old Tamaki. He could be dead for all they cared and he would still have that same stupid grin on his face. "Did anybody else from the club?" Tamaki asked not even able to finish the question.
Kyoya shook his head, "No they are fine at school. I called them earlier and they were all there, waiting to hear from us. Apparently your dad is making a lot of inquiries into missing students."
Tamaki shook his head as much as he could without wincing, "Father is here. He left the running of the school today to other people in charge."
Kyoya looked on trying not show his feelings of surprise. If his father was here watching over his one and only heir than this was serious. Could his injuries be more serious than his father had let on? "Tamaki," Kyoya said seriously, "Have the doctors told you anything about your condition?"
"No," Tamaki said softly, "They are telling everything to my father and that is enough. I don't need to know."
"What?" Kyoya said a little angrily, "You idiot, what sense is there in that?"
"Because if I know how bad it is, how hopeless it is, than I myself will lose hope. I would rather go on hoping for the best than sit back and be afraid that I am going to die tomorrow."
Kyoya gripped Tamaki's sheets in frustration. Yes, that was one way to keep going, but, "What if you die?" Kyoya said his face downcast. Tamaki looked at his friend in surprise. Usually Kyoya was looking one step ahead, but if it had a melancholy outcome he usually kept to himself. Heck even if it was a good outcome he still sometimes kept it to himself. It was always interesting how they managed to bring out the emotions in one another.
"I know it looks bad," Tamaki said simply, "But in order to heal I need to keep my spirits besides. And as far as last words," he said causing Kyoya's head to perk up at that, "the most perfect ending to my story happened this weekend. Even if I were to die today, everything I have wanted to say, has been said." At the surprised look on Kyoya's face Tamaki smiled, "I finally did it yes. I was going to tell you today go figure."
Kyoya couldn't help but let out a small laugh at that, "Tamaki…you still don't know me very well do you?"
Tamaki jolted at that, "What? How did you find out?"
"Now, now," Kyoya muttered softly, "you should know better." His head was hurting again now. Stupid accident…they all would have been at school now if some idiot hadn't been stupid on the road.
"You okay Kyoya?" Tamaki asked a little concern in his voice.
"I'm fine," he said quickly, "it's just been a long day…"
"You should go back and rest Kyoya," Tamaki said, "don't forget you were in the accident too."
Kyoya sighed standing, "Now how can I not worry when the heir of the Suou family is getting ready to go into surgery again? Who cares that the third son of the Ootori family has a few bumps and bruises."
"The heir to the Suou family," Tamaki said smiling snidely at him.
Kyoya waved him off. He could see the doctors and nurses starting to meet outside and he knew he needed to leave soon. "Kyoya," Tamaki said behind him his face serious again, "If anything were to happen though."
Kyoya sighed, "Don't worry Tamaki, you know me."
Tamaki smiled sleepily as Kyoya left, "Thank you mon ami," he muttered as the nurses and doctors entered. That's when he knew that Tamaki was drugged and out of it. He hadn't called him that since he first met him...
Kyoya's head was starting to pound again as he made his way outside the ICU. He wondered if it was okay if he took something for it when he got back to his room. But he stopped as he saw the familiar faces outside in the waiting room. They all jolted at the sight of him.
"They wouldn't let us go any further," Hikaru said his voice even but Kyoya knew him well enough to tell when he was angry.
"No, I'm not even sure how my father was able to allow me to go back," Kyoya said calmly, "please lets talk in my room before going any further."
"Why?" Kaoru demanded, "besides we have want to see Tamaki!"
"First of all I'm dizzy and need to sit down," Kyoya said irritably. "Secondly they are preparing him for another round of surgeries and you're not going to be able to see him anyway."
"Another?" Hikaru said his face going pale as he said it.
Kyoya just kept walking forward finally deciding to settle down on one of the waiting room chairs instead, knowing they wouldn't be able to hold their questions until they got back to his room.
"Why did you lie to us?" a different voice said. Kyoya didn't even want to meet her eyes, knowing the look he would see in them.
"I had to in order to see him, and my father didn't want it to get out until Chairman Suou made his announcement. Did he finally make his announcement and that's how you found out?"
"No we came to see you," Hikaru said a little irritably, "A nurse told us you were seeing a friend in the ICU after you found his phone in a nearby belongings bag. We saw the phone and figured it out from there. Especially since they wouldn't let us get any farther than here. At least they were courteous enough to tell us what was going on."
"Well I am sorry," Kyoya said simply, "I knew it was probably the only chance any of us would get to see him so I took it. And believe me," he said a little bit of pain showing in his face, "You don't want to see him right now."
"That's not your choice to make," Haruhi said coldly, "You should have let us know what was going on."
Everybody was quiet after that. They all sat there in stony silence worried about their friend. "Well if we are going to be staying here until he gets out we should let our families know," Kaoru said plainly. They all simply nodded their heads pulling out their cellphones.
Haruhi only watched Kyoya as she slowly pulled out her phone. He look exhausted and actually…horrible. She had forgotten for a second with him walking around and talking that he had been in the accident too. The bandages on his face and arms suddenly seeming more prominent than before. He had also seemed so tired he couldn't make it to his room. And here they were grilling him about Tamaki when in truth…he should be resting too just like him. And she felt bad because he was Tamaki's best friend and had every right to see him. And she knew what his father was like and that he probably had to listen to his every word just so he could see Tamaki. So maybe…he was a little justified for his actions. She sighed thinking this whole thing was just one big horrible mess as she dialed her home number. She quickly told her dad and eventually calmed him down that it would be okay. The entire host club was with her and hopefully since he had done fine on his first round of surgeries Tamaki should hopefully make it through these.
And then the waiting game began. Mori and Hunny hung out together. The twins and Haruhi got involved in the crossword puzzles and magazines. Kyoya in the mean time just kept staring at the ceiling. Thinking of what lay ahead. He felt stupid that he had been guilty about seeing Tamaki while the others hadn't. But then again, why did he have to feel guilty? Haruhi and him hadn't even told anybody yet…but he had also been the one unable to face her in the end. He put his legs up on the chair and lay his head on the back of the chair. It had been such a long day and he was exhausted. This waiting wasn't helping either. He stretched his legs back out again and leaned farther back into the chair….trying just to find that one comfortable position. Finally he leaned his head back, closed his eyes and fell into sleeping darkness.
It was a while before they all finally stirred as somebody came in the room. They all jolted though as they realized that it was Tamaki's father, Chairman Suou.
"Sir," Hikaru said but he raised his hand to silence them
"Tamaki survived the surgery," his father said seriously, "he's not out of the woods but he is stable for the time being. I am sorry you couldn't see him earlier, with all that was going on I wasn't even aware you were here. You may see him in a little while, but I warn you he is going to be out of it." They all nodded their heads just happy that he was okay for now. "Oh and if you could wake Kyoya and let him know his father is looking for him that would be appreciated." Chairman Suou then turned leaving the room and heading back towards the ICU.
They all looked back surprised at the sleeping form of Kyoya. "When did he fall asleep?" Kaoru asked.
"Should we wait until we go back to see Tama-chan before waking him?" Hunny asked, "He has had a long day afterall."
"Eh we had better wake him now," Hikaru said, "He tends to have as bad a disposition as Hunny-senpai when it comes to waking up. Hopefully after being awake for a while he will have taken most of his grumpiness out on us instead of when he goes back to see Tamaki."
Haruhi didn't know this, but decided to be cautious when waking him up just the same. "Kyoya-senpai?" she said gently shaking him. He didn't even stir whatsoever. "Kyoya?" she said again dismissing the formality this time. He still didn't stir, not even a disgruntled groan or any such movement.
"Kyoya-senpai?" Hikaru a nervous tone coming into his voice shaking him as well. Everybody's hearts still began to race as he still lay there unresponsive. And then Haruhi remembered what Kyoya had said earlier.
"A few cuts and bruises and a good concussion."
"Somebody help please!" Haruhi suddenly cried, "We need a nurse or doctor anyone."
A nurse finally made her way over to the terrified girl, "What's wrong?"
"Our friend he was in the accident today and he fell asleep. He said he had a concussion, and now he won't wake up."
The nurse quickly checked his pulse and tested his eyes. She rushed to the nearby desk and called for a crash cart, doctors, and gurney. Everbody looked on in horror as Kyoya was placed on the cart and rushed into the ICU. They all wanted to follow but once again they were stopped at the entrance.
"This…can't be happening," Kaoru muttered, "Not Kyoya as well." Hikaru held him close his heart racing just as much as his. This was turning into a horrible, horrible day.