As a blonde

Prologue: Love is a losing game

Summary: It was on the night of the prom when Tyler Lockwood dumped her for Elena Gilbert. She decided to make a change, so she dyed her hair blonde. But do blondes have more fun or they fall in love with vampires?

"Caroline!"

"He had me to get her.."

Caroline was in the bathroom, crying when her friend, Meredith Sulez, came to visit her. Her pretty face was bloated and her eyelashes bound, so her vision wasn't clear. Her voice hid the pain of a broken-hart and her whole body was shaking.

"Caroline, what happened? Look at you.."

"I'll never be beautiful like she is. Her hair is so long and beautiful and it..."

"No, Caroline, stop! You are beautiful just the way you are!"

"No, Meredith, she is beautiful. With her deep brown eyes and perfect skin, perfect make-up. She is all I'm not. She is all I ever wanted to be!" and Caroline burst out into tears, screaming like someone was ripping her heart off. Meredith wanted to hug her, but she felt like in front of her was a stranger, not her friend. She have never seen Caroline vulnerable, she always seemed so confident...And now look at her, crying and letting all her walls down, showing all her insecurities. For a minute she just stared at her. Meredith has always taught Caroline's life is perfect. Living in a big house, having lot of clothes and shoes and bags and even...dresses. Her only dress was a simple, blue one. But Caroline had more than 10. Oh, how she wanted to be her!

"Calm down, Caroline. I'm sure you would feel better if we go and take a walk?"

"This won't help me."

Caroline took a deep breath and after a moment of silence she stopped. She bit her lip and saw her reflexion in the mirror. She saw how her eyes looked like two emeralds. They had a playful color, full of life, while her hair was a pale red. An ugly pale red. Who would ever want to date her? Her eyes widened again. She remembered Tyler, how he held Elena's hand and how he danced with her in that bright, red light.

Flashback:

"One more picture Caroline, please!"

"Mom, you already have 12! And I don't want to be late!"

"But you are so beautiful. Oh, my little girl going to her first prom! Someday you will understand...Smile!"

And her mother took another picture, and another but Caroline managed to escape. This was her night, her moment, her dream. Smiling, she got in Matt's car, her brother. She imagined Tyler staying on the stairs, waiting for her, feeling a little bit nervous and checking again if his tie was at her place.

When they arrived at school, she knew she was dreaming. How could all of these be real? Climbing the stairs, she saw how her fantasy became reality. With every second she was closer to her dream. She could feel it- Her heart grew in her chest. And she saw Tyler holding Elena's hand. She heard how her heart broke, like a glass. The pieces turned into ash and the wind took them far, far away.

"Oh Caroline, I'm sorry I haven't called you, but, you see, I asked Elena today to go with me and she said yes..''

She didn't notice when Tyler came and when Elena left so she was surprised

"Yes, I see..."

"I hope you are not mad. Ok. I got to go, see you around."

She watched Tyler walking away, leaving her broken and heartless.

"I don't understand why..." she whispered for herself. She ran after him hoping she'll get at least an explanation. But he was already dancing with Elena in a beautiful red light. Red-the color of love and passion. He didn't care. He didn't care she spent two weeks searching for the perfect dress, buying the perfect one with borrowed money from her cousin. Now she needs to do her cousin's homework for 3 months, during the summer holiday. He didn't care she fought with her father..He simply didn't care.

-End of flashback-

"Oh, Meredith, you won't believe what ..."

"I know, Caroline, but, please, breath in"

Caroline breathed in feeling how her muscles relaxed. She knew what she had to do.

She saw again her reflexion in the mirror-she saw her blonde hair. She did it. She dyed her hair blonde. She bit her lip, feeling insecure. It has been a hard day-so much emotion, so many new feelings mixed. It was overwhelming. But now she was in a safe place. This was for you Tyler. Because you broke an innocent heart-does this make you feel better?

She looked again-her face looked like a full moon and her eyes like two emeralds. They say 'Your eyes represent your soul'. Was her soul precious? Was she just a naive, fragile and stupid girl that loose herself in the depths of her feelings?

"Caroline.."

She turned and she saw her mom. All she felt was guilt, watching her standing in the doorway, staring at her. She screamed:

"Mom, please, yell at me, punch me, just, just..say something, please!" Her mom's heart melt when she looked at her with her deer eyes and all she could say was:

"You look beautiful." Then she left, leaving Caroline amazed. This was a new beginning , a start of a new chapter in her life. And today the new she was born.

2 years later:

Love is a losing game. It's been two years since he let me go and...I couldn't forget.

Caroline was thinking all of these while she was opening the door of her lock. Another rainy day-she was so sick of them. Rainy days are like sleepless and never ending nights-you can't break free from their torture and lies. Because in her soul it was raining too, in her soul the clouds cried cold showers of tears. But, somehow..she felt dry...

"Excuse me, I'm looking for Caroline Forbes.."

"Yes, I am Caroline."

When she turned she saw a pair of big, green eyes...

Disclaimer: I don't own The Vampire Diaries. They belong to L.

Thank you for reading, I'm sorry if there are mistakes, I try to improve my English. I promise the next chapter will be better, this was the beginning and it was a little bit hard and confusing.

Thank you again

Daisy B