"Dancing With Tears In My Eyes":

Songfic by SuperKoolBabe11796

A/N: All Characters are property of Ally Carter…but Amber is mine. The song belongs to the amazing Ke$ha! Thanks

[[Chapter 1: Here we go, welcome to my funeral]]

Staring silently out the window, I felt the world around me growing cold. First period is always the hardest for me, after our break up. It's biology, and he, of course, is my biology partner. Bex, or more formerly, Rebecca, thinks I should transfer classes. What am I supposed to say, though? Exactly. What Bex doesn't know is that every time I look at him, I feel at peace, like nothing is wrong. Which is ironic, of course, when this whole situation involves him. Today was different though, colder. Once again I was on an island in the middle of the ocean during a hurricane.

"Good Morning class," Mr. Thomas greeted us. At least one of us is happy. "Cell Biology is the topic today. Who can raise their hand and tell me the most important part of a cell?"

Instantly, a hand shot up. normally their would be two, mine and Amber, this snooty girl who always has to one up me. After "it" happened though, I've risen my hand less and less. I guess I just don't find our competition that important anymore.

"Cammie? Would you care to contribute?" All eyes focused on me and I felt my partners eyes especially. I took one look at Amber, and shook my head.

"No Mr. Thomas, I do not." I see Amber drop her jaw, then smile triumphantly. Becks has this worried look in her eyes and he…well, he just looks dumfounded.

"Then how about Zach?" Mr. Thomas directs his attention at my ex, and suddenly I feel sick. Everything about him makes me want to scream. But I don't. I just deliberately look away as my bio teacher grills him.

"The nucleus, sir." His deep, authoritative voice seems strained today, as if he's trying to hide something, which I'm sure he is.

"Exactly. The nucleus…" Suddenly, a loud cacophony of sounds rang through the hallways. The murmur of my classroom alerted me that the fire alarm had gone off. With each passing moment, the hysteria became more and more heightened, and I began to realize that this was no drill. Without warning, my mind wandered over something extreme. Lately, I couldn't seem to deal with the pain of seeing him, and what we could have been, when he barely speaks to me. What I wanted was an out; someway to leave all this pain. All at once, I was getting my wish. All I had to do was run into that fire. Granted, that was very public, and that really wasn't I had planned on, but it was my only way out. Any other way, someone would stop me. My mind, which already was more alert, became hyper aware and I bolted for the door. I made the mistake of looking around and witnessed Bex's visage looking panicked and I began to feel a bit guilty. But Bex was popular right? She has other friends, or could find them. In one fluid motion, I swung the door opened and the room erupted into terrified shouts. I kept running though. Now was the time when looking back would ruin the plan. I finally found my rescue; the fire had spread to the cafeteria. My stomach churned and I knew I was taking to much time. I took one more look around the school that I had only been in for three months, but had already brought me so much heartache. I started my sprint….

"Cammie! NOO!" I had reached my fiery furnace. The flames engulfed my being so quickly that I barely had time to register who called my name. I only then realized that Bex was screaming in the background, crying for me to come out. The world was turning black and I knew my time was out. But just before I left, I heard a soft, but assertive voice pleading, "Cammie, don't die. I love you."