Happy Easter, my little Peeps! Sorry...too much pilfered Easter candy. I hope those of you who celebrate had a great holiday:) Here's a little songfic just because a fabulous reviewer put me in a great mood this morning! Thanks, M! This is based on 'Falls On Me' by Fuel. It made me think of Edward's struggle, so here's a bit of it in EPOV for you! Toodles **Sam** P.S. Don't hesitate to PM/review me a song suggestion for another one-shot you'd like to see.
Falls on Me
I've seen you hanging round
This darkness where I'm bound
And this black hole I've dug for me
How can you want to be here with me? I will drag you into this dark, evil world. You don't deserve this life, Bella. God will surely banish me to the depths of Hell for condemning you to this existence.
And silently within
With hands touching skin
The shock breaks my disease
And I can breathe
You have such undeserved faith in me; you believe in my goodness. It is such a relief to show you who I really am and know you love me in spite of the monster I can become. My love, my life, you are my air. How can I turn you away when I need you more than anything else on this Earth? You've changed me irrevocably.
And all of your weight
All you dream
Falls on me it falls on me
Bringing you into this life will surely condemn both of us, regardless of your constant optimism. This decision will weigh on both of our souls and it's entirely my fault. Is it wrong that I can't bring myself to care?
And your beautiful sky
The light you bring
Falls on me it falls on me
Your love makes me feel sometimes that we really do have a chance at living a righteous life. Love makes me think that maybe we aren't monsters after all. You've shown me a whole new possibility for our lives. Just like a spotlight…
Your faith like the pain
Draws me in again
She washes all my wounds for me
How is it that one fragile person can cleanse me of my sins?
The darkness in my veins
I never could explain
And I wonder if you ever see
Will you still believe?
You know now what my kind can truly be, my sweet Bella. James has shown you this all too well. How can you see what we truly are and still think we aren't damned?
And all of your weight
All you dream
Falls on me it falls on me
How can you want this, angel? God, please forgive me for dragging this innocent creature down with me, but I have no other choice. We have no other choice.
And your beautiful sky
The light you bring
Falls on me it falls on me
You've brought me happiness when I least deserved it, Isabella Marie Swan. I'll spend the rest of our time together making you see how you've made my entire life incredible with those three little words.
Am I that strong
To carry on?
Can I let myself hope that you're here to stay? Should I let myself hope? I can't say if, but that I am letting this feeling take me over. God help us both.
I might change your life
I might save my world
Could you save me?
Maybe by letting myself have you, I'm really letting myself be saved. Bella, you're my salvation. I thank our Creator every day that you've been sent to make me a better man. You'll never know how you've changed me, my Isabella.