Fandom/Genre: SPN, hurt/comfort, angst, case!fic, gen, hurt!Sam, bigbrother!Dean
Characters: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: Up until S02E14 'Born Under A Bad Sign'
Word Count: ~10.6k
Warnings: swearing, self – worth issues, suicidal thoughts.
Summary: While on a case, Sam has a vision of Dean killing him, and in his mind it was bound to happen sooner or later.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything related to Supernatural. It all belongs to our overlord, Kripke.

Acknowledgements:

I had a hard time figuring out what I was going to do for this particular piece. I kept hopping from one idea to the other and along with university related stuff, I was freaking out about not getting this done. But I did it! And that's only because of the following people:

m14mouse. While claims, my interest was immediately drawn to her art piece and I was super thrilled in knowing that I'd managed to get it! She has been an absolute darling and endured all my ramblings and last minute questions. You are a doll, hon. Thank you so much for putting up with me.

walking_tornado. She did the most amazing job in helping make this fic even close ot readable. I do not lie, it was a mess until she came along. Thank you for being an awesome beta and sending over the chapters to me at the speed of light. All the tips and lovely feedback made this fic even better.

The mods over at spn_reversebang on LJ for being super hardworking while hosting this challenge and being kind enough to grant me an extension when my exams got in the way of my original posting date. You guys are amazing! Keep it up!

Chronic Potterphile. This woman is my everything. We're practically soulmates. She has been an amazing friend, a big sister and just a very encouraging cheerleader when I had doubts on this fic. She is my eternal flail buddy. Thanks for being there, hon! *whispers* You should seriously go check out her fics. I promise you won't be disappointed.

Author's Note:

Hi! This fic is set about a week or so after episode 14 of season 2 – Born Under A Bad Sign. It is probably one of the first times I attempted a case fic. EEP. I applaud all who are good at case fics because, oh my gosh, this fic was unusually hard to write. There's a lot of angst and tension between the boys along with my weakness – hurt!Sam. I can't seem to leave him alone.

This was written for the SPN reversebang on LiveJournal. :)

I will be updating this fic once a week. :D

I do hope you all enjoy the fic! :D

Title: As I Watched Him Break Me.

Prologue

Stunned, he looks down. A shaky breath escapes his lips as he eyes the alarming red on his hands; , freely flowing through his torso. His legs give out as momentum brings him crashing to the floor.

That's when the pain starts. And holy fucking shit it hurts.

"Gah," he gasps.

Somewhere in his confusion, a gunshot is heard. And then the next minute, worried green eyes float in and out of focus in front of him.

"Sammy? Oh, God. Sammy, come on. Look at me."

Dean. The one person Sam knows he can count on. One of the few people he can't lose. One of the only people who truly trusts him.

The pain seems to numb and all Sam can think is good. He's probably dying. Pain usually means you're alive; the pain dulls because the body is shutting down.

Basic skills 101, Sam thinks, remembering the hunting lessons with his father.

His father: one man he never quite understood until now.

As darkness slowly invades his already hazy vision, Sam accepts his situation. He gets it. He could either be saved, or killed. He's glad he's being killed. This way he can't hurt anyone anymore.

Especially Dean.

He vaguely hears Dean calling out to him. "'S'all righ', Dean," he barely whispers.

"Thank you," he breathes out just before the darkness wins and he's pulled under.

A/N: You can find the art post over on m14mouse's livejournal page.

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