A/N: New one! I really am enjoying writing this fan fictionand I am excited to see where it goes. I already have a few chapters written. Can't wait to see what you guys think. Please review. Without further ado the prologue:
Oh and obviously I don'town anything other than OC and plot.
Prologue
After my parents died everything stopped. I stopped...stopped listening, stopped talking, stopped eating, stopped being. A car crash...what a horribly clichéd anti climactic death. I couldn't take it. Fred, Lupin, Tonks, Sirius, Snape, Lavender, Dumbledore, Mum, Dad all dead and I couldn't take it. And he was there... He was constant even when I refused to be anything but cold he was there slowly melting me from the inside. He was always there with his kisses and embraces. He would come into my room at night and just hold me while I slept it didn't keep my nightmares away but when I had them he was there whispering sweet nothings into my ear telling me that it would be okay and slowly it was becoming okay again. Time was going by and I started slowly rebuilding myself I started eating and listening and then talking and finally I laughed, and it was all his fault. We were healing granted he had been healing faster than me but I was healing. I was catching up.
Then he left, and I broke. He used lots of words like need to move on and it's been a year and holding me back and not right for each other anymore and then he said it. I don't love you anymore, and it echoed in my head over and over again. I was in my room at number 12 grimmauld place and all I could do was sit there and listen to the same words echoing in my head. At some point I started to repeat it to myself and the tears started flowing. I tried to be quiet hoping they wouldn't hear me and come in but at the same time praying they would. I kept trying to hold in the sobs and it wasn't working. Soon I was full out sobbing then screaming and pulling my hair and making loud sucking noises because all of a sudden all of the air in the room was non-existent. I ran sobbing into Ginny's room and stopped. Luna and Ginny were in there and they just stated at me sobbing in the doorway. So I screamed and collapsed on the floor and they came and held me while I cried, but I didn't want to be held so stood up and picked up a shoe and threw it and screamed. The next thing I knew I was being handed things and I started forming words through the tears and haze. "How could you!" "I loved you!" "I tried to protect you!" "How could you leave me here on my own!" "I hate you!" "I love you!" I kept throwing things at the wall and around the room. I kept pulling my hair and screaming and crying, and Luna and Ginny kept egging me on and encouraging me. I realized I wasn't just crying for Ron I was crying for everything for my family and my friends and my youth and my innocence. The screaming hysterics finally stopped and all I had left were the silent icy tears running down my face.
Then I ran leaving everything I had behind. I ran and ran and ran until I came to a place that used to be my home. I know they say you can't go home again, but I just had to come back one last time. I ran to the door and found it locked. So I knocked. A woman opened the door and looked at me strangely.
"Ma'am I know you don't know me, but these handprints on the front steps are mine. And up those stairs in that little back bedroom is where I spent my free time and I learned to read. I bet you didn't know my favorite cat is buried in the yard. If I could just come in I swear I'll leave," The woman looked at me and seeing the brokenness inside me nodded her head and let me in. I walked around my old house and after a while the woman spoke up.
"It's getting dark and the weather is nasty why don't you just stay the night." So I did.
The next morning I silently got up and walked out. All I had were memories as I walked away from the house that built me, and then I started running again.