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There she was... more beautiful than I had ever seen her before; in that white long dress, looking at me with demanding eyes and a shy smile. As I approached her, lots of things came to my mind, not all of them were nice memories, a flash of pain crushed me inside when I did remembered her being with Eric, Quinn, the flirting with Sam...all the men that crossed her fate so they did mine. Her unconfidence, her fears, and all the biterness she kept for me, striked me again as I walked towards her; but I was still loving her among all that. I never have doubted that, from the very first moment I realized that our fates were linked, no doubt at all. I would have taken her the same moment I saw her again. Having her blood, her sweet and delicious blood had been indeed the happiest moments in my life. And her scent...what was it that Sookie got over all the other creatures i found before, i didnt know, i wasn't sure. Probably it was a mixture of braveness and naiveté, and that beautiful, sweet smile she had. I smiled back at her but soon I realized I would have to control myself.

Now was'nt our time. Definetly not. Too many important lives were depending upon me, and the cause had to be protected. Now that I had made a way to start again, move on and deviate unwanted attentions from her I would'nt risk her life again. Not anymore. My recent bond with Nan also deserved loyalty. Sookie was protected, I knew that as I had arranged the right things for her before my departure. Eric maybe would never love her as I did, but he indeed would protect her and no one would cause her harm as Eric was now one of Victor's the best men. No other man -or vampire - could do that job better than Eric at this time. As I walked towards her, I found a hidden strenght that pushed me away from our blood and love ties. I don't know yet why was I so sure about the reasons of her standing there, maybe our bond had not disapeared at all. I suspected what was going to happen.

- "Sookie...what are you doing here...?"- I mourmured as she looked at me with her palest face. She was unsure and trembling, and when she smiled at me, again, so innocent and pure, i was very near surrender. I looked around just to make sure nobody was paying attention to us. People seemed to be enjoying the party as the night closed around us.

- "I got an invitation, did'nt know where were you, till I saw you speaking on TV. I needed to say something, like those stupid words...",- she gasped but found the courage to go on .- "...that I love you and that I always have, I'm missing you terribly, and more important even, that i'm sorry for all the things I made you go through. I did'nt mean to push you out, really."- her voice brokedown, she staggered, her strength gone as she stepped forward to me while I stepped back from her - it was too painful but it had to be done.

-"Sookie, you can't be here. Now I am protecting Nan, I am bonded with her and I promised to keep her safe as the war has just started. You can't be here. You are in danger. I demand you go back to Bon Temps and never look for me again, our time has passed away. I did follow your steps very close for a long time and now I just made up my mind about living without you. Please stay away. Just go."- I turned to lose my gaze in the lighted skyscrapers shining into one of the saddest moments I have ever had. I really knew I could'nt protect her this time if i succumbed to her, too many terrible forces were stricking around, she had to be over that before it was too late.

-"Do you....want me to leave?" -She looked devasted, tears were drooling down her face and i never felt so miserable as I did getting away from her. I wanted so much to take her face in my hands and kiss those lips of the woman that had changed my life so dramatically.

-"Please, go. Sookie, go..."- my mouth and soul were meaning different things but that was not of matter as she turned down and started to walk by. She stopped and turning back to me she asked: -"Do you love me, still?"- her eyes demanding my response.

-"That doesn't matter anymore".- I said.

Two, three times, maybe more, I was close to following her way, to touch her, to stop her on her walking away. But I didn't. I did love her too much... as I loved her yet.

I was remotely comforted though, by the idea she had at last forgiven me, finally. That had to happen sometime, and I was sure she would go through that somehow, I knew her very well and had loved - and hated - all her flaws.I knew that would happen. She was hard to adapt, but she always did it in the end. So sad that it was really late this time. One year ago, just one year ago, would have made things different. Sure I would'nt have taken my compromise then. I wondered if this could change again sometime. But I even doubted if I would be able to keep existing for much longer.

I had spent so many nights crying and lurking around her. I had almost became a shadow of myself, a sad soul, more tormented for the loss of love than for the loss of my human nature, so that had to be terminated definetly. And I did. The last night I spent in Bon Temps, I went to Merlotte's to see her, to tell her I would be leaving the next night, just to receive the same cold treatment I have had for the last 2 years. I tried to tell her, to speak with her, but she just kept herself away from me, showing me complete indifference, a harming distance mentally and phisically. I just gave in. I came to my home almost in tears, packed my things and wrote down a letter explaining all the facts that did lead me to her, and made me love her, though i had done it before, I just needed to do it again for the last time. I did put that letter in my resting hole and I just left. Just a small suitcase, the picture of my family, and a picture of her, standing in front of the house's door, sweetly smiling, that I love to stare at.

I stopped by Fangtasia just to tell Eric that I was leaving and that Sookie should be more protected now than she ever needed to be before. He ironically responded that he had been the one taking care of her for the last months and that would'nt change any time soon. He asked the reason for my leaving, but i evaded him. Soon he would find out and probably would be more of a rival yet than he had been until now. "So another secret mission for our favourite James Bond? who are you serving now that the Queen is dead?" was the last thing I heard as I walked away. Stupid bastard.

After some weeks, some news from her confirmed to me that she was fine, though sad she had been looking around for me, I knew she spent some nights in my house, and she had been asking for me - obviously not obtaining any responses. My links in Bontemps were very discreet. I wondered how that would reflect in her relationship with Eric, and I hoped she would keep stuck to him for her safety. Oh yeah, that hurted more, even.

Then as the months went by I started to feel stronger and more committed to my mandate. A life without her seemed possible right now. Until this same night.

Not all the vampires were aware of her fae nature. And less even know what her blood could do to us. I had experienced myself the joys of her blood - and the love, and excitement, and tenderness.-And now I was able to stand up in the morning sun taking no harm, a weapon for which more than one vampire would kill for. I have wondered so many times if the love and pain - and devotion i felt for her were due to the blood also. But i already know that answer. Sookie has been my first true love, in mortal and vampire life I ever had.

To be continued??