Cold
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha. If I did there would have been an episode where Kagome and Sesshomaru got together . just saying.
Kagome opened her eyes slowly to the sunlight shining down upon her face. She knew someone was missing because of how quiet the clearing was. Stretching her arms up, she began to look around. Sango was cleaning her weapon, even though they haven't had a battle since the jewel was completed, and Miroku was meditating close beside her. Since their marriage neither really left the others side much. As Kagome got up from her sleeping bag Sango noticed and gave her a gentle smile. This morning was just a bit to quiet for her liking.
Gazing up at the tree Inuyasha normally inhabited she realized he was gone.
'This explains why it's so quiet.' She thought. She couldn't recall hearing him leave though.
"I'm going to head out and find Inuyasha, I'll be back to fix us some breakfast when I get back." she said while lighting the fire that had went out the previous night.
"You know him, he'll probably be back soon. Just stay with us till then. Sango can help you make breakfast and I can go get some more wood." Miroku said looking up from his meditation. He was eager to have her stay but only Sango realized it.
"Yea, he probably went to make sure there's no weak demons trying to attack. You know how stupid they can be sometimes." Sango said realizing why she should stay. She didn't want Kagome to get hurt anymore. It had been happening so much lately that she wasn't sure how much more Kagome could take.
"I'll just go get him then, you know he'll want some ramen." Kagome was determined to go get him. Sango and Miroku reluctantly said okay and watched her go.
"Miroku I'm worried," Sango said as soon as she was out of the clearing. Miroku wrapped her arms around her and sighed.
"I too am worried my love but it is Inuyasha's choices that hurt her. We must hope that either he will learn or that Kagome grows stronger for it." He resisted the urge to slide his hand on her rear.
Kagome had gotten a good distance through the forest before she thought about going back.
'Where could he be?' She though to herself. A soul stealer flew above her and she began to follow it. A small clearing appeared before her, the soul stealer entered it but she held back. Inching forward only a little until she reached a bush that concealed her. She didn't know why she felt the need to hide but she couldn't move.
"Inuyasha why must you stay with my reincarnation. You have me right here." A voice said from the clearing. Kagome's heart dropped. She looked up to see Kikyo seductively biting on Inuyasha's ear. Tears threatened to fall from her eyes.
"I've told you this a thousand times, she was just around the get the shards. Now that the jewel is complete I can spend all my time with you."
"So we can go to hell now?"
"Soon Kikyo, yes." Inuyasha kissed Kikyo passionately.
"I love you Inuyasha."
"And I love you as well." Kagome's heart stopped. Her feet backed up without her realizing. The tears fell like rain. Part of her knew he wouldn't love her the way he loved Kikyo. She couldn't bother to stay any longer. It hurt to much to watch anymore. Her feet carried her not only from that site but carried her into a save place in her mind. She had no idea of where she was going but she went.
'Maybe I could go back home. Everything will be okay.' She thought. With her mind in another place she didn't realize as a large root came into her path. Her foot caught it and slammed her to the ground. 'Maybe if I lay here forever death would come easy...' She slid her eyes shut and continued to cry.
Unbeknownst to Kagome Inuyasha had smelled her tears the moment they fell. Telling Kikyo he had to go, he chased her until the moment she tripped.
'She'll come back, no use in trying to talk to her now.' Inuyasha though and turned back for camp. Not realizing his brother aura was close by he left her helpless.
"Now where is my idiotic half brother and those pathetic people he calls his friends." Sesshomaru said as he was nearing the place Kagome was now inhabiting. In her state she heard nothing. A salty scent hit his nose and he followed it.
Hiding his scent from her he sat almost an hour. He was curious as to when she would get up and what she would do. He could smell Kikyo and Inuyasha's scent. It wasn't hard to tell that something was going on between all of them. After he could no longer bare to wait he got up and moved toward her.
"Miko why do you lay there?" he said kneeling down to her. She didn't bother opening her eyes. Her emotions were so high even her mother showing up wouldn't have surprised her. Frustrated he moved closer. He may have been curious but that didn't mean he would show mercy if she pissed him off. "Answer this Sesshomaru." His voice was like a dagger in her. She couldn't have cared less.
"Like hell I will." she whispered. In her state she was fearless.
"You dare defy me?" Sesshomaru said as he used his demonic speed to pull her up by her neck. His claws grazed dangerously close but he tried to maintain his cool. Any other time he wouldn't have held back but something was different this time.
"Kill me then. I have no reason to live anyway." Kagome whispered slowly. She closed her eyes and waited for death to come. Accepting death seemed easier for her. Moments passed before she opened her eyes again. Sesshomaru was looking at her with a perfectly raised eyebrow.
"You're speaking like this because of the half-breed correct?" Sesshomaru said as he set Kagome back on her feet. She looked up at him in shock.
"Wait... you're letting me go?" Confusion was common between them both.
'Why is this simple ningen not dead yet?' he thought. "I want to know why you wish death?"
"Oh that... yes it was your brother." She said simply and turned to walk away. Sesshomaru grabbed her arm forcing her to stay.
"Half."
"What?" She said still facing away from him.
"Half brother. Inuyasha is my half brother."
"Half or full. I don't care. He's a jerk either way." Kagome began to wipe her eyes. She wasn't going to cry in from of him. Sesshomaru let her stand there in silence. Her tears wouldn't stop though. Sesshomaru could smell them. The emotions radiating off her began to stir his inner beast. Something he did not like at all.
'Comfort her' his beast insisted. Something only he could hear.
'A mere ningen does not deserve my comfort. If I had any to give.'
'She needs it. You know there is something about her and she is the link to the sword.'
'That will be the only reason I will comfort this filthy wench' Sesshomaru fought the urge to sigh and pulled Kagome to him.
'You say those things to deny the truth, she's special' his beast said before becoming quiet.
'There is nothing special about her.' Sesshomaru thought. He would never admit it but her smell was very special indeed. Sakura blossoms and vanilla. Something no other human had ever smelled like. Kagome had yet to realize that she was in his arms. Her tears were again clouding her judgement as of late. When Sesshomaru turned her around and held her tightly in his arms. She stiffened at stared up at him. Having his other arm back made everything feel complete. Her smell became intoxicating to him.
'Why should I desire a lowly ningen?' The thought left before he could stop himself from leaning in closer to Kagome. His mouth slid to hers. She gasped but kissed him back. Her shock only lasted moments as Sesshomaru's tongue made its way into her mouth. The battle for dominance was soon won by him but she didn't mind. Her mind was now focused on his lips. Sesshomaru let his hand slide up to cup her breast. He realized that a strange fabric was covering them, but before she could even laugh at his attempt to get it off or help him, he used his claw to tear it. He smirked at her quickly before kissing her again. Massaging her breast with his hand. He no longer wanted to simply touch her. Tearing off her clothes and his as well he pushed her back onto the ground. It was so fast that Kagome almost didn't realize what had happened.
"Sessh..." she began to say before his lips came crashing back to hers. He could smell the hunger on her and knew it was in him to. His inner demon smirked as he picked her up and positioned himself at her entrance. She knew that it would hurt but shook her head in acceptance. He was ready the moment he slid inside her. She bit her lip to stifle the pained scream that threatened to escape her. Sesshomaru saw the pain she was in and smashed his lips to hers. Her eyes teared up but he wiped them away. Starting off slowly in order to make sure the pain stopped. She soon begged for more. He sped up to such a great speed that she almost burst right then. Not having his fill of her just yet he slowed down. This earned him a whimper from Kagome. He continued the pattern until he was close to release as well. She was right there with him. As they came together his fangs grew and his eyes turned red. His demon had come out and taken over. His fangs tore through the skin on her neck. Her screams radiated through the trees. This bite had made them mated. The bite would soon be a tell tale sign of that fact. Kagome's scream died down and her eye fluttered shut. She was so exhausted that she simply fell asleep. For the first time in a long time Sesshomaru smiled. He wrapped his arms around her and fell asleep as well.
The next morning as Sesshomaru woke up he noticed Kagome in his arms. Realization hit him and he knew he should leave. He nudged her to wake her, rubbing her eyes slowly and looking up at him she looked confused. Her eyes pulled him to her but he looked away and put on his cold exterior.
"Uh morning Sesshomaru." Kagome said shyly.
"You will use proper titles wench." he bit back. Pain ripped through her eyes but he knew it needed to be done.
Looking back at me I see that I never really got it right. I never stopped to think of you.
"What?" she asked forcing herself to be strong. She could see he was not the man that made love to her the night before. This man was wrapped in ice.
"I said you will use proper titles with me. Now get dressed." he said as he threw the clothes he ripped off her. He was already dressed and headed to leave. A small hand grabbed him. She was going to make this hard.
I'm always wrapped up in things I can not win. You are the antidote that gets me by. Something strong like a drug that gets me high.
Her smell hit his nose and he could tell that she would soon cry. Slowly turning to her he looked down and raised an eyebrow.
"Did last night mean nothing to you?"
"Oh course it was nothing. You were vulnerable so I took you."
What I really meant to say is I'm sorry for the way I am. Never meant to be so cold. Never meant to be so... Cold to you I'm sorry bout all the lies. Maybe in a different light you can see me stand on my own again.
"You could have just killed me." she whispered. Tears broke through the wall she tried to put up. A clawed hand grabbed her face. She looked up at him for anything that would tell her that this was all a lie. That what happened meant something. There was nothing in his eyes. Hard and cold was all he saw.
"Now why would I go and ruin a good fuck?" he pushed her down and a small gasp escaped her lips.
Cause now I can see. You are the antidote that got me by. Something strong like a drug that gets me high.
Sesshomaru knew that she would leave the moment she regained her strength. Her emotions were not only draining her but the hit him like bricks. He just wanted this to end.
What I really meant to say is I'm sorry for the way I am. I never meant to be so cold. Never meant to be so cold.
Kagome was in a break down. The man she loved pushed her away into the arms of his brother and now she's been pushed to nothing. Heading to camp was her only option. She would have to run.
What I really meant to say is I'm sorry for the way I am. I never meant to be so cold. Never meant to be so cold.
Kagome dressed the best she could in the ripped clothing and got to her feet. She looked at Sesshomaru but he turned away. Tears still fell from her eyes. Running in the direction that camp was, not realizing that Inuyasha would be there.
Never meant to be so cold. I never really wanted you to see the screwed up side of me that I keep locked inside of me so deep. It always seemed to get to me. I never really wanted you to go. So many things you should have known.
Sesshomaru watched as she ran. He kept his cold facade and hard eyes fixed only on her even after she was no longer in view.
I guess for me there's just no hope. I never meant to be so cold. What I really meant to say is I'm sorry for the way I am. I never meant to be so cold. Never meant to be so cold. What I really meant to say is I'm sorry for the way I am. I never meant to be so cold.
Sesshomaru stood for a moment longer and turned to go home. Chancing one last glace toward where she left.
"I'm sorry Kagome." he whispered before exiting the small clearing. He knew that he would no longer see Kagome. He could hear the yelling and a ear piercing scream reverberate through the forest. Eventually they sounds faded. He knew she was dead. He tried to swear he had no feelings for a lowly ningen. Not knowing that same girl would forever keep his heart.