Who would ever think that life, while flying by faster than you can imagine in a joyous raucous, can come crashing to the ground, into the depths of hell, dragging you with it. I certainly never thought this possible. In fact, I was flying so damned high that I didn't think anything would ever happen. The simple truth is just this: fate and cruelty will tear your life from you the instant that you start to truly enjoy things. As living beings, we're supposed to 'grab life by the horns', 'jump into life each and every day' and what have you. This was my philosophy. I volunteered for all the fun things. I grabbed at every opportunity that came my way. I ran through my days with only a few cares in the back of my mind. Basically, I was the poster-girl for all of life's propaganda.
All that changed rather quickly, though at the time I didn't see things change. Only after I crossed that thin line between joy and sorrow did I understand what I did. Only after I lost everything in my world did I understand loneliness, sorrow, misery, guilt, and fear. Not fear like being afraid of the monsters under the bed, but true fear. You know, the kind of fear that sends cold and painful shivers down your spine, that makes your stomach churn and your skin go pale. The kind of fear you only experience once you open your eyes to see that everything has been taken from you, stolen and bartered to strangers.
I was just an ordinary kid, waiting for my time to shine. My friends from school had no idea who I really was. They all thought I was just like them, just another person with magical abilities. I thought the same thing about them, but I knew that they were all very different. Aries, for example, was blessed with great abilities and was very much loved, but she was also cursed with a life of fear. Trinity was a vampiress, very powerful and prepared to help her friends no matter what the cost. Axrix had control of the infinite power of transfiguration. Harry Riddle, who loved Aries more than I can tell you, had no problems with risking his life for the safety of his friends. And then there was Will. He and I were closer than all of these people combined. We were both alone, scared. We were both devoted to one another. We were husband and wife. If you had told me that I would one day be forced to chose between the life of my husband and the lives of my friends, I would have laughed at you. If you had told me that I would one day battle with the God of War for the freedom of my dearest friend, Aries, the salvation of my husband, and the renewal of my soul, I would have stared at you and scoffed.
Human nature prevents us from seeing the truly big picture. We focus on the 'here and now' of things. We stare at life, waiting for it to blink, and then chase after it full out. If I had been able to stop running, stop chasing, and take a step back, I would have seen the disastrous future in store for us all. Hell, maybe I would have been able to prevent it. I certainly thought that I could make a difference before my life went to hell in a hand basket. But for some reason, once things crumbled and fell, nothing I did helped. And no matter how I tried, our fates were sealed. We were doomed.