A/N: This is my first ever published story. I've always loved SanoMeg pairing since I saw RK more than 10 years ago and I'm sad that their relationship was kinda left hanging, so I wrote stories about them to satisfy my frustration. Anyway,Thanks for reading! :D

DISCLAIMERS: I don't own Rurouni Kenshin...

Chapter One : A Fox's Life

" Alone, all alone Nobody, but nobody can make it out here alone" ~ Maya Angelou

(Megumi's POV)

In Aizu.. a certain lady doctor was sadly contemplating her life . Thinking about the past , the present and her future.

It has been six lonely, agonizing years since she moved back to Aizu to look for her missing family and with the hope of finding even one of them. While in Aizu she worked at a hospital owned by a family friend of theirs. Though she misses her life and her friends back in Tokyo, she just couldn't stay there. Kenshin and Kaoru are happily married and it seems that everyone else is happy too. However to fill her yearning (somehow) for her friends back in Tokyo,she visits them twice a year just to stay in touch and re-lived the good ole days when they were still together, her , Kenshin , Kaoru, Yahiko, Dr. Genzai, Ayume , Suzume and that roosterhead Sanosuke.

Well, speaking of Sanosuke…"What has that idiot been doing all this time? It has been more than five years since he left Japan . Judging from the letter he sent at their spring reunion, he seems to be having fun travelling to different places. Not that she knows more than that, he writes to their friends at the Kamiya Dojo but he never really wrote to her. He doesn't even ask about her, well that's what she thought. She doesn't even know if he got married already or if he'd been busy dating girls here and there." I doubt it if girls wouldn't be attracted to him, he is quite good looking and is a good man. Even though he is brash, aggressive and an Idiot most of the time, there's just something in him that girls would find attractive in a guy."

She sighed in agreement to her words. Back then,she would never admit these kinds of thoughts about Sanosuke. But whatever it is that made her realize this,she opted to ignore it. "I should never entertain these thoughts about him or about any other guy." She sighed again and rolled on her futon to cuddle herself , not noticing the tears rolling down her porcelain cheeks…

"I'm lonely, alone and lonely…I am never going to be happy. When was the last time I even felt true happiness, ever since I lost my entire family, I have been miserable and had to find ways to survive with the hope that one day I will see them again. Why do I have to experience all these?"

She buried her face in the pillow and cried her heart out. Balling her small fists,she threw hard punches at the pillows letting her emotions take over her now. There would be no one to hear or see her this way, nobody would see her weakness, because she has no one right now except herself. Nobody would hold her like her mother would every time she is sad and nobody would comfort her the way her father would and assure her that everything would be alright.

She laid back on the futon, wiping her tears away. Beautiful but Empty cinnamon brown eyes stared at the ceiling , eyes with the look of coldness and nothingness. " Am I bitter?" Megumi began to ask herself. "Yes, maybe I am. Why? What have I done to deserve this? I mean I know I did awful things before with the opium thing but was it my fault? None of those things would happen if I wasn't left alone, if I didn't lose all of you. I wouldn't have to suffer this much. Why did you leave me? I wish had died with all of you . I wish that Kanryuu had killed me or that baka roosterhead didn't stop me from killing myself. I wish Kenshin, Kaoru and Yahiko didn't try to save me..." Tears started to flood her eyes again but this time she held herself back. She brushed tears away with her hands and in low voice,bitter voice, told herself. "Crying wouldn't fix my life."

The coldness of the autumn night breeze began to creep on her slender body. Slowly, it started to devour her soul and freeze her already cold heart. Men were right, She is cold... yes she is and she doesn't care. She just dreams of disappearing in a blink of an eye as if she never existed. She just doesn't care about her life anymore…nobody did and nobody ever will.

A/N: Megumi is OOC and bitter here because I'm trying to show that she is human too. She has weaknesses; she must have felt sad,lonely and a bit bitter all those years. Every person has it's own moments of breaking down. No matter how strong that person may seem to be, they could still crumble... I hope you like it!...thanks for reading !mwah