I wanted him but he was just an inch too far from my reach.
He had a home to save and I should just step out of his path.
I didn't want to but I did. Why did I? Why couldn't I be selfish just once again?
I mean my reputation told people that I got what I wanted when I wanted.
But no I just couldn't be selfish. Not this time.
If you looked down the halls you could only see my retreating figure.
I didn't want to face him but he was my first officer, his seat less than 10 feet from me.
I couldn't confide my love for him to my best friend he would run away from me just like all the others.
He was infatuated with her. Her, of all people.
My sighs would fill the air making you question if I was ok and my simple answer?
I am fine. It's an outright lie you can tell but you don't comment.
You smile sweetly and rub my back like a mother would do. You know who it is and why.
I feel so weighted down that I can't tell him. I WANT TO SO BADLY!
When I am alone I cry silently and when I see him suddenly in the hall he askes me about it and I say nothing.
He askes me again not quite settling on nothing. I answer with a bit of truth, it is just a bad memory pulling at me and I just needed a cry.
He looks at me says something. I stop when I hear what he says. He loves and cares about me.
I don't move. I start to talk and she enters again and starts to pull him away. He looked back at me with heartbreak in his eyes.
I reached for you to pull you back and tell you I love you too that I would risk everything for you.
But once again I wanted him but he was just an inch too far from my reach…