You can't say your happy.
But you can't say you're not either.
Of course it's hard watching your best friend and love of your life fawn over your other best friend.
Santana has always been somewhat of recurring problem in your life.
She's captured your heart and stomped on it.
And you just kept giving it back to her.
Britany will always be the number one blonde in Santana's life and you've grown to accept this.
Doesn't mean it still doesn't hurt.
Sometimes she'll cancel plans with Britany to spend time with you.
"I'm always with Britts, come on, Q let's hang out."
You don't argue.
It's nice when it's just you two, when it's only Santana focusing on you.
Of course, Britany texts Santana during these moments.
And it hurts to know that only she can make Santana's face light up in a matter of seconds.
"What did she say this time?" You don't mean for it to sound so weak.
So pathetic and annoyed and hurt.
But she doesn't notice.
"She said: 'Lord Tubbington made friends with Mickey Mouse and invited him over. Now Mickey Mouse is really tired and Lord Tubbington keeps poking him."
It takes you a minute to realize she meant that her cat killed a mouse, brought it in her house, and is now eating it.
You wonder when Quinn and Santana became Britany and Santana.
And why you never stopped it.
CHAPTER ONE END:
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You know how hard it is for her.
You know that you're making it harder by doing this.
That you two won't last forever because everybody else wants her too.
You know you're being selfish.
But maybe, just this once, you can be.