"I will be beautiful today
I will be beautiful today
I will make papa proud
And I'll be beautiful
Brush my long hair
Put on makeup
And ill smile that special smile
And I'll be beautiful"
Grell sang this song as he brushed his waist length hair. 'I wish papa would let me act like the other boys, I wanna play in the mud two instead of cooking and cleaning I wish mama was still alive."
At the mention of her Grell shudder.
Flashback
It was a cold October and Grell was on his way home from school at 8 he was smartest in his class and was excited to get home to study.
But the house was oddly silent and none of the lights were on.
"Mommy, Daddy" Grell said as he went into the Kitchen only to see pools of blood on the floor and seeing his dad loom over his mother's still form. "Daddy what happened to mommy" Grell said silently. His father turned around with a blood knife and manic glint in his eyes "She wanted to abandon us we can't have that so I put her to rest" he grabbed Grell's shoulder "You're not goanna leave to right?" Grell shook his head no "Good, now you're goanna grow your hair out and do everything mommy did ok" Grell nodded his head yes. "Now stay still as i lay mommy in the yard" said Grells father.
Ever since then Grell out his hair and did everything papa told him to do.
End of Flashback
Grells POV
"GRELLIANA come down here and make breakfast" said David his father.
I sighed and put on my corset for the hourglass shape and then slide the black dress over it and finall put my hair up in a swift ponytail as he hurried down stairs.
"Coming Papa" I yelled as I came into the kitchen. David was drumming his hand on the table 'Uh oh he's mad' I put on my fakes smile and flirtatiously wrap my arms around his neck "I'm sorry papa but I had to look nice for you" I whisper.
David grabs my wrist and makes me stand in front of him " You know I have work at 830but you still pull this shit at 745, look at you all fat (pinching Grell's thighs) cause you lay around doing nothing" at the end of his statement he got up and backhanded me in the face. I whimper and back up against the wall he looms over me "I'm sorry papa I won't do it again"
David looks down at me and sneers "Make sure of it he spits on me and leaves out the door.
I sigh and begin to clean up the house. After mom died or 'killed' David moved me away and made me homeschool myself for a couple of years till I turn 13. He began making me kiss him on the lips or sit on his lap. He didn't care about school but for me to be a house wife, so I beg to at least go to night school and he finally said yes it worked for him because he usually brought home whores.
I cry at the thought of school I hated that place so much because they didn't accept me because I was transgender 'Not by choice '. I knew it's was going to be another day of torture for Grell Sutcliff.