I recall being normal, it used to be that I could go on my day not having to be curious of what my mind held for me later on in my evening. DxD changed it all for me as for once I watched it I was sucked in and conceived by the endless sexuality played throughout the storyline. Once watching DxD the show seemed to manifest my mind making the thought of DxD almost inescapable without the help of my friends. The shire feeling that I would receive if I was not to watch the emotion controlling series was inevitable. As my interests grew towards the show I was unable the hold back the unnecessary urge to watch the three seasons in less than five days. Then as the series reached its cliffhanging end I began what is only known by few as the DxD depression. When you experience DxD depression you question, "Is life worth living? What's my purpose now…. Without DxD what's there to look forward to?"

The depression starts with the engrossing of the show, and how such a show could end so promptly. Eventually it led to me becoming sedentary for usually hours on end deliberating, and crying in sorrow and disbelief that I was still even managing to use my already depleted body. Misanthropy came next where I sat alone in my room in the consuming darkness replaying episodes in my head; feeling just a sliver of ecstasy executing my urge to end it all. About halfway through my depression I found my accommodating friend help me through my time of perplexity. He knew what I was going through for he earlier in the year watched the show before. Most of his indictments proved he had felt this, and so with his witty remarks and humor tried to enlighten me through my endeavor; helping to reach a light self esteem within me. Well fought he managed to make me feel better and that it will only last for a brief period. Out of his tomfoolery he sent me a link. The link was to a website labeled , I was meddlesome; becoming so ingenious of what could happen if I were to perform this so called "spell". Out of me being so venturesome and desperate for any nature of my cherished show I clicked the link. This brought me forth to the spell in which I said so needlessly, and without hesitation. I recited the spell two times as instructed becoming so overwhelmed with the thought of there might be a chance this could work. I then waited….. on edge in spite of something might happen. Minutes passed as I grew nearer to reality; "Maybe I am desperate." I thought in grieve. "I've become so lost in myself, that I've now tried within my ability to make a character from my favorite show become real." " And for what?" I thought. "My imagination has become who I strive to be, and it's taking me over." Shortly after coming to my senses I went to bed.

6:30 struck with my alarm for school blaring as I awoke to fatigued, and many feelings of lamentation. I primed to stand up for in my mind there was no reason to live life anymore. I decided that I might as well try go to school making it to my family that I wasn't asking for satisfaction. I sprang up and walked over to my closet. I opened it, and with what only was the midst of my wellbeing saw what I can't persevere in my self consciousness. I saw Ries Gremory from DxD. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. Still in distraught she looked up at me with her shimmering bold blue eyes, and said "I've been waiting." And with my only natural human instincts I jolted back scared, and with my mind racing and me telling myself "I've lost it!" As I landed on the floor I looked back at my open, empty, lifeless closet….. with the pump of adrenaline pulsating through me.